10 FEET TALL

Life has a peculiar way of making us feel were limited in spaces, we could say. People can build relationships in far or nearby places, if they commit and believe. Any person can make you feel invincible,invisible and sometimes they can test us in patience. To make us question whether or not they were the correct choice we should have made in this life, either without Gods permission or to fill our own desires and ambitions. Time will strengthen us in all of our life lessons, while some of us continue to struggle with those lessons. And maturity will change the way we think, act out and verbally share words that can kill or prosper dreams.

I’ve heard that finding true love sounds crazy. And know I’m not limiting this topic to man and woman. But how much can we really accomplish in this life without one another?  

One day love changed everything. It broadened our views. It gave us a reason to smile. It brought to life new ideas that we could have never thought of. It made us responsible for one another. It taught us valuable lessons to be more open minded in our understandings even if we choose to be limited in our understandings. We learned the importance of who we invest and what we invest our time in to avoid negativity and repetition.  

One day time made it clear to us. Just wait before allowing congestion to crowd your space, again. So some of us looked deeper into ourselves and the situations that we brought on our self’s if not a life lesson with something or someone else. Is when we found out what our journies were all about; searching in temporary places; filled with many faces and sometimes we find ourselves played out from mind games, sold out to lies and deceit. So to be enlightened is not all a bad thing. When you’re prepared to accept a life change from doing repetitious things.  And in that fairy tale the truth exist where if we have not have learned to love and rest, and learn from our challenges. To identify with those little things we can or refuse not to change in ourselves. Then how can we expect to be loved, respected and appreciated in the right ways, by anyone else? And I know some people refuse to believe in anything. But yet some not all of us have not managed to be alone. In order to learn how to stand on our own. And just like our individual fantasies we like to hold onto what our minds allow us to dream. Then why can't life also hold onto what it will allow us to or not to do.    

So if you’re feeling a certain way in life about the choices you’ve made in life. Allow time to heal your mind. Allow lessons to groom your maturity. Allow your soul to be enlightened by the opposite of negative energy. Allow old lovers to find a new way. And no, not everyone is meant to be married or in love the same way. Because everyone has their own idea of what happiness is in accomplishing personal ideas.

For me I knew in those moments of triumph, defeat and tragedy how time allowed me to search for me.  And plans were already in place without any reservations of whom and where it would lead me. So remember you are the executor of your master plan. You are visionary in what waits ahead of your destiny.  It is you who chooses what to believe or not to believe. So when those challenges of life waivers our human minds it is on us to identify with if people are not always at fault in making us feel 1” inch or 10 feet TALL. 

The Final Cut

There will come a time in this life when you will be forced to cut people out of your life. Even the ones you love the most; that often hurt you even more. But not limited to the people you expected to have your back and more understanding. And what brought on this passage today is because some of us have lived to long in other people’s ‘redundancy, NEGATIVITY, sold dreams and captivity of repetition in doing the same old things. And today they will meet their Faith. At the Final Destination stage. 

It’s quit ok to remind some people that this is my life not yours. It’s ok to remind mom and dad that I’m going to continue to make mistakes, but until I mature in my choices you will be forced to allow me to bend not break. And we should not always assume one another is looking for random answers, sometimes we just need someone who is willing to patiently listen.  So maybe we can all if not both agree to disagree once we decide on how to sit down openly. To work through or modify the struggles we are all inevitable to go through with family, relationships, business deals or just taking time alone, to figure what are we continuously doing wrong,  especially where the “bread winner” has lesser, of what your use to of having more.  Is where we should limit our arrogant demands to gathering answers for our self- inflicted if not idealistic choices then turn around and curse the hand that is helping you gathering some understanding.  And if you think that you’re not affected by change look around the world it’s ongoing in all people and generations. Who struggle in a world of ongoing insanity and some people may not admit it. But it’s hard waking up to live. Why, because of the choices our leaders and people are making. Then turn around and judge your change to no longer do things the same old way.

I'll add this one in just because it's obvious that males and females will continue in mating or having promiscuous sex. Which means there is a possibility that not everyone has found the right person to love yet? If not finding true love with a person of interest who will care enough to stand with them through life situations. So therefore people continue in seeking to fill a void with no marital status or commitments. And that's the reason why Statistics say "there is an increased on the rise of unmarried cultures" in these times which has not fail to result in major situations where people are running low. So no, I did not make this up. We as people made a choice. And I'm not saying we are all at fault because there are still strong beliefs in the best interest of family with mutual understandings. But what I'm saying is this generation of children in all ages will either find or lose hope due to situations we place high expectations. So therefore we as a people depend on systems that later judge our dispositions.  And who suffers the most as "children all around the world” who grow up in an environment of "immature logic". And no money is enough to solve this madness, in whatever class you associate yourself with. So I'll leave you on this note to wonder why other people and family members are carrying the extreme load of someone else. Then maybe we can process where our elders are finding permanent rest. Leaving behind a generation commanded to lead us into a state of Parental Assistance. Just to fix this new generation of wandering children of all ages.     

I’ve matured in places my peers and family noticed, and strangers tested me. And maybe it could be they don’t accept the limitations and boundaries we possess and the power to set them in.  And if not we will learn the reasoning for our hardships. And I’m not saying I have all the answers and deal with every situation and people with patience.  What I’m saying is it did not take an ordinary person to write Angel passages based on Humanity in this life. We have to humble ourselves to make sense out of it. Before assuming we were authorize to step into God’s plans with our averaged minded thinking.

I’ve drifted through seasons where my mind went untouched. I’ve drifted through seasons of mismanaged financial investments; and either people did not want to or accept that having a plan of my own simply meant investing in what we would later need to raise our children, shelter our elders and find rest when the wages and taxes no longer made sense. Is when men and children of all nations would grow angrier because of their own internal fears, and hate of not accepting their lack of planning in what is occurring or has yet to happen “here, there and everywhere.  And yes, we do only live life once. So why is it we fuss and fight over who is wrong or right? Before men all nations come to terms with “the inability to patch things up again”. Just because of our attitudes of not having  plans. Where we were not mature enough to subdue or actions to find a balance in collective understandings. When all it required was to listen to one another’s concerns and explanations, not demands to take on repeated choices.  And I’ll share with you some tea that will keep you sipping on it with laughter for life; in this entire world we live in some people think that not one thing that points out there imperfections applies to them. It’s always someone else who lacks common sense in not identifying with it. But the reality is we all are in a situation because of ourselves or someone else’s demands, concerns or ongoing explanations.

I have been wealthy in my life more than a dozen of times. I have been poor in my life where I lacked the strength to say “no more” than half of the time. I have labored beyond the pay of what I was trained for to achieve in what someone else accomplished above their bottom lines not desperate basic needs. I have made sacrifices to broaden my education. I have borrowed to assist someone who did not plan for it, which left me to answer for it. I once thought love would change the love for money. Until I learned that selfishness has no plan, but to be buried with it. See I figured out; why all situations and people are not meant to be figured out. Just politely turn down their volumes if not “cutoff” whatever and whoever is causing the direct threat; to your own internal happiness.   

People and The Drama

According to the "drama" it does exist in all forms of human existence. Because people would love to rule out their own "bad habits and intensions" when it comes to dealing with other people and their emotions. So the question is when was the last time you engaged in the "drama voluntarily or through a "negative or positive verbal comment with shallow intensions" if not "a physical altercation". So what if it could possibly be that confrontation" is a part of how we choose to react in place of knowledge that we fear acceptance if not change and maturity in our understanding because time did allow us a moment to gather our thoughts and transition forward in order for people to resume life beyond the drama. And if your personality is mentally confident then you're the type of person who "executes are acknowledges the drama" once you see it coming, which is not related to a Black movement, just people who have a right to silently express their 1 amendment concerns written by; you fill in the blanks. And if you never comprehend that drama places boundaries on how we deal with "one another" in real life reality. Let's review the current debates between our Republicans and Democratic parties who really think they're divided in this "race". When in actuality it has become a "Hillary" if not "Obama" debate. Instead of resolutions and accountability of all the years any leader has ever promised the restructuring of the systems that continue to remain broken in this country. So who’s choice is it to be entertained about what has escalated with challening the change? And it's not because of Obama and Hillary, what about sexual freedom to disease progressing, younger and younger pregnacies, one working income unmarried families, or minimum wage in all progressing taxing countries. While there is uncontrolled spending and sometimes government assistance does or not exist. So the reasoning to why there is an increase of poverty; because people in all nations are really struggling. So this argument did not just began. This ripple affect started way back in every generation. Where men and women worked off the land to provide for their families and pay the tax man to keep temporary ownership of their lands, not just 40 acres and a mule given to the black people once slavery was removed. So the economic games is a straight strategy to keeping the working class "on edge, while dealing with  dramatic adveristy" and until those dramatic leaders place their asses flat down in a chair around the world with some real intentions of resolving the broken systems with some clear communications. We as a people will remain in the condition were in. Because of our world leaders in control of  balancing out the "budget and politics" over people who make up this world that live in these micromanaging systems. We love to debate mention but avoid explaining how and why this device has full control of all "access" to what  men "may borrow, earn if not denied to have". 

And if you have never taken one moment to think your opinion or vote. Then maybe you should reconsider what you're in and who's responsible for figuring it out. Because one day is now and people of all calibers are at the realization that drama does exist in this free country were all people of races that have been welcomed to live in. But it comes with rules and many conditions. And although money provides access remember credit is only a promise, to pay back. We have yet to manage what we incur of bad relationships and investments through our poverty thinking and racially motive actions.

I will share with you this if we as a people do not implement some real time to figure out; that drama is often used as a another person's way out.  And instead of feeling you have been made a fool of; because we are known to argue, disagree and judge with whatever proceeds out of our mouths. Then maybe the actions we project will not always come off that we suffer from internal issues we have not yet to deal with. When the reality is all and anytype of people 'act out" to either gain attention and support of what they need other people to believe in. Regardless if they know its some foolishness it allows their drama to continue. Simply because we look for answers but avoid in knowing how to ask the "accurate" questions. 

My rule of thumb is what I once ignored "was how to not get so involved, with sideway conversations, philosophically smart assess with gargled information, and people seeking attention with dramatic intensions. In a real world where all people if not some people have learned that not taking any accountability only leads up to a reality of facing full responsibilities. So it does not matter "who or what "color of people are involved, what titles we have earned and credibility that is rapidly lost. Once people are turned off is where some people just can't exist without the dramatics and attention. That validate some people in a strange way in how they have accomplished gaining a reputation.

So let's end the rants and rage, and focus on the drama instead:

In a generation that acts as if there is a limitation of concerns and commitment to one another, but more of an economical interest that involves living together. We have found ourselves unsheltered in an environment of "shacking". So you would think there should be little to no excuse to why men and women, or young people walk around with their heads hung low. If not searching the ground with their backs bent over in any culture. And let's not be misled that having money is an access but if you listen closely to why even the richest lose sleep at night.

In what is a reality of sandwiched generations where grandmothers or no longer reserve. They still hang out and date younger and twerk in the club, and appear on reality shows. And if not single and settled down they take pride in being called cougars. And no pun intended just make sure the young people you date have a plan already in motion. Because one day father time will test who will stick around and have your best interest.

In a generation where leadership is having the power to dictate who has or will take a number and wait. If there will be a cost of living increase for social security, oh maybe many have not read there may not be another increase for the next 1 to 3 years. What I'm saying is sometimes we must stick to locking the doors, reading what we think is not of relevance, understanding what is contributing to the increase of human statistics by paying more attention to what direction we are being stirred in. And how systems are keeping folks in a trans. And this is of importance but most of us are to caught up in our own relevance. To be made aware of that sexual tranmistted diseases that continue in progression. And just because you can't see all the faces it lies dormant in understand sexual perversion exist in all ages in every population. That people can't bear to greet one another with kindess. But they can agree on unprotected sex then later judge who increases the statistics.  

There is nothing that is not real of what has been shared in the dialogues of Angel L. But somehow we profusely believe we are not another person’s story. But the reality is we are the masters in the created drama we bring into existence. So allow peace in this human race to change the faces of how we love, but act as if we hate of one another. And if any human being "hates" may you find judgment in your own conscious space.  

Blind -Sided

Although it may seem as if some people will never change. Whether it because of our disagreements, partialness or our non-apologetic arrogance. Somehow the truth of our mannerism will always prevail in our human acts. Far beyond what we call “tainted” evidence in what we waste no time to justify with what had to happen in questionable circumstances. Or what is of non-evident to some of us who are not quick to pick up on other people’s act of vagueness which does exist in any and all human relationships through divisive acts of craftiness. Working our mental peace where the true source of our individual happiness lays.

I was recently told “persistence overcomes resistance”. So immediately I logically geared my thoughts into a clearer direction. Not vague in knowledge to see the real intentions in which this person attempted to guide me in. This person was unaware of my self-preservation in confidence that allured me away from the evil that “good and bad people” set the stage. To manipulate the choices in which you do possess of control in determining what is reality and not a disillusion of our own destiny. Because where it may seem there is influence and control of what you can or not see. Please believe that it is in knowing the difference of what causes the affect. That will keep our minds mentally capable to process unhuman acts. When caught up in another person’s persistence.

The truth will always prevail. But it will not always be something people are comfortable to accept, receive and or believe. But it will always show-up in our choices, speeches and arrogance ways. That many people are not prepared to change, if not adjust of their ways. So instead we continue to co-exist in our flawless ways of thinking. To rationalize with the idea of “why and how” we should change but find so many challenges to remain the same. In a beautiful world filled with passion to hold onto discretions regarding “whether or not “our steps have been ordered” by God. And what I mean is not all people believe in God, but many people do claim religion of what is their truth to justify how they will continue to live. Then blame the final outcome on what someone did or did not reveal to them. 

And on a lighter note here is where we are in Humanity still searching for what we want. And still not of acceptance of the one we truly need. So we continue this rapid rate of velocity. In whatever people find in their own fulfillment to believe meanwhile we as a people are really struggling to overcome a time where our actions never failed at being excelled. To whether we should question our order of misdirection through persistence, so we continue to seek answers but not answering the right questions. In places current events people hornist misinterpretations through direction. Because a person of interest

Who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words"

-Elbert Hubbard

Now apply this analogy to every breathing human being so that you can process some understanding in this human race. 

Angel L. wishes all races; peace if not one page of human understanding.

People Purge

For every experience in love there is a "process" of challenges tagged to it and who we fall in and out of love with. And so many people will never admit "I've been in and out of love" more than I've enjoyed it. But maybe we just need to figure out that love is never about "one's self". Love warns us of our enemies; disrespect, selfishness, refusal of our obligations, laziness to change with deceit, spiritual misguidance and emotional negligence and what about the "old cliché" of voicing "I have options". Love is seductive, natural and educating but not absoluteness. Love is an emotion that stimulates all conscious way of thinking. Love is positively controlling and reminds us in every minute of the day "of how you need me" is the reasoning to why we of all colors can't stop fantasizing about it in our lives, because love is all the functioning components of a thinking mind, moving body and yearning soul that repeatedly proves why we're so emotional. Love has a way of revealing our hidden things. And forcing out of us to share truth in what we had no reasoning to. Love has tamed all races of man for generations of all ages. And if we have not managed to somehow show so much of our asses by disrespecting the power of it, then some of us have found the respect in finding out the reasoning to understanding why being in "LOVE" is uncensored with no prejudice and limitations.  

Today our prayers go out to the Sterling and Philando Castilles family. In the midst of losing two more black men to a system that monitors black lives. But what's even more confusing is the mentality of who will be judged strategically if not temporarily placed on "administrative leave". In a country that people swear is non-prejudice. But for a black life this system covers up "lynchings" with background checks and warrants if not arrest. Because validating politics is referenced back to economics and environment. But this is what happens when the color of our skin; reveals the real emotions.       

One day love spoke to HUMANITY but we we're not listening when it shared "while you were wondering around in the dark looking for me "love". I was the light you were walking in and chose to not see". So what I've learned is how to relate in love from a more mature mental, spiritual and physical capacity. Why, because not every person in this human race "will" or is "looking" to reciprocate and receive a loving form of gratification

Just because a person is born with disabilities; it does not mean they can't "feel and see"

Just because I got love for you; it does not mean that I'm in love with you and willing to respect what you're willing to prove. 

Just because we love and or pleasure, hide who we really are. Or perform above high expectations in our "sexual" innuendo's inside and outside of marriages and relationships, if not one time experimental hits; it does not mean someone or many will not pay for this rebellion of ways and extra insanity. And no offense to the talk show host who did not share the reality where our children, love ones and people we idolize to mate are not exempt from detouring into opposite places because some of us are struggling in facing our choices that have been made without asking Gods direction before we proceeded in pleasuring our immature natures.  

Just because in God we Trust; it does not mean that is the truthful belief of all in humanity

Just because people share their opinions and strong views; it does not mean people will never "agree or disagree" moving forward towards any type of transitioning concerning change. That affects "all nations of human beings". Are maybe we as a people honestly believe and accept that people are the real product of any "open, private and closed" environment. And if so then who really is "right and wrong, free or controlled, of sound mind are unstable" in spaces we write many rules, consume and assume, breed and birth past and this present generation of men and women. And we must be honest about the past where our people we did not have "to lean on" what we presently have. 

Just because we love our children, spouses and family; it does not mean that unbroken cycles will not suddenly challenge our faith. Where patience turns into more heartache and to many disappointments will push someone to walk away if the family does not pray, collectively on one page. 

Just because we vowed "I do"; it does not mean one day time will test what we may have or will go through. To see if real love is what we promised and made a vow to do.

Just because a leader loves to lead; it does not mean love conquers everything. Where people see struggle comes with change. 

Just because some of us have thicker skin; it does not mean we can't still learn from one another a different way of seeing things. 

Just because of the love I have for you. To promise I will ride or die for you; it does not necessarily mean that life will not bring a change of mind. That will test that loyalty.        

Just because I love you; it does not mean I will not challenge you in those moments you are weak. Why, because the reality is one day I will not be around to pick you up where people will run your ass straight into the ground.  

  

Just because people believe they are the truth; it does not mean you follow what you perceive of what you have yet to find out of your own understanding.  

The word Purgatory as we understand is "an intermediate state after physical death". But what happens before we reach the end of it. Theologically speaking and you don't have to believe what is not seen in this life. You don't have to change until time forces you to pick one side. But you will gain some focus and insight if love is the direction that will bring us out of darkness into the light 

Sterile Environment

In any environment people are said to be "the extent of what they breathe". And just because people share their opinions and strong views it does not mean that people will never "agree or disagree" moving forward towards anytype of transitioning concerning change. That affects "all nations of living human beings". Are maybe we as a people honestly "believe" and "accept" that people are the real product of any "open, private and closed" environment. And if so then who really is "right and wrong, free and controlled, of a sound mind are unstable" in spaces were people write many rules, consume and assume, judge and persecute, breed and birth" the people that make up an environment. Past and present generation of men and women. 

Remember back in the day what was it about cultural diversity that brought out so much positive energy. What inspired people young and old to be more enthusiatic about  sharing their visions. What did we teach our children and families regarding the importance of morals, values and beliefs? And in hard times how do we make ends meet with nickles, pennies and dimes. We shared what we had in good times and bad. And what about those families who lived in better conditions but around cutural differences. There still exist some honest people who believe we still have to live in unity. And that is the reasoning to why we are racially intergrated in more than one way in this life.  So how is it we think our challenges and differences don't carry the same burdens. Because life will change all of us in every physical form and fashional way. To show us ourselves in every human way.

Remember how we use to set on the front stoop or steps  and watch our children play way down the street as we watched out for one another in peace. Do you recall a moment where people conciously said "excuse me" while holding the door open as you entered completely? And it did not matter whether you were young or old. People were just more aware a d in control. Do you remember having arguments and disagreements that turned out to be nothing more than “a handshake, fair fight if  not forgiveness” because people respected having their right to the preservaion of life. Do you remember being content with what you had. Because family was all you really needed. And just in case you were favored to have more financial freedom being alone felt all alone. And sometimes you will find people who are wired a ceratin way. They feel that material things draw more interest of people with honest feelings. One scenario of closed minded thinking. Why, because overtime you were taught to be accepted by a certain class " and sometimes you must 💋 a little ass", or maybe we just need validation. 

Remember responding to this question whether it was a prospective relationship in your personal life or a business opportunity. People always ask   “What are your future  plans or 2-5 goals”, and what have you implemented to get a final outcome. And this is where people see the signs but ignore them for “instant gratification”. I mean by now we all know that we are the “microwave generation”. 

  

I see people without a drivers license and over due child support payments because the system continues to tally up the time in which you will pay more to be unconfined. And next year if you are behind 6 months in taking care of those kids there will be rejection on the final date of your vehicle inspections. I see people who can pay taxes but neglect payments for more access. Until garnishment of wages and their freedom to serve for tax evasion. I see homes levied because of debt; so why do the creditors extend us more access. I see new retail stores, quality dining and high rise buildings in old neighborhoods where regular folks honestly pay what they make without a cost of living increase.

Remember how companies valued employees. And how the stock maket has all the right strategies for your money. But yet no one has a real plan where the FEDS are managing. With all due respect before there was a system to control and monitor the people. People managed what they had with minimum direction.

And before I close out. There is one more observation in working 8 hours a day.To figure out how to make a paycheck stretch over 40 hours a week. And if are paid a salary then what makes up the difference in what we still need. Because there is tremendous gap between the blue collard and white collard worker. Which is any human being of nature can manage to survive, it’s how many of  us are struggling to live that will cause each and every one of us burdens in this life.

So what will we do to sterilize our own lives. And better groom this aggressive generation to not limiting ourselves to the bottom lines?  

24

The first 24 hours in a day we should never assume that all people organize their plans around our individual objectives. But I will cover different areas that are non -objective. In what we either have of a plan of our own. If not how we reorganize our lives to deal with the unexpected in our lives. And for many people around the entire world it may just be their routine lifestyle where they are content in making personal sacrifices. To cater if not give some solid direction. To someone else who lacks personal motivation if not knowing they consistently give to selfish people who have made them feel a sense of "obligation". And no, I did not make this passage up; in a world of people who show us up.  

I do not believe in wasting time. And yes, it finally came with maturity over-time. And what made me more aware of the time we don't have; is how some people have not mentally progressed in complex situations, and systems continue in leveraging. And the truth of the matter is; it all depends on the people’s individual and intellectual perception of this. So what is this writer saying to all cultures in all nations?     

Time has no fault in its own movement; Time revolves around the world and space we live in; between work- family-vacations, relationships-choices-social media, church-change-challenges-depression, harvest-education, and much more required direction.    

Time has no return once it moves ahead; so therefore what you “should of, would of or could of” have did. Eventually is irrelevant in it.

Time does not consider; your choices and mistakes, repetition and procrastinations. Time is not your baby sitter that will sit around and wait. Until you feel you’re ready to mature up and face life.

Time is the book keeper of us all. Time knows when you will awake and when you will fall asleep at night.

Time knows; who, when, why and how people will attempt to cheat its final destiny. Time is not judgmental or racially prejudice it allows us all time to live.   

Time knew; who would mourn, laugh, pray, steal, cheat, reap and sew. Time aligned your partner to end up on your side. Time had a date for us all to fall deep in love. Time knew what you wanted just when you would need it. Time knew what you would deny. Time allowed us to make questionable choices and adjust to change in our life. Time will mature us all in our thinking over-time. Time preserved space for us to deal with ourselves. Time planned for you, me and everyone else.   

Time knew who would be a father and mother, not baby daddy and momma, sex partners. Time knew what responsibilities people would create. Time was ready once those levees would break. Time knew the truth that we would judge one another in what we all continue or not choose to do.

Time knew who you would turn out be in this life. Time knew who would not last on this ride. Time keeps a record of who will die and who is fighting to survive. 

Time knew the people who would come in and exit out of our lives. Time knew hard times were part of our entire test. So time was directed to have limitations to grant us all rest. Time would make you stronger in your will to survive because God is the creator of time. 

Time has a window for you and I to find our purpose in this life. Because God knew it would take some people a short time to get it right. While others would think they have a life time to play childish games in this life.

“I shared wisdom with a family member who I love with all my heart” but sometimes even family members waste brain matter to challenge your matured thoughts. This love one responded to a comment I made “everyone in this entire life gets their turn” immediately this love one sarcastically replied “when will yours come”? I silently said "lord help" some of us. And if we were as closer to GOD as we thought, we would be more humble before we speak. And if this love one had lived in my years of their young life maybe the demons that challenge this love one would not be hell to fight. 

“I shared biblical scripture with a married man-“and yes this was always a childhood friend, no ass involved”. But before I begin first be mindful of this; in whomever marriage or relationship you plan to interfere with please gather all the correct information. Before taking the credit that you have implemented some type of direction in what they have progressed in. Of knowing what they both need is God and encouragement in their established relationships because people can swear their done. But men and women, boys and girls see the signs. Where nobody is walking away from a life this couple has managed to sustain.

“It’s a challenge to address another person’s ill-mannered actions. And many people will accept and justify it comes in being set in their “aging ways”.  And what I mean is listening clearly to what I'm saying; we all work off of emotions and sometimes we tend to think we’re fixing other people’s issues and problems. By making people we care for crippled to their obligations. So allow your grown children to stretch and bend, leave a little space for our youth to grow-up in. Love your parents respectfully. And parents please refer to Colossians and Ephesians where it speaks directly to those parents "provoking their children to some form of rebellion", because people in the real world will not fail to test the both of you. Because of something they are not managing well to get through. And remember no money in this life can buy real people, peace, love and joy.

“I see bad boys everyday” some sit in church and yell "wan't God do it" in different cultures-in every corner of the world. Some are dressed in business suites, black robes, some have college if not penitentiary credibility, some hang on the street corners around the way, and some pride fully represent “this my hood clicks” but never hold a title for "land investments”. Some like using their hands on women and girls, in a violent way. And it's sad to process some women and girls think "this is the way he loves me". Some bad boys assume women like to be mistreated or tricked out for prostitution, dislocated from their families and children. And it's sad to see even in the Gay community; domestic abuse does exist. Now let's proceed to compliment the BAD BOY"S who are good providers and diligent; in caring for their children. They are humble, respectful and prayerful where the other bad boy entertains himself by feeding foolishness into a females bad habits, instead of bettering the both of them; by elevating her mind to be a better woman, mother or maybe even his wife because a male can identify with a certain type of "female characteristics", and who has not been taught how a young lady should act. Or even demand some common sense from a man with more than little respect.  So whatever choice female or male time allows you to make just make sure it benefits yourself in a respectable and positive way, ensure your children are protected, safe and will benefit; from your life choices of plans, that don't fall into the wrong hands.  

“I remember the day I had to let go & grow, it was in my 24 that I had to face who I allowed to dictate what they wanted from my life. So that left me with limited head space for the remaining of what I would even consider to make of smaller sacrifices for other people who still play games, with time that is not on their side: 

I rest 7 hours.  I work for 8 hours a day, and travel on the highway 1.5 hours on the run. I spend 1 hour a day dedicated to my Angel L writings, researching, socializing and digesting what in the world is happening. I plan my travels 1 hr. every week around what I prioritize 30 minutes a day  to pay on every month on the 1^st and 15^th. I figured out how much time I waste trying to "code crack" why some people including myself deal with repetition. By listening and watching in the same 15-30 minutes a day how we work in insanity. I have spent more than 2.5 hours a night to be a support system to the children in my life. I choose not to question those people who act out by creating more responsibilities. I'm known to volunteer2 hours to spread awareness for environmental cause. I silently meditate for 30 minutes every day to process who really has a real life plan in the circle of my family and friends; puffed up egos, pride and payback intentions. And no I don’t have all the answers. But I do have more than enough direction. I do attend church even when I'm out contributing to missionary work. I wrap up my day every night with praying to God "for forgiveness" of any wrong doing in my life because people will drive you straight out of your own mind. If you allow them the space to clutter it up with waste. In what we all have been blessed to live in of 24 hours in a day.

World Wide

Leadership was formed in all nations. And full circle could occur in any world affair. Where leaders or people agree to compromise, fulfill promises and sign off on terms which include; agreements and negotiations. And before we proceed with our judgment, philosophy and reactions; let's ensure we have our facts clear about the relationships we have established with full if not minimum understandings. So that the people have some clarity in how changes in any government forfeit leaderships and downsizes development. Leaving real people to deal with consequences in what has been our history; of coordinating peace in unity, bridging the gap of poverty and economic development in every corner of any country. For many generations we have seen great sufferings, we have seen some prosperity, we have seen leadership change. We have seen people enraged. We continue in mentoring our youth, with what we have been provided with of tools in our public schools. We have not managed to figure out; why have our leaders not changed, what our founding fathers once wrote a long time ago.

The world has heard some disturbing information that has alarmed all nations where our leaders are saying it to be "the biggest blow" since World War II. So therefore this is an opportune time to deal with the minuet issues that will keep our countries behind. In future debate of how and why the people should live their own lives. And for every word written in our Constitution and Countries Peace Treaties for the people rights; will be exercised in circumstances that arise in real life.

So much has changed in the world we live in today from; the 14th amendment our Women right's, The Thirteenth amendment abolishing slavery & the continuous progression of human trafficking, And in our 14th amendment it "guarantees that no state shall “deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law.”. The Second Amendment pro's and con's on gun control, Adolf Hitler's Battles, Genocide & Wars, The 16th street Baptist Church Bombings. In Aug. 1955 a teenager Emmett Louise Till faced his brutal death, and in September of 1955 his murderers walked out alive. And where was the 8th amendment when this black child's life depended on it. The eight amendment talks about the War on Drugs; mean while it continues to cross borders from other countries into states and small cities. And 2016 an African male faces a felony for "possession, use, production, sale or transportation" if not 5 to 30 years of life in prison. The Great Depression did not set people's character back in the 1920's and 1930's, Henry Ford managed to pay his workers $5 more per day, regardless of stories made. And in 2016 workers finally see a change in minimum wage. The Domestic violence clause "This protection is for the people. The U. S. Supreme Court so held in Texas v. White (1868), saying it's the people who are guaranteed this protection." In the 20th and the 21st centuries, we have harmed ourselves greatly through massive chemical exposures, causing diseases and behavioral and educational deficits" and the truth has always existed, where real people manage to live through it, some with limitation or no choices. Why, because some people will act as if life will not happen in and around the entire world. Of all colors and nations of men, women, boys and girls, ad yes, I'm known to express in clarity. So that even a child can comprehend what they can or not read. Therefore they are not always deprived of some direction to the unanswered questions we debate over in this life.

Examples of "freedom to speak in a world filled with areas of complexity.

"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe " - Albert Einstein

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever" -Mahatma Gandhi

"Our Founding Fathers" established directions for our change. But down the line of generations there was a division of thinking. Where some people fought for Peace, Unity, and Equal opportunity. Some people were for Bipartisan, Slavery and Genocide, no disrespect in light of those who remain to argue the truth of why over 100 million people lost their lives. Is why there are growing movements around the world that openly believe in Unity that one day all nations of men and women, boys and girls will allow Freedom to Ring. Beyond Hate, Corruption, Controversy and Aggressiveness thinking to stay in Misunderstandings.

So if people really want continue in adversity. Please answer this "if people really believe that God does not exist" then who on earth is causing all the hell and conflict, we have for ages and generations managed to deal with?

Straight-Sex-Gay Talk

Before we begin our Straight-Gay Talk let's be clear on one topic; when it comes to relating to our own children "young & old", family, spouses, strangers and friends. They will exercise the free will in making their own life choices. Therefore their choices will not always make sense in our reasoning. Timothy I is a good read. If you're ever in need of change.

And we're not focused; on the relationship & choices. We're observing; certain type of behaviors in actions. Because we're free to love whomever we feel comfortable.

But we also are curious; in every age and race. Regarding human sexuality. Is physcologically understanding who we are as individual human beings.

Sometimes we would like to believe "it's just a phase" Eventually they will mature in their own space. Sometimes experimental moments in our lives transform us for the remainder of our lives. Sometimes people create a facade. to not expose who we, them are us; really are. 

In life. Sometimes people work on vulnerability to test you're strength in; sexuality, but weak in your prayer ability. So we can disagree until infinity. And in some countries gay rights, live short lives. And the truth of the matter is we all struggle through change if not transitioning.

Especially, when stress has max our mental limits. And it's more common to find people who find comfort in; casual sex. And not judged in their actions. As we figure out; our human preferences.

Today I will speak in light of our hardships, loss and different choices. And not every person's truth is found written in a book, located behind theories, numbered in a census check. Are voiced on the couch of a psychiatrist. Because people either have their own facts of what is accepted where many people will reject it. If you dare to bring light to their differences. So moving on. To Straight Sex-Gay Talk. Is humanity in rare form. Of who we are. And how we individually deal with ourselves; in transformation.

I use to wonder what internally makes us sexually different. Is it the way our bodies adjust to change overtime. Is it the outside physical appearance that allures our watching eyes, maybe it’s what we advertise. It is because someone close let us down in our lives. It is a stress mechanism. We are motived to perform sexual acts; to relieve ourselves.

Maybe it's a burning desire, of our addiction. Including is to control one another. Through sex. Or could it just be; in our wiring? We desire the same sex.

I use to wonder how a man could make love to a woman. Then make the same love to a man, but not through all the same entrances. But with the same emotional feelings. Or what could have been missing in this man's sexual appetite. Are desire to be loved. It All starts in the mental. That stirs the hearts. In him are. Emotionally. And by no means did I say "every curious man or woman is gay". We live from generation to generation. Piecing together. What we understand in these bodies.

Why? this is a new generation. And the reality is; we choose are not; whether out life styles align with; the Holy Bible. As we are not conformed by the world. We just figure out how do we live; with ourselves. Abd each other in life.

I see what men hear. I hear what women and men say. I've witnessed what people do. And the sad news is we're alway's negotiating on material things. But pay a higher "interest" in what we don't necessarily need. In the negotiation of our precious bodies. Including to maintain those temporary man made things.

Women and men meet and greet. They exchange their views on different topics and how relationships should work; prior to dating, waiting or straight proceeding to having sex.

In acknowledging with or without safety concerns. And a commitment. So we’re not alway's prepared when life happens. Including the birth of; planned and unplanned Parenthood. Because one day came faster than what we had expected.

One day a new generation of children will mature faster. In a world; of information, transformation & hardships. Attached to what comes with; valuable lessons.

where we will be held accountable for what we “did or not say”. To stir them in the right way. So we can relate to this saying “one day my child laid upon my heart, but tomorrow came, and now they run through my thoughts". 

I see women hug, and grab one another’s derriere. I hear woman accommodate one another sexually. We are taught by what we see. And react with one another; emotionally. 

I once visualized a woman grabbing my thighs & looking intensely into my eyes. Until I looked back and all I could see was lust, low self-esteem and loneliness; in this encounter. This human was mature enough to know. The trials in her own life. She personally endured.

In life we can pay to fix what's imperfect to our eyes; on the outside. But what is within broken. Requires of time, patience & healing. To get back to; love on ourselves 

Once this world of people have played with our hearts & minds. We are more cautious & aware. Once the mind and heart; no longer aligns. Is when people make choices in attempting to cure their sexual appetites. Whether we Find true love, we flow in & out; during the exploring in experiences. With each other. Are either we deal with the issues during of our hearts; during the human transformation. 

I use to wonder when life grew overwhelming. And the pressure became too much to bare. I knew God would alway's; protect and watch over me. But sometimes we are guilty of moving ahead of God's plan. To keep attempting writing our own versions.

And before we obeyed our flesh; one more time. The mind is wrecked & flustered with frustration. Thought's start to collide in formation. Is when anxiety causes; exhaustion & heart palpitations. 

 

In a world. If sex is televised; and alluring. In sexual gratification. 

Leaving the work. Of people remember; we still need compassion, patience and communication..

Where having sex; is not a safe game. Amongst the company we once invite into our sacred place. We trying and searching for change.

One day someone screamed "rape". My baby will never be the same.  One day our children were sold into sex slavery, by someone we called neighborly. One day there was a world of sexual transmitted diseases, people only grew more aggressive. One day single people were no longer alone. They now share a common interest in a married couple’s home. One day sex changed the world. And disturbed the innoce of little boys & little girls. 

Is when the world; was watching the change. And grew weary. Not knowing God's grace remains sufficient. Because of God's grace & mercy.

I could be wrong but in having sex or practicing abstinence we do have a choice. And Gay is a lifestyle. Transgender is a transition. And what we don't identify with of our individual choices.

We will comfortably continue. To embark; in the experience. With each other in a world of; humanism.

To figure out; what is sex. Before admitting to one another. Whether we found love. Are we're still anticipating; the next physical experience. With one another.