Soul Searching

A storm coming. I will never love again. Love predicted this contradiction. Because of the pain that causes so much heart break and tension. Demonstrated in our cold hearted mannerism.  

Love is patient, Love is Kind. Love is not arrogant & compromising in this world of broken promises that we struggle to satisfy one another in. And if we could reach the pinnacles of love; would we be happy within ourselves of what we search for of happiness and security in someone else?

Love said time is what we have on our side right now. Not what we seek of THE WANT in our control, but what WE NEED of what we refuse ourselves; the PERMISSION to life’s second chances.  Now get out of your isolated feelings and create a new beginning. Where some people will be that bridge you burned, but strong enough for u again to cross.

TOUCHE

Ladies & Gents just because we release it; does not mean we can’t lock and reload it.  I apologize upfront for my cynical thinking. But experience lead me here of; what we may have, should know or have not been taught growing up.

They say some woman think too much. They say some "Ole" girls don’t think enough. They say some females don’t give a damn. They say some people never had their ears whispered in; of what to do once you grow up into a woman or man.

Watch how we teach one another, of what we refuse to understand about each other.

Thank you gentlemen for those who are left in this generation who speak the truth first, for treating some of us like ladies, we deserve. But for the males who still remain in their puberty mindset allow them hard pipes to rest. Why, because every females cookie is not so restless. And I'm not saying we don't want it  strong armed and bent back. What I'm saying is every woman shields her own diamonds in various places. To be dug up from in between her legs and or that addictive knowledge that keep's that man coming for that buried treasure deep in her head. Now boys to men you should have been taught better to accept or disregard  what is kept on top of your mantle piece. Not placed in  container boxes of thinking. That a bad girl could ever consider settling down with a side chick position. Did I also mention Insecurities and Fears show up in all of types of men and woman; demonic intensions.

Why is it from one statement or word that it changes into a 360 degree debate; of who agreed to what. Every person is not intended to be played with.  Now work on my mind instead of hesitating with; that  sexual fantasy was all about conquering. 

I'm not down playing positions & roles. But let's be real for every move there is an intention in every players initiation. And if were looking for logic in another persons made up mind. Then maybe it's in our HUMAN NATURES of Wild Thoughts that makes us cohabitate in our own natural ways.  






TOUCHE..

 

 

 

CAMEO

Every woman has a soul, and every man knows. In every culture around the globe.

'Woman marry, Men surrender'. Who says so? Until we can answer why not every human being is married, single or lonely. Or what keeps marriages & family; in unity. 

If he or she does not appreciate your LOVE then why can't the next person propose MARRIAGE and SURRENDER to you? And if you are one of those people who don't believe in love; then what are you doing of convenience with the person you're sharing your plans with? And how do they really feel knowing your not planning a life with them?

Now what man is honest enough to admit; doing wrong and crying in the dark while lying wide awake at night with someone else lying by his side? Only he knows the real issues of his heart and what he intentionally hides. Especially to women who settle for excuses and lies. But on the other hand some men do settle down with a woman they love or manage to deal with. And some men enjoy the drama they create in their own lives because they struggle to “grow up from boys into men”. Damn I know that was cold but not a bios statement.

Now what woman will admit to giving a man more than 1 more chance, who continues to show her his boyish arrogance? And what woman can be strong enough to close her legs to his wreckless inhibitions, at his convenience? Because a woman perception is Marriage is for Love, as Men Surrender. But does it mean we always compromise in the right state of minds? If men know what is deeply penetrated in places a woman has already silently surrendered of her heart. Does it change his ways of valuing her?

See men there is not one woman on earth who does not seek companionship with a level of compromise that leaves out her confidence to please your desires as a man. Some women have lowered their standards to have a man. Some women are being played, rejected and left broken. And the Married woman have managed to be found by the man who “surrendered” from playing the mind games. But also take note of how this Married woman knows her role; just in case this man steps out of control. To the other females he will not be as quick to give you all. Of what he has no intentions to do all over again. So from a woman to another woman don't be so quick to cater to another woman's non rehabilitated situation.

Men are simple is what they say. A woman’s ego can be stroked and penetrated slowly. And once we both process we’re not that complicated to figure out. If he provides her needs. Will she then honor his wants for life? In places they both "need more time than space" to GROW, out of what has been acceptable. Only either know. 

And before we assume what my status is; a grown man said to me your talented
in many things. I agree that I am a woman who seeks to constantly grow in areas of myself that have not been explored. So therefore I will not apologize for my experiences in this life. That continue in opening my beautiful eyes.

In a world filled with LOVE & WAR, hell we created our own battlefields. And a quick access between any pair of  legs is the least of our worries in what we Surrender to. Of men & woman who get caught up, in more than one way. Of finding no value of what we seek to escape.

We must be more appreciative of the free will we possess in ourselves. To have access of what we surrender to in a world of; human  intentions. And if this does not apply to you. Then what do we lack of, in teaching one another something positive to do?

Side Piece

We  are hungry for a life we can’t afford to maintain in. Regardless of what we have, because we were never satisfied with what we had to begin with. So what will we do to have more in order to survive the inner war which no longer adds up to logic in common sense of what some of us have become. In this world of mixed generations?

I heard the truth and it said “no one really wants the reality of who I am”.

I heard a lie and it said “give into me, and you will see how we together can walk with our eyes wide shut”

This is a general statement, and whether you process it or reject it, depends on the state of mind you feel up your self-worth with.

Sometimes people believe the truth should not always be revealed to the other person. Maybe it is because it makes their lies the truth to validate what we want but in reality may be hindered to do. Or could it be men and women both settle together “in insecurities and imperfections” to possess “something” to make up one thing “the fear of losing everything”  

Life is always going to happen; no matter who and what happens.  

REBEL

We may fail one another in this life. Is what we say for different reasoning depending on our circumstances, we may not all pray and ask for forgiveness, we may not all believe in God. But we can rest assure time will change our attitudes & minds.

No man or woman can whole heartedly love one another from in between their legs. No man or woman can make common sense of hurting one another through our flesh without self-examining ourselves in our own personal actions of choices.   

I don’t know what time is going to do. I don’t ponder with what people go through. But on this ROCK in which I stand “I know that man was created from perfection” And we as people validate our SELF-perfections through our own reasoning in the flesh; instead of forgiving ourselves first.

I say to those I know if we never connect mentally, embrace physically or cross paths again. In places I have grown to let go, forgive & learn. Please remember this: I LOVE YOU MORE EVERYDAY, even when you don’t pay attention to the time we no longer have because one day I knew time was going to happen.  

THEREFORE YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO QUESTION HOW I VALUE AND LOVE YOU EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF MY  LIFE; IN A WORLD OF PEOPLE THAT CHANGE  THEIR MINDS IN EVERYWAY…

 -ANGEL L
A REBEL OF HUMAN FLESH MADE IN THIS IMAGE OF PERFECTION. BUT NOT PERFECT IN THE FLESH, UTILIZED IN LIFE FOR A HIGHER PURPOSE.
  

TAKING ADVANTAGE

You are the most important person in the world to me. Can anyone agree; speaking these words to someone they committed themselves to. Or devoted their lives too. Regardless of the storms we were destined to go through. See grief and heartache are personal feelings at some point we're all sudden to endure. Therefore no one can tell us how to deal or process the both of them. If we ourselves are not prepared to deal with what we live in denial with.

We may never admit this, but we take advantage of each other everyday. Even our children show us in a self entitled way. Our families remind us of why we should feel guilty, in who we become and not remain the same person to be controlled. Our spouses neglect us through time and attention, and know I'm not talking about asking for forgiveness with gifts and roses. Associates & those good ole friends remind us who we can DEPEND ON in good and bad times. Just make sure you don't panic if they don't return a call or pick up the line. And in our personal dating or random sexual relationships we take more than advantage of who we have to chosen to deal with. Just to have a access. But if none of these scenarios are true. Then why are we finding ourselves struggling with the truth. Of what we have yet to accomplish of happiness, control  & riches. Lacking trust, communication & mutual understandings.

We've heard it loud and clear  "2017 this is a new day" and if you're not handling your business with whom you have chosen to be with. Please understand how people are "Happy Feet" to wiggle into your space. Offering what they have worked for of money, compromise and overrated sexual fantasies. Where the presence of DIGNITY & RESPECT will get you checked. For not accepting compromises in what we want in millisecond moment. Eventually you will later figure out what PEOPLE are really about. On the inside, not what you visualize to see of an outside false fantasy.Now close your mouth. It's the questions that exposes the lies. Because time is our best friend that reveal us in places we pretend.

Taking a chance is not people's biggest  fear in this life. We ALL seek the opportunity everyday  to have what we want if not getting straight to what we need. Eventually we learn together or far apart what we want; may not work out. To have what we really need before it's a dollar short, and a day late. Because of our need to work in REPETITION with different people in the same OLD WAY.

NOW LATER

NOW are LATER I can make a promise to LOVE & PROTECT you for always. Just remember for every cause there is an effect. That will reveal how people & situations alter any of our; “life expectations”  

If only we knew what this world would turn into. From birth I tried my best with what was given. To protect your innocence in the world we now live in.

If I could have known everything thing; before hand. That would occur in this life. Would it still have been enough to change the directions you would take?

Today, I can only pray over you through the FAMINE, HAPPINESS, GREED, BETRAYAL and SORROW. These things must change. Now that many nations of “men & woman” have become of age. To stand on their own. In the presence of this world. In the event of; adversity, and the choices made. Will depend on decisions; of one another. And of ourselves. we'll face.  

If I could put love into someone who does not understand it. Are refuses to feel it in their hearts. Would you see the difference. And immediately walk away, before it’s too late?

If I could even have given you more courage through every storm in this world of compromise; could you hold on knowing that I’m always there in your heart and by your side?

If I could continue to learn & teach you how to manage the sadness in your eyes; could you hold onto your peace of mind?

If I could walk away today; would you treasure the wisdom I gave?

If I was no longer around to validate your rights from wrong; could you be man or woman enough. To configure & measure out the people & things you have yet to learn?

If I could let you go in this life; can you move on temporarily to find that one who will never leave your side?

 

But in the meantime FIND the one to be by your side. Throughout these years that humanity can no longer hide our human FEARS & TEARS.

NOW r LATER we will see what changed. And the changes that need to still occur. In our individual "Life" we'll sow. In each other. And of seeds in the earth.