WHY

In the event you woke up with a question "Why". Be prepared to accept their maybe answers but more than half of the reasoning; is not always going to give you a peace of mind. During this transition of time.

It is imperative we identify with our own self denials of acceptance. And continue in  asking for the truth. But when directed or given; it is shut down if not reiterated in a different style of communication. So with all due respect if a story is not your own testimony. There is a story that fits the lives we are connected to in some form or fashion. Why, because we are the makeup through generations; human bloodlines.

To start, I want to first honor the grandparents who put in the effort to step in. With pure love to raising these kids. So many children are being left out of knowing; truth. And sometimes it's the loss of a parent. In this world. Things change in every environment. And with challenge, adversity is a life changing; challenge.

To the children & parents who struggle to communicate. If you never had to be separated from one another it's a devastating feeling. A bond in these uncertain times is priceless. Because tomorrow for either of you is not promised. 

To a domestic violence couple, strippers or drug dealers of any race. People do or deal drugs in every social status & race. Who ever you are; you have children that are watching the dysfunction. However, it does not mean that you don't love them. It means. In the world. Attention is crucial. To what is locked behind these tears. So one day you don't have to miss them. Or they don't have to wonder when you will turn the key behind that door; they are alone, heart broken and awaiting to be loved.

To the have or have nots. Hell, its all confusing on who is claiming what. At the end of the day Peace of minds cannot be bargained with. And holding one another is priceless.

To our siblings if we cant trust one another; then who is our real enemy?

To the thief, murderer & liar. What happens once its revealed we're all conspiring against one another? How so, good and evil in the world. See until we accept we sleep with the enemy every night; in ourselves. There will be no rest. But a whole generation of immature, selfish & unnecessary struggling.

Why, did I lose my job. At this point of time. Why, is there a future filled; of the unknown. Coming soon.

Why are people in the world so cold, compassionate if not cruel. Maybe an adjustment in attitudes will adjust the dials on humanities moods.

Why did the Covid-19 take so many; lives from families. And no one on earth saw it coming.

Why, are the children being denied love & seeing family. Foster care ends up short term in; some houses of anguish. As some people seek to  gain a check or welfare benefits to yell "these my kids". In a world filled; with parents. Aka humans.

Why, are the drugs approved. And the courts are stacked with criminal cases. As real people are dying. The profits are marginalizing. 

Why, come he or she don't love me? Stop searching on line, blaming or forcing the process with more created obligations. And invest more time in fixing your own mental mindset. Or communicate in that relationship you are already in. If not taking the other person for granted.

Why, is it said; from the mouths of humans. Why are these types in parents always in the business; of their children. For the geniuses in the world with limited investments or plans to see these children or adults succeed. We stand in between. In intervention of another's persons sneaky intentions. A parent who shows love & disciplinary without a reservation to step in. Is this child's business for a lifetime with unlimited interest. 

Why, is Satan real & God is the problem?

Again, this blog was narrative written on behalf of generational  behaviors. Starring the first On Kindle "The Burdens of A Heavy Heart, of many beginnings. Circling back into the days of our past & future generations.

Why, do we override the truth with lies & denials. And argue who has been mistreated. If there was    "Trust In God", first. Not maybe later,  are even after  the same pattern, in the same results. the second time around. To face the first.

A Good Man

Is not hard to find it just takes maturity & patience of understanding his 

Mind: Listen & Allow him to express himself, and re-evaluate his own mistakes. You were not by design created to fix him. Allow him space to bend & catch him when he is falling. 

Heart: Understand when he is feeling low. Why know no one can process what he is going through. Sometimes a mans pride & ego will shine through. Allow him space to fall to his knees. And learn how to pray with him; not over & on him. To a higher power that can lead you both in understanding.

Hands: Allow his hands to rest, tears from disappointments are part of the process. Just allow him your hands to hold & shoulders to lean on. This time so he can rest his weary heart & troubled mind.  

FEET: Remind him why he is not walking on this journey alone; the reality is God carries us all the time. Even when our feet stumble on rocks & stones. Are maybe he is non a believer. Just remember you were the RIB removed from Man; created in this life to be his companion. So at the end of the day. Allow his weary feet to find some  rest & peace. 

In Memory of a son, and many men of Gods own heart.     

Pause

The brain is unique; in how it protects knowledge that is the real threat. 

In respect of our elders; we honor you and respect your successes & triumphs. 

However, in a world of the most brightest of minds, rebellion & arrogance. All that knowledge goes unprotected. And it does not matter who you know or what you have established. In a world of the blind leading the blind there is chance; our fragile feet will end up on grounds of defeat.

We can learn from our mistakes; we can break in repeating them in redundancy. We can change the  makeup in our history; or we can choose to dress-up with the same makeup. 

We are guilty in humanity of complacency; if only we could of invested more of our time in paying closer attention to what grew out of hands; down the lines of generations. 

In this years election we witnessed a change of Power in leadership at a higher level; and at the same time in a different era, we witnessed adult children act out in rebellion. 

The other day the hood said nothing out of fear; the next week it was the same catastrophe that knocked at their door. And demanded they all fall to their knees and be humbled by what is to not be spoken on.

The masses watched in anxiety, and said this type of crime or change never happens here. Until life said different; today this is going to really happen. 

The mentality behind these government offices of some servies; is a mixture blended of compassion, intent and fixed morals, values and affixiated vendication. If I cant fix my past then why should your situation get a pass. What u shield a child from to suffer for in your choices. It will damage them mentally. And when they grow up to who we become dont ever wonder; what could I, we or them could of done. Every struggle does not have to be our legacies inheritance  of baggage to carry in the next generation.

For evey burden some of us carry of that load; is so the weak at heart wont break in hard times. 

The anniversary of life and death; a year ago on jan 15th Dominique White 28 yrs old was assassinated because of knowledge embraced by leaders such as MLK born Jan 15th assassinated for speaking up in truth, Jan. 5th little Rory 1yr old killed by gunviolence. And Coby Bryant and other families taken away in the blink of an eye on a plane ride. All these souls in January 2020. I remember before my sons demise his heart was heavy & mind filled with images of said so much hurt, deceit & lies, but he never stopped talking to God. Fast forward on March 16th Covid-19 appeared & called roll for over 300,000 & counting.

A young girl said; he was my man, as the other woman glared with internal anger "then yelled I have his child", then 1 day we woman found a platform to organize a conversation. But the intention was slick is the reason why betrayal separated the both of them. And not the man. Why, because of the man who planted the seeds in the both or one of them. Is not the reason why betrayal sneaked inside & denied his bloodline.

One day a father or mother ended of missing, and no one in the entire world knew what could of happened. But before this developing act, everyone that knew of them could tell a story. How unfortunate .

Time ask what is the plan?  Mankind replied figure out what u should of predicted to come; between our disrespectful crossed lines of  informal & selected times of communications. 

The Sauce

On every avenue or in any hood there are establishments that sale delicatessen; for the consumer who is looing for a delight to fill them of pleasure.

If we as humanity cannot make light in all of the circumstances we are consuming around the word; we will forget to act human if not grow cold and bitter with each other. My mother always said to me & I shared this with my friends & family "don't let any 1, or anything rob you of your joy". Because the seasons are going to bring a change, whether you are prepared or waiting for the change to delight your mind frame. And what we can establish together; is not all people are seeking good pleasure. 

I read the news articles today, and unfortunately the truth surfaced. Crime is increasing in Indiana a younger child massacred the entire family of 6 over a parent & son altercation, babies are still dying at the age of 7 due to the gun violence, food is short but the lines are long where real people working with the hands of  compassion, the farmers are awaiting to be approved so we can get some of those fresh veggies back in the stores, the housing market is booming for the 30 bids on that 1 corner the low income cannot afford, while welfare system has allocated an increased line of spending for those unable to stop and re-evaluate what is of our existing priorities in mouths to feed, as the unemployment lines are increasing, domestic violence is screaming in silence. As the children are asking why can't I see my momma or daddy? If not their people, all of us are not being forgotten. Because of our hearts are hurting for the stories we are hearing around us. But inside the heart we know they still love us.

Today, I woke up and looked the world. I saw Twitter pages, FB clicks, and Snap Chat. And no one had a real plan to heal the wombs of our internal suffering. All the news advertises is what & where if never why. All the social media in the world exposes who we are and who we know. And at the end of every pallet we as a people either end with a delightful message, or an ingredient to put back into that sauce of what we have established of our own life messages to the world.       

In Memory of D. White, its what we leave of in our foot prints, for the next generation to wobble if not walk in them.    

  

Suppertime

The Pandemic has exposed prejudice behaviors and compressed oppression around the world towards the poor. And may stem for another decade. If we do not figure out; the factors that separate our bordered lines. 

The news & statistics are aging in appearances. Children of our future are facing an historic setback in education. And money cannot fix the emotional issues chiseled in this Pandemic.  We are all connected to children. The rich will make away with granted access. The poor in mind will either struggle or in peace figure out; how the ties & bonds that binds us in unity for these family's is going to happen; on any day now without reservations. Where some people & children are being harbored behind immature spite, some people are being left behind, some are going to make it with all families that don't separate them and communicate effectively. As other people & children are being told half of the truth covered with lies. Because of the excuses to convenience others if not themselves of their time. As the old are growing weaker. The blind leading the blind. And some of the youth are being caught up in random or direct cross fires. The world is still revolving around what;

We can rest assure; the good ole days is what we can now make of them.

We can start with gatherings our homes in order. Wrapping our minds around; this is really going to happen..

Today each and every body in a house; that is mentally & physically capable of performing a physical duty. Initiate it without any backlash of who should or could of did it; first.

Today small children will wake up to a breakfast; whatever we can scram in the kitchen together. These children will wake-up to a New World of order and no longer responsible in taking care of each other.

Today real people will scramble together their attitudes on plates of responsibilities. And today if you are scrambling because of your attitude should be accepted on someone's else plate; you maybe the "have not" to eat.

Today more than half of the world adults will rise up before the crack of dawn to beat the midday; sun. And if you are stretching around 12 noon with an attitude of a plan of what someone else should be doing for you; its time to set your clocks back & accept the rat race you created for yourself. In a Pandemic world.

About 5 percent of the population has had 1 dose of the vaccination. You do the math and figure out which lane we will be switched or rolled in.

Today our small issues will be pushed to the back; to turn up some pressure on situations for generations we denied and rejected. 

Today we will tally up & deal with the cards delt in our hands; no more entitled expectations, non effective arguments in communication, manipulation & fake tears to benefit in what has not been any type of investments of your interest. So no one else is going to die today; for another person to benefit and click their heels up high. Unless you can prove beyond a "reasonable doubt" the sacrifices and work this person put in. You also lended nothing in between; of a physical helping hand. 

If we are going to survive this Pandemic; it does not matter what we projected in our bank accounts, stocks & plans, hustles & master plans around who can contribute to our scheme or fantasized dreams. 

The house is folding out of order. Because the foundations are no longer stable.

Yes, I am now rooted deep. Of what it became of my story. I am a survivor with no revocation. When my sons life; plotted on. It was only the body that was prepared; to eat with God. 

However, I did not loose my mind; by God's plan. In A race with others like myself who validate their strength. Where other's preyed for; weaknesses.

We are one human race. Of amongst those, us, and them. In being the masses. And not one human will be exempt; of enduring this struggle. 

Because hitting home; get's attention. Is when people move around in progression. Therefore, there is no room on our plates to stagger with; "what if, or who did, that could of anc should of". But chose not to.

Where promises were made "were going to be all right". But time is showing no mercy as people keep pushing pause. In playing the mind games as others are passing on from this life. It will take more than politics & debates where stable minds & hands. Are needed to in the trenches of life. To put in the grunt work. For the harvest is plenty, but the worker's are growing; mentally, physically & emotionally; weary.

300,000

The waiting list for the COVID-19 vaccine. As the goal is to reach a 100million people within our 46th President first 100 days. And if we all respect one another and do our parts; about 6 inches from the front to back. There is higher probability this vaccine will arrive out of the blue. In all areas that are anticipating the final breakthrough. 

The Covid-19 was not expected. It impacted humanity as a whole. And altered our lives with a force of  change overnight. As we seek the proper information to digest & restore humanities hope & peace. In by knowing when, where and how will this vaccine be shipped next. Because all lives matters in a time we desperately need one another; whether we admit or not the mandated request is a personal choice. As the phone lines are overwhelmed and the internet is bombarded. Time will test our faiths, patience & will to survive one another. So one day soon we can embrace our love ones, before losing another to Covid. 

The Covid-19 cannot survive us all if we are collectively involved. Obedient to ourselves & responsible in doing our parts around the world. By covering up what is exposed. 

In the meantime use it wisely. The numbers don't lie in what we could of saved; in losing of it in another day of precious "TIME".     

A Domestic Violence Story of Survival