BIG

As I prepared for a pleasant of  night rest. This calming feeling came upon my chest. So I wanted to encourage a few if not many.

To let you know; until God says you're done. There is still a harvest for you to work towards.And in the event you think this life is over for you, and this is it. As I said everything thing is going to happen ontime. But not without God in it at the right time. 

I can testify last Jan. I lost my only child. To a homicide. then to my face; told watered down lies. Right where his body laid to rest. But that's not where are how the story; beham. And ends.

Because I lived the full life experience. I am not a stranger to being broke. But In God I trust. Prayer & Faith. For resilience pulled me back up; to not be bitter & broken inu! Soul.

I been hurt but not left bittered down to the core. I lived through watching domestic violence. Front row.  In them good old day's. As we survived in those trenches of trying times. I also saw my mother talk to God, married a good man who protected and provided for All her children. So I grew up before enjoying my years of childhood. I had to get my weight up at 5'1. I learned my mental & physical strength, as an adolescent. So my son would never suffer unnecessary pain & fear no man, but God. #28"Prince".🥰.

Which brings me to this Point. Hardships are part of the journey. And if you have not suffered enough try believing in God. Because death is inevitable, life is a blessing. And people will change you, challenge you, mislead you if not encourage you. 

Today in Sunday School a sister ask what is about addressing the truth with family are people in general?

I answered most people will accept a lie; faster than they really want of the truth. She then ask what about family? I responded most people avoid the conversation with their family. To avoid the confrontation with the family. Truth is we possess the idea of wanting the truth. The reality is the truth will challenge us; to address the lies we accept to avoid facing the truth in ourselves. Hey! dont ask a question; if you are not looking for the answers.

"BIG", always look abroad; even when your circumstances make you feel small..

Bullying

If we  have not had the conversation. Arrange for the family a gathering of the minds; in either the front or back yard. To discuss "Bullying", and how do we begin this topic with our own family and children. So once life happens everyone of them is in upright position. 

Many of us are comfortable; in  our locations. And in these days fist fights are not an option. In a generation of genocides by the hands of gun violence. Do you recall back in the day we either threw  blows, are took one for the team. Which brings me to this story. I spoke with a girlfriend who needed "my hood insight". As if I stayed accustomed to being about living in that life.  See it does not matter what pair of hands you assume to have my sonson stood a beast at 5"11 with no hesitation; sometimes you learn to survive until you come up with an exit plan. So, I said to my girlfriend "a new zip code" does not exempt real folks from the bullying, racial profiling & violence. 

In real talk we discuss our own life experiences if not judgement of opinions towards others. So yes, I do write in light of our historical moments, factual experiences and out of the blue life circumstances, we are going to face them; because these things are going to happen.  

The reality is we are all trying to escape one another in the same space during Covid-19.  Seeking diligently to adjust our zip codes in a real greedy world; where  real estate is motivated by performance and demand and the economy is the trenches to survive in. As those who delay and parlay await to be up rooted from their community and hood areas. And its going to happen without proper notice. As we listen to why it was allowed to be stated on live television “weed causes people to be violent, and not fully competent” of their actions. But yet the government has legalized weed amongst other items for medical purposes, and the drug dealers now face higher competition, if not bail bonds, if not strike down one another. As we residences of the masses are trying to comprehend; how the statistics did not include ALL other zip codes.

There is a high tenacity around the globe in pursuing bullying on ordinary people including the Asian community. Some of it stems from ignorance, identity crises and gang associations; and on the gang population let me share a secret all people are the roots of other people in all ages; that keep it their personal lives on idle. Of the eyes that are watching behind those french blinds that remain close to facing the truth in how; we will never share the same views. We will not all agree not even about corruption. However we will disagree to agree, about what affects us in our own zip codes. Which makes a statistic “accurate, or inaccurate” to why life happens for some of us and not others? So in order to process what some people have experienced or not; it will happen in any zipcode. Until we stretch not to fit in compartmentalized boxes. There is a radius of zip codes of human behaviors and non addressed of accountability that stems from the Bullying. 

The statistics share the race of violent behavior, how about the root of issues that stem from the bullying. Believe it or not the laws are even more intimidating; because of the injustices, inadequate information and racial profiling, now in almost every zip code. Of domestic abuse;  mental and physical that make up real statistics. In all zip codes happening now in occurrences; of ALL races and ages, around the world.

Lastly, there is a behavior of thugged out mentality dressed up in debated “oppositions & opinions” exposed in zip codes. Bullying behind bolted doors, skylines and zip codes around the world. Of human jealousy in societies of Homicides that make up the statistics; of untrained hit men and woman, if not acquaintances, and random strangers seeking a mind gripping purpose to be of existent. As we sat in of brewing Wars, none of us are even the bully's are prepared to fight in every community around the world. 

 

In a perfect world the word "crazy" would not make common sense. However, we don’t live in a perfect world. We live in world of imperfect people. And the hardest part for us all to stand with our families in a circle; in our own front or back yards. And grasp the realization of this “box”, humanity created then gripped onto "of The Haves, and Have Nots". Collecting profiled data of statistics in humanity as we figure out how to adjust in a world of diversity; attached to social security numbers, credit scores and allocated zip codes. Of Bullying behaviors, we can no longer run away from each other. Are behind another zip code if not location.  

Ephesians: 6:22

The answer is no. I do not smoke are partake in drug activity. Because I do not desire to survive; being bullied and blindsided. In a free world of which some deny themselves.

#28, In Memory of Love.

  

CROWN

I purchased my first pair of diamond earrings in 2011, this took place shortly after my grandmother passed away, one of my most elegant diamonds. I would share as a young girl on summer nights, secrets this diamond took to her grave. So did my young #28 Prince, rest in 2020. As a black girl I never purchased a Black Diamond; myself. However,  I surrounded myself with people of knowledge & wisdom. And they taught me to always be treasured as a Black Diamond. 

When you look into the mirror; what do you see Black Woman. Do you surround yourself in value? In your skin there is a revelation in Generations that has passed down of your beautiful; caramel, almond, roasted black are red bone skin tone. That continues to blossom. Your beauty rest timeless in the deepest oceans where infinite divers hunt anxiously for the “Black Diamonds” carved to perfection. A symbolic formation of elegance packaged in the finest of silk and satin. Once sold throughout the mankind of history for the world later to hold until eternity.   

-Angel L. Black Girl hold your head high, and wear your crown. 

Cash For Ashes

We all read it, if not heard "Yall playing checkers, we playing chess", but what players are on the Poker Table?

For every game; sits a table of Players. And for every hand There is a Full House, waiting to be played.  

Woman we must be mindful of what we advertise; in a wall street world of snake moves and wolves. Therefore I will not dip into any line of mixture in inhibitions. However, it will be behoove you to watch out for your assets. In an environment of high risk, moderate and low investors. 

Gentlemen  suit up for the tables are hitting, and every player wants to be the BIG FISH. The issue is for every hand is being watched. But for every table there is only 1 dealer. It will behoove to be aware of the extractions and the next of players to resume an old game; with new poker faces.    

One day the hustle got real. The stakes were higher, and everybody wanted a piece of the Apple Pie. But not everyone was prepared; to accept the cards shuffled from the dealers hand. 

Be mindful ladies, of the cards you play. Remember they are the same cards that were just shuffled in that dealers hands. And a few players will fold, others will bet on the house, as a few will watch around the poker table of real players.    

Be smart young men; in the games you entertain, not every bet is going to pay. 

The idea is to grab the stash; by any means necessary. But not all players are focused on what's around the table. For every bet is not always the players win; against a steady Poker hand. 

Cash for Ashes; there are few hands that beat flush poker, the player who holds the full house in silence.   

If only more players; could of played Poker. 

Romans 8:11, don't count God out. In every hand bet him in.

28" "Prince"

Cocoa Butter

If you are going to wear it. Wear it naturally with etiquette and beauty.

Whatever color you wear. Be flawless and confident in the skin you represent. Remember we were not created to be beautifully perfect; we were created for a flawless purpose. So when our young girls struggle to feel uncomfortable in their own skin; there should be a reminder that she can identify with; in her own natural skin.

If make-up never existed; would nakedness deter us from presenting who we are in the natural skin tone? And if we are not prepared to answer back; who would teach us beauty is what we carry in ourselves. In knowing all products are optional for the record.  

One day I decided to look in the mirror; I removed all the makeup and preserved the natural with softer highlights and cocoa butter with baby oil. I did not aim for perfection in  beauty. I aimed to preserve the beauty I discovered in myself. And what I share with the queens in my life is this; today you are maturing at a speed of lightening, due to the exposure in this world. And as little girls your bodies are expanding into the skin you will grow-up in. And overtime this body will endure pressure; remember to respect it. 

The eyes will grow weary once they are tired; allow your lids to rest, and always remember to love on your pallet, rest your head on a soft pillow case. And allow your little minds to cast away. For Time will come unexpectedly. And one day u will look into the mirror and either adjust what you see. Are accept; your natural skin is beauty.

YOU

Before any male understands himself; there is always a female working inwards to learn herself. And in the learning process both will be the example of either’s boyish or girlish behavior. And once a female identifies her worth in being a woman that is not appreciated by a type of male; opportunity is waiting for an established man to enter into her presence. And recognize her value, and she appreciating his manhood. From a short or long distance. Now, guess what? Race is not a factor, where a man finds a woman. And they both respect one another in value.

                                                                          "Angel L."

                                       

Danger

Confessions don't come easy. To many fights turn into battles. And communications are easy at the beginning of something new. Until someone is broken if not blind sided by Love. To understanding love is expressed in a multitude of facets. Its people that play mind games in it. Depending on who is demonstrating the real act. Or speaking out its love language.

 

Love is priceless. And repercussions occur when this love is mishandled and betrayed; it becomes a very Dangerous Game. 

We're all guilty as human beings. In playing mind games. But no one every really wins. If we choose to stay knowing there is a chance. so many tears will eventually be shed. Before we permanently make up our minds. To walk away. Before it's to late. Because of what is in these; wandering hearts. The danger; hides. For the one who returns; one last time.

Some people just know; what work is required. To maintain their status. In securing forever. And then there is some people that know; why. It's better to Have. Overall the chance; to Have Not. At all.

How can this 4 letter word; carry such a tumultuous amount of pressure & weight. That  controls the heart; fluttering with anxiety. Because we're all going to be faced. in battles to fight. In what the mind; struggles to decide. Whether to stay for Love. Are to decide. Why, it's time. To finally walk away; this final time.

If it we're about; these emotional expectations. To gain. Each other. In being & knowing in Love. Then why are so many lonely hearts seeking; one another. Walking amongst one another; throughout this world? 

As some people look into each others eyes; fantasies run through the mind. Until the  mysteries unfold. Of what we figured out.  Who was really in the ring. Fighting each other to get out. Are fighting for each other to; stay.

My son once said "mom? I want you to find someone". I said I already have by having you. And I'll know when he is chosen. To protect my heart. And ready to give of his; a genuine kind of love. That is sincere. According to the will of GOD.

Then on the early morning of Jan. 15, 2020. The love I was faithful to. My young prince. Through his birthright on earth. Of what was written In The Book of Life. Time came For me to be prepared. On this day. In Obedience to answer back. To the King in Heaven. Of a  call. To return back; our Prince. To our first love; God. 

                                   Cheers to Love! 

The greatest gift; of All. Of every portion. Of what we selflessly pour; of love. back into. One another.