Vancant

50% of our lives we spend it trying to accommodate, seek pleasure and validation; from other people who will choose freely to leave us or stay, if not taken away. The other 50% of our lives we juggle with our own happiness if not preparing for our final exits.

It's NOT required of us to catch all the flies in a room. First, a Leader must learn their own order of discipline & communication. Second a follower must control their temper in order to process better understanding. Then will those windows open wide and redirect those swarming flies. 

Have you ever been hesitant to make one move or reiterate something that people may misinterpret or take the wrong way; all over the place? Which allows us the permission to argue if not create opinions. To whether or not “faith is the substance in all the things we hope for”. And what if people who don’t believe in faith. But believe things are just meant to happen in the universe?  

Then what do you hope for? And how do you believe in “someone” or “something” you lack in vision to see. Of how we fight ourselves internally. By resisting our own struggles we refuse to change. Psalms: 29:

Life is not always to blame. It's the air and space that allows us the freewill to change.   

Three keys I hold that impact the decisions I make:

·        The key to Planning

·        The key to  Sacrifice

·        The key to Understanding Communicating   

We can’t change people & or what happened on yesterday. We can implement plans & better decisions in the space we live in, TODAY. So tomorrow we can hope to see more fruitful seeds. Because we have been made aware of what will, can or may not happen. Donald Trump was sworn in as our American president & many votes were monitored in. Immediately people viewed in with concerns and suggestions of their own human ideas and motives. Either way this is now a Country's faith stemming from who stood in place. So the game continues to be played on a different day with a new face.

The question is what are the keys you hold to your next move?

·        IN any open opportunity we will be introduced to fiduciaries & financial products progressing in mass production; because we have yet to figure out how real money can influence, but not fix the attitudes around the world.

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   IN any seat left empty it has already been filled with a soul of compromise to meet high expectations of bottom line production. Life refuses to allow us to remain the same just stay true to what you believe.

·        IN every season the climate will change. The entire atmosphere will shift human balance in every corner of the earth.   

·        IN every flicker there exist a flame, in every jail  & ditch their lies a snitch. Influenced or driven by "arrogance' and behind every "lie" the truth is plotting to come alive.

·        IN every course of action in any-type of “personal” or “business affair” profitable or negative investments will be made, in every race and age.

·        IN every plan involving  a world affair “open” or in “privacy” many will know the truth, only a few with good intensions plan to refuge the innocent. Because of the time and day of what is going to occur, if not already in plan to take place.

In reality the less you associate with some people, the more you will improve. These people will choke your dreams. Where they show no capabilty to prosper or support your dreams. Never make this person a priority where u realize your their option.

Why, because we all have a disposition in how we respond to one another, when we could have utilized more time communicating with each other.

Ecclesiastes 1:9

“The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.” 

CUPID

We will all change our minds overtime regarding one another. But time won’t allow us to rewind back each other.

With all the human access, online clicks and money match making businesses. It’s amazing to see how people still end up feeling abandoned, spiritually are physically lonely.

And no one in this entire universe can explain why LOVE chooses to commit and respect; some people over others in this life or could it be that People choose to love who & what they want to see in that person who is destined to change; physically, mentally if not spiritually. Either way time is destined to reveal our “TRUTH” once that LOVE is tested and proven to be fire proof.  

We all have experienced how opposites attract. Could it possibly be in our human natures were wired for that where one person thinks they see it all physically or fall in love mentally. But overtime people do find themselves in a dilemma of being abandoned by the person in whom they invested their love in.

So how is it people fall in love online. Meet and move in 1-3 months but please don't confuse it for love. Separate in marriages and continue to dating, cohabitate and compromise in space, invite more people into their sacred space, and yet figured out how they must communicate?  I’m assuming that Balance means everything when people are properly implementing a form of negotiable understandings. And if so then the question is why are people; still hurting and abandoned outside of the people in whom they have chosen to LOVE in this life.

This is my story:
I’m also a sinner save by grace. I have so much in life to grasp. I refuse to settle down in my own ways; I just opened up to embrace more of understandings in reasoning. My chapters do not end today. Life will manage to move on with or without me. So therefore I will breathe in every current it allows me.

I was groomed in how to show love. I'm still a VIRGIN from the last man that I allowed to touch me "mentally" you could say I was "Feeling Myself" but he missed it for being prideful in his hit man "position", now let's proceed to the next quality in my package. I am attentive to mental and physical details, because some people are only comfortable in spaces that are not adjustable to changes. I desire to be mentally challenged it adds to my thirst for more fruitful knowledge; but it’s often you will find out how people tend to apply the same level of thinking in every space of  THEIR maturity. I desire to be spiritually connected in all emotional places; but not everyone has kept the faith and we tend to create a low tolerance,  in our understanding.

We are not all at fault for choosing to be who we are. We just choose to share with another person of what we believe in who will appreciate us and care. 

Wake Up Everybody

Thank you Obama & Michelle, Joe Biden and family. For your sacrifices were not limited in vision. Your strength remained unbroken. Your unity humbled the masses as we watched you prepare to leave us with your footprints. In what we all share of our American legacy. 

 

On this journey we will endure change. Our PURPOSES will be revealed. Every hand shall work till every brow shows sweat. Real life stories will be WRITTEN. Human FAITHS will be challenged. From different perspectives in what we have been "taught" then expressed through our "cultural" differences and "human" understandings. 

To gain more clarity we must clear up the cluttered space that hinders out vision to make some lead way. In what we choose or not to see of what able' s or enables us to grow and live.  
Permission

Over our own understanding & works in the human flesh. Everyone one of us struggle within our individual weakness. We're all a work in progress. Most of us just live in denial of accepting it. 

With all due respect time will mature all people in areas we streeetch. 

Eventually change will no longer accept human resistance. In what we seek of 

Restoration in these days of wicked men who will fall in Matthew 12:43-45. As so in the days of Nehemiah who cried about a wall. As the enemy camped out day and night. To torture what was more of importance in his life. 

Time will reveal who believes in what we serve of man. And reject of God's presence. Pity for the fool who refuses deeper understanding in

·         The air we breathe.

·         The light hanging in the sky.

·         The wisdom in the Doctors hand. The judge of what happens even in the gravels hand. Who knows the date of your heart break. And who will be sent to mend it after its broken; if only we could be more patient for a higher permission.

· who has one clue of what children will perish, young & old; this is not how the stories ends. Where there is no peace on earth for them to live.   

  
POWER is what we call into action. That will define events in our human existence.  Time reshapes the earth and subtracts life into Death after Birth. Beauty is what we see in one another and everything; in its process of change.

Today we say Farewell to the fall of ignorance. And embrace change to what we make up of all things. 

The End

-Angel L

Sister Code

Most people assume you need the MONEY, first. I been taught how POWER rules MONEY. And RESPECT is what CONQUERS the both of them.


The wrong company will turn you up. The right atmosphere sets a tone. Titles tend to inflate our egos; if we're not humbled. Confrontation raises the bar. Conversation & presentation gains the attention of the masses. When we are cautious of how we process our female emotions.

Who made the rules & set the standards of there can not be more than one woman of color at the round table? When we all bring a different A game. Therefore a gutter mentality presents itself in every nationality.

Woman securing the support of a man is not our fight against one another.  When a man knows every woman of color possesses a different "talent". So therefore more than a few men already know with whom he will place his loyalty into.

"woman must not depend upon the protection of man, but must be taught to protect her self".
 -Susan B. Anthony

Woman be cautious of seeking validation. And selective of mentors to share all your vital information. No human being is prepared for the pressures ahead. They can contribute to you advice, support and direction. Just take notes in places you allow of your cockiness & ego's to slip in. Because both men & women still have room to grow. At every level we're matured into.

Let's stick with a plan, and continue in making things happen.

Sexual Tension

Love, Lust and Passion are not the Arthur's of confusion. Men and women just initiate the conflict and opposition in expressing their honest human emotions. Why can't we allow our minds to be free from hiding in a safe zone of argumentive energy. 

In order for us to get pass the repetition of debating who or what; is right & wrong in any type of relationship it will take; We, Us, Them, Him or Her to set the stage for allowing the rules of engagement; of saying what u really want and not making it a conquering exhibition. Because someones emotions will unravel. And more than often a partner is left unpleasured. Due to the other persons "cockiness, control, short coming in length & width if not areas of loss elasticity. So therefore our inhibitions elevate in other spaces that require a comfort level of checked self-esteem. Of what we hunt for in all ages that is pleasurable to many. But often hidden by rage & disappointment in the ending. Why, because sex is a space we either seek to please, appreciate or take. So either be prepared in the event to walk away. Or perhaps some people will choose to further eat into their next level of curiousity. Just don't make more than enough of compromise to end up still settling or confined the next time. 

A relationship in this day and time. Is like asking people to compromise; for mutual respect, human communication and work. But hooking up is quick, convenient & requires no background check to itch a scratch. Therefore more than half of the time we can satisfy what we want physically in our flesh. But mentally we struggle to find and accept who we really NEED to appreciate and cherish us while we stand. And it's fair if you don’t agree. Then please "Say Something" of common sense to explain how the expression of “Love” operates in devaluing another human beings worth, expresses trickery and deceit then makes negotiations without a fair chance of obtaining the other persons permission. And if you find one form of  human reasoning to justify how Love, Lust and  Passion operates without any human mind, hands, heartbeat and feet. Then we have subtracted the implementation of our own human energy.

Both male and female species possess real human emotions. Including LOVE, LUST and PASSION where one may express his through physical interaction with verbal or non verbal communication. She will always be heart filled with many silent or open mouth expectations. So therefore have no reservations about the opposite in sex of needing more outside the bed. Because every human that breathes requires a form of intimacy, attention followed by full satisfaction. The problem is we bypass communication. Especially in relationships that accept compromise from "BAD BOY'S, the stakes are higher" and what I mean by that is be prepared not ready for twisted addictions. That will lock down your mental thinking. Because it takes a certain type of beast to teach what has no respect in the streets.  And a roll play of sessions to keep your pearls addicted for the invited but unexpected. So ladies & gents just because you bone with a strong throwback; what about he awakening up to you with a smile & question "what you want to eat for breakfast, boo". 

SYNCHRONIZE

Farewell Obama & Michelle. The first African American family to unchain America History. 

So know that we know the truth It's time we wakeup. And stay on the move.

The rule to any form of engagement is to stay “ALL THE WAY UP”, "KNOW your OPPOSITION" and to survive from being left behind of the real time lines of Fear & Deception. Loyalty & Arrogance; where Power, Product and Demand really exist in every race of our human hands.

So now that we have established in our thinking minds from over the years of time; how stuff will progress and stretch our positions into situations; it would not hurt to process this frame of mind in every moment we live of time; knowing that someone else or something is already in place, desensitization is a name for it. To accommodate then validate what we want. But most of the time it’s not always going to be necessarily what we need. Here in 2017?

Every detail is not always clear then presented in black and white, every lyric does deliver a positive and negative message. Depending on what you find to sabotage or compliment it. So if we as a human race could manage to listen to every story line; in real time. With open eyes & minds. Then maybe we could clearly see the signs that will change our views in these times for all RACES of mankind.

Damn I’m missing my generation of all races of colored WISDOM from “Back in the Day” where segregation divided activist & people of race, courage, unity and curiosity in space then hosed and sprayed mace. How do we not identify with our elders are almost near exempt. And No pun intended to our New Generation “The Struggle is Real “ in what we live. Of environments still operating through America's old history writings of Willie Lynch.  

So now that we’ve properly addressed our discrepancies, become familiar with our discussions, forums and ideas in every language around the world. The time is near for normal and not normal living people to switch gears; by figuring out how to ‘accept’ if not ‘respect” that more than enough people of all races have figured out how to coexist around the world. With out the interruption of causing conflict to draw unnecessary attention; to their cultural styles, human struggles and differences in religion.

So what one word could identify with our human actions? With the exception of “RESPECT” if we’re considered to still relate to human understanding. We should have no problem with processing; there is a ghetto in every corner of the world. The taxes are increasing in the average working class of human beings. Who are struggling to meet sheltered needs and eat. The poor are judged for investing into what is built up but not affordable in their environments. So miss real folks on the "blue print plans" that certain classes of people or sworn to not understand. Of Projection & Demand. For many generations made of colored contributions. That have added to the Faith & Wealth of this land; mostly made by demands on splintered hands. In exchange for implemented substances and denied access that has progressed in managing to destroy every colored generation. What the HELL were you thinking? 

Arthur

Words of courage.  I shared with a small child I love; when ever your struggles get to deep and challenge your strength, faith or beliefs. Remember the most POWERFUL weapon you possess.  She said what is that.  I said my baby you will be accused of judging people.  Understand we all do. But your mind is the most equipped & powerful weapon you will always  have access to,  as Time humbles you.

For years of my caring ways one day I became complasive about if we can find in one another forgiveness.  But if not. Then may we all find peace in our choices.

Today on Friday December 30, 2016. Gets us closer to another year that is closing chapters to begin a New Year. And with all that is pending, chaotic or progressing in this moment of our lives; we have the freewill to accept, contest it or reject it of how we are blessed to be here another day.

May we as human beings find peace and unity, love and prosperity. Acknowledge our acceptance of Mutual dependency. In our disconnection & Isolation of working towards more human understanding.

My writings on paper began in June of 2013. I wrote throughout day's and night's because TIME did not stop while we we're sleeping on our thoughts. My search for wisdom happened in every moment I took one breath in.  To better understand more of myself. In order to find balance in logic, non logic and malice. I've never be afraid to except there is a full gap in our channels of miscommunication. Where we don't initiate the time to honestly express what comes across our minds. And how there are bridges we could of and still can cross without burning one another as we walk. I've been humbled in so many situations in my life.  That required of me to change. And ask for more patience to better adapt in understanding of my own relationships, and every race of man I come in unity with. I have not taken the proper time to prep for stage appearances. I have read authors who write there own life of happiness or confusion. And we as humans all play the part of the characters we already are.  I have learned my power is not meant to control the atmosphere. My power defines how I live and move within it.

I no longer search for human reasoning or validation. I was once lost in a world of the searching. Time will not allow room for Reservations.  Where we as a people have yet to connect with the change we refuse to deal with in ourselves.

I'm quite sure the truth does exist in our original "blue prints". Created before we knew man in life's existance.

King's & Queens

"The truth is everyone is going to hurt you.  You just have to decide who is worth suffering for.
-Bob Marley"

I'm not a saint. And YESS! I do highly respect the way a  silent BAD BOY, genuinely THINKS. So therefore I respect what I observe; of people who are not required to think or synchronize on the same page. But how do we manage to "flip" people that are out of our conversation range. To figure out what tedious compromise is? From other Kings and Queens who are not as strong as they appear. Do we not understand this is a mental game to see who will give in. But not every person's story is the same. This is how I learned from my experience.

We interact daily with compromise regardless of whom they claim is dear to their hearts. People are quick to demand outside of their pre-existing relationship "respect my husband, old lady, dude, wife and kids" But how about "you" respect them first. Is when we should recognize the SIGN that not every  conversation is worth the tears drops that FALL from your eyes. Is the reasoning to why I don't live a reality in human fantasies. I am a Queen who values her worth and reasoning. I dream BIG. I am a diamond who is familiar with "being in love but not equally yoked, trials and friendship, family unity, tribulations and prosperity. But not yet appreciated for a more in depth level of thinking. I work extensively to travel and taste the beauty around the world. And yes, I do also manage to pay bills. But I choose to also live. There are many reasons to why I'm said to be "too poised" enlightening and smart at times; where the dark is brighter for some of us to continue in remaining blind. I write stories real people are embarrassed if not silenced to share. So I earn my respect for being "who I am". And yes I continue to loose people with a sensitive level of understanding. Because I refuse to be devalued. In a world of obstacles that await all our faiths.

I wonder how often is the question asked; what do you love most about yourself? For every King and Queen this question means everything. If the unity is valid for us in reasoning. And concrete in our understandings". And if some people are not settling. Then why do Kings and Queens embellish in open marriages & couples seek other holes for satisfaction. Are we limited to ideas in pleasing one another intimately.  Or do we seek pleasures that can never be met in the flesh. So we act savagely in seeking people who are open to a world of NEXT? And yes it is among the living.  Look at the options we keep choosing. And tonight as I spent some quality time with a King from another country land.  He talked and I paid close attention to every scenario followed with an explanation. He admired my lips and conversation. And complimented me with no hesitation. He made every meaningful form of contact.  He complimented my beauty and wisdom. Then he said "don't ask a king so many questions". Allow things to fall in line. Because people place to much emphasis; on emotions we later question.  When we should be more focused on who we can build a fortune with. Sounds good; but how so if his conversation is limited to penetration. He proceeded to ask if I was dating. I said I keep my mind focused, legs closed, eyes and options wide open.  He proceeded to plant a kiss beginning with my forehead.  As the server patiently watched & waited.  I was delighted about the public affection. Then after dinner he admitted there is a Queen in his space.  But they have an arranged understanding; no kids, no commitment just occasional SEX. I'm a Queen who respects a man of options, honesty & diligence. So now we have created a mutual understanding. And tonight I will remember this moment knowing that there is a King meant for every Queen with or without a plan beyond their legs.  But today I'll pass on being another person's option on a 200-1800 count in thread. And to keep it real every Kings "curve" is not worth the Co-pay for a doctors visit that could of been avoided. To exist for "hours" then forgotten in seconds. Sometimes our options will appear light but don't get "caught up" your Queen and King will be ON-TIME.

Therefore if any woman or man in or out of a relationship continues in pleasuring random acts in the flesh; then the outcome is what you bartered for so there are no misunderstandings. And yes I have indulged in my share of satisfaction. But what I'm saying is use your brains more often to avoid unnecessary choices.

So now we say to God it's time you grant permission of our self-prioritized way of thinking in the flesh. Where we have found a loophole in the Old Biblical Testament. To service more than one woman or man in our permiscuous thinking. Then we both struggle with communication stemming from our arrogance. Of believing in our own lies. And existing in the blind leading the blind.

The people and acts are in real time. In every era of human life. The desires run deep throughout human history. The generations of incest still exist, our hands or a hot mess. The song writer lyrics sing " she don't want to be saved, don't save her". The thirst for lust is TOXIC. The anger grows deeper for one another where the truth is not hid. Hell people share their own business on social media land. If not what we Reveal of ourselves in person.

The tongue games are Ruthless. The human mentality is destructive in all ages of understanding in men and women. There has to be some logic in how our acts are making sense. Of this new generation that argues it's comparison to the old ages of Soldiers, Kings, Queens and Gents. And yes, experience brought this Queen a chasten is why I choose to live as if I was taught a lesson in entertaining ignorance. I'll prefer wisdom instead of being led astray, any day.

The reckless attitudes should come as no surprise. Because some Kings consider a Queen "the bad bitch" with no limitations, casual drug pill popping addictions, and weed is a natural herb.  While sharing is caring between our legs" and lowering our "standards". And some queens do vouch for a king who "hustles for anything" "smack that ass, but in the wrong ways" as long as he "swings a good pitch" to serve her heated position. And we struggle it in our light weight thinking. In hard times why these people we involve ourselves with lack in making a conducive contribution. Because our intensions were limited in the beginning. But again this is what some not all of our New Generation of Kings and Queens pride themselves in of common sense thinking. You be the judge in your own situation. Where perception of one another has reached another level. When woman or more of hunters seeking men as prey and in return we show minimum value if not an inch of respect. To only gain some positive attention or negative attention. Popping mollies is now a trend in every class of men and woman of all ages.  A crowd pleaser is confused with being judged by our tattoos reflected from the crack of our assets. And not every birth is a mistake. A female invited a male into her space. Who voluntarily entered in UNSAFE. And not every plan is to wed; an open set of legs.

Not every Queen has loyal intentions. To serve & protect a good "bad boy's" back. Not every queen is meant to be tasted on a Kings pallet. Not every queen is filled with goals & expectations. Some queens are on a mission. Even to gain a baby daddy. So if more Kings could admire beyond penetrating every females crack with his pride and bat. Then an equally yoked Queen will reign in open options. Not both your set backs. Now can we assume the King and Queen position. If we have not all rejected what is required to hold it.

We always say "something has to change". But maybe if it stays the same we can change. In 2017 by figuring out our own self-worth.

GRINGOS

I don't exist in the mindset of "how we going to come up quick" let's live in the mindset of let's plan to go get it. Because most people have figured out what they need to survive and I'm more involved in the mindset of what I still need to stay live. And with all due respect survival is understanding a gutter or ruthless mentality. And while we place emphasis on removing & saying we believe IN GOD WE TRUST? Human beings are being leveraged with it. 

The music mobile JZ slayed this verse "until you own your own, you can't be free. How we still slaves in 2016". So get mad if you want, change the page. Tune it out and struggle with doubt or even better blame someone else. But reality is the truth is what it is.  Therefore “You got to own it, if you want it” and identify the difference between; a life, the truth or real deceit.   

Today we are not confused about the choices we make. We are more frustrated in catching no breaks. Therefore our struggles appear to be different. Where people are categorized into targets, but also consider in the decisions we also make there is a trap that waits. 

Therefore if your desire is to reach a few or many pinnacles in this life, envision them first before you expect someone else to understand the mission inside of your head.

One night at dinner I ask a male companion if I was always deep. He in return said to me "never stoop to low for a person to understand you at a higher level. However, listen to me. I looked into this person’s eyes and realized we had nothing in common to share. Checkmate I got played. But not slayed. Keep it moving tomorrow is a different day. I often share with people; either you will appreciate a person, challenge their understanding, or figure out what access to tap into what you need out of them. Family, lovers, associates, strangers and friends, included.  And most of time the problem is "people that say you don't get get it, have it all figured out" of what they need but you can't accommodate in thinking. 

Every human soul has the understanding of “we all have to work in some form or fashion to gain access to whom and what we need” But work to some people is not always 8-5. Sometimes work is what you can gain with using your body, control and mind.   

So we learn life lessons in the reciprocation of what people will do to “work on you” and that includes Family, lovers, associates, strangers and friends so there are no surprises to what will happen in a good or bad ending.

Every person has an idea of who will be committed in their choices; right or wrong this person will wither in every storm. Again it takes a certain type of people to teach, and a certain type of people to think & comprehend at a lower, medium and higher level of understanding.

I’m a person who believes IN why not discuss the elephant in the room in order for us to avoid the repetition of our web of afflictions to reach a point of understanding, even if you don't want to accept it, respect it.  In case someone else seeks validation to continue in doing the same OLD things. And age has no limitations; where people struggle with “change”.

Access draws attention, youth and beauty is like finding the fountain to life, sex makes people feel on top of the world if not invincible; and did I mention people are not only selling it they are now requiring you pay for it in advance. Before getting to identify your differences. Fame can make a person act, deranged. And the final cut off from an addiction to that access will bring out peoples true faces, a hot mess.

The Struggle is real. In all races of man and daily I pray to God how did Jesus manage to love us so much? In a world filled with people who seek to inflict nonsense. And not expect Karma to payback.

Life Goes On

We are the last generation left. The only difference is we're just replacing new names in the same stories already lived. I share this with my family "people will visit into your life" some will stay for a moment if not a lifetime. So allow temporary people to only take away, what they walked in with once they take that exit. 

We all face situations with people in our lives; that raise the point of concern to question, WHY? When life in the hood is never good for everyone, to continue in living it out in our minds. Here's my story line.

I received a call one day from an old friend, who had buried a young wife and best friend in his life. So I knew from his tone he did not sound the same. As I listened to what he had to say. I could clearly hear the clarity of “uncertainty”. Only because I was familiar with his past so many years of investment. I made a vow to be his ride or die in this friendship. And at any given time this old friend could of ask “how has your life been” which never happened.  The conversation proceeded “I’ll be in town and it would be nice if you would come and hang out”. Immediately I said “no doubt” even though I knew in my heart this friendship had grown apart; because I stepped into my maturity a long time ago. But it could not hurt to see my old friend and laugh; once again as we always did. I arrived on the scene and it was no surprise that the atmosphere reminded of pages we should have jumped off of. So I did not hate on  his parade, we've lost to many along the way.  As the evening began to slowly grind. The air grew thick with mist as “JP” slammed his famous hits. Several women flashed their natural derriere’s bouncing off the walls; as men touched and glared. And yet we wonder why our “relationships” come easy then quit "quick ". But I'm not mad at anyone who expresses their freedom in action. And yes, I’m for having a good time whether in a slow pace or fast grind. I just miss the old days in a new time of change.   

The moral of this story is no matter what your relationship is. People are destined to emotionally and physically change “with time and age” so “you can either choose to accept or disassociate yourself from “copying” the Identify of someone else. Because we are destined to be impacted by what happens of challenging our individual understanding. I just pray at this level  of our lives we embrace more of life.

I occasionally will say I’m familiar with hard times and people who are there to witness everything. So we become accustomed to the environment we once knew. At the next level of a new space. We tend to find the same atmosphere to remind us of "we're still living there".

A love one calls because they are internally alone. But life has got you caught up in family, kids, careers, financial struggles, relationships and marriages. And sometimes you feel emotionally, lifeless. So what do you do where in some cases people feel their purpose is found in clutters of things to do, some people feel obligated to put everyone else before themselves, some people will only support themselves and silently seek emotional pity from everyone else.   The moral to this story is you must prioritize and decide what is of a priority in your life. While you’re living before you die.

A new job opportunity has finally made a landing. And it’s not what you want but it will supplement what you did not have, or struggle with people to get. Which is a way to stabilize an “honest living” in hours that are tedious, the work load is strenuous, the pay fluctuates, people are full of jive talk and the politics are set in place, DAILY. But the minor detail we have missed is who is teaching our kids. So they understand how struggles are already predestined if we don’t properly add to their thinking of reading, math and writing. And I understand public and private education is the plan where ordinary people are also dealing with the “same hand”. The moral to this story is never become dependent on what has been set in place, to distract you from what is already destined to change. 

A tiny child looked into my eyes & ask me last night "why do you leave us & return". I smiled & took her hand " to say I will never leave you my child" but I must know certain "barter deals" to survive and "courage, knowledge & wisdom" will keep you alive. Before people & this story unwinds". She said what do mean, auntie. I said people are up to old tricks in new times. And the world will never be the same "look into the eyes & not so much of the lines". So auntie will stay on top of "game". In order for this family too survive. So it is relevant my child we all recognize the 🕙 that we stretch out in our human minds.

Life is what you put into it. Lessons and Wisdom is what you walk away with. 

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There will come a time to create some space or walk away from certain relationships. Reasoning being is that you don’t have the time to rewind where you have been to accommodate where another person does not see the both of you growing. It would behoove you to stick with your own mission.

Something's telling me somewhere in time that we are destined to meet that, one. Why, because sometimes we do get it right the first time in life where no man or woman will ever reach the pinnacles of perfection in relationships. But we do have to establish with whom we can deal with, and to prepare for life’s unexpected. While watching time fly bye never hold the responsibility that we are the finished product in a failed relationship. The cycles have to be broken that existed from our past generations. So the question is "If we could find the perfect someone" would we recognize them? Or would we brainstorm and compare them with the past of our relationships. And it's not always a bad memory. Sometimes life just happens so just stay prepared for the unexpected. To get pass what we get caught up in. Of what the last person did to break our trust, and shatter our emotions.     

 Therefore looking for substitutions just won't work immediately. You need time to heal before jumping into someone else new. And never allow someone to make you feel GUILTY of knowing EXACTLY what you need. People often judge you as the problem when they are still in their burdened emotions. There is some laughter in that. Some time we think we know everything about one another. So therefore we assume who will stick around. To only find out we're also being judged in what we neglected to communicate with that other person who showed compassion. Life is funny that way. In reminding us we all must change & communicate effectively. 

When someone is thinking about you, they don’t just think about reaching out to you.

When a man or woman chooses to sacrifice you don't have to ponder with “if it's you they will not think about twice”. This man or woman will show up at any given moment in time. 

When people are brittle in their hearts, not every man or woman is invited into mend it. Be careful of how much time you invest in.

When someone misses holding you, they don’t just “occupy” that space with anybody in your place.  

When people don’t know what they want, it is not a “mirage”. Allow them to seek who they want and what they need.

What we see with our eyes, may not play out in real life. When women carry every emotion they feel in their heart, some men care from in between their legs. While the remainder of those men who really are searching for the “entire package”. To execute some “plans” involving compromise and real commitments” in places that are not within a ½ inch of understanding, rejections and limitations.

No one really knows why love chooses random people. Maybe we just make the choice for love and choose whom we want to love. So how about we first teach one another, how to be there for each other.