OLD FRIEND “uncut conversation”

This message is meant for all the Old friends around the world; who have a life experience  to share. 

OLD FRIEND welcome back. It’s been a couple of years since we spoke as friends. It’s really good to hear you’ve changed in areas to better appreciate, the tiny things that once pushed you away. So now that we have both matured in our tenure years, we can finally meet on this final page of our past history. And mutually agree that it was in God’s plan we were both meant to take that journey.

But before we end this chapter; I’m glad we can now share what was once our youthful conflict in understanding those past fears:

I’m not use to not being able to share our dreams; so life is teaching me not everyone has a real plan of their own. And be careful of who is hiding the jealousy inside for yours.    

I’m not use to the feeling lonely mentally, when I know what caters to your needs; so again life is showing me it’s not strange that people are not accustomed to accepting what they need unless it’s always strife and confusion to compare it too.  

I’m not use to being alone; so life is teaching me that it’s going to take some time to identify with who really is looking to surrender “appreciation”.

I’m not use to expecting no four-play and not being made love too over & over again; so life is teaching me store your pearls & treasures in heaven.

I’m not use too being reprimanded for encouraging or enlightening a struggling moment; so life is teaching me not everyone is searching for a light at the end of their dark tunnels.

I’m not use to not being able to express a giggle & smile in those countless moments lovers pleasure one another in what they are truly feeling for each another; so life is teaching me don’t waste time on what “sounds” or “appears” to look good. Everyone is looking for something different. And what you need is destined to show in any moment.

I'm not use to disagreeing and not ending up with a mutual understanding. Of it's ok we can express our differences; so life has proven to me sometimes people create an easy way out to avoid what requires accountability in the way they react to small things. 

I’m not use to always leading the prayer whether it occurs in the morning, evening or at bedtime; so life is teaching me to move on and continue in prayer with GOD who can show up with my FAVOR.

I’m not use to not being able to settle down, turn the phones off and talk through what is interrupting me and you; so life has shown me not all people have dealt enough with themselves to identify with it will take Gods direction to for-fill a mission.  

This is where a Lover’s hurt finally ends and the beginning of Happy Ending begin, with more human loving.

In memory of “Phyllis Hyman”

Can You Stand The Rain

Time changes; its up to us to move with it. This entry was written in 2016.

The Holidays are approaching and another “Year” is near. People are planning for new beginnings going forward into the New YEAR. While some people feel it’s just “another day, hoping for “Change”. 

Today I fed the MASSES. Tomorrow I’ll assist families, children and babies living in POVERTY.

Who is lost because of an old friendship that did not hold it's strength? People who made a choice without your PLANS now release it from your hands and process it in your HEAD.

Today upstate someone has hit the “POWER BALL & MEGA MILLION” lottery. But down south and in other areas people continue to place stake in what is 1 in a MILLION. 

Tomorrow electric providers will burn lights and sleep good at night. Tomorrow some one has to work late just to get home and lay awake thinking about how they will pay the hiked Utility rates.

Today I met a King who showered me with RESPECT, SUPPORTED my dreams, sincerely listened to what I had to say and caressed me instead of lashing out with “BEATINGS”. And know I have not had the opportunity to be asked for my HAND in MARRIAGE, because God had to mature me in areas I was not prepared for it. But so many people either are blessed with it. While others are not OBEDIENT to who God has blessed them with. 

The Holidays are near but someone will listen to “What do the LONELY do at Christmas”? Another day someone could have made the choice to apologize for hurting someone else with deceit and lies.

What will tomorrow bring for different people who need different things; food on the table, winning the lottery, love, a fairy tale wedding, promises, a kiss, conflict or change, more money-more money. A few simple things. 

The feeling of stress is self-induced, happiness is a choice no matter what you are going through, people will choose to listen or turn a death ear. But pay more attention to what they do and not how they persuade you into a mellow mood. 

Who wants to be a fool for pain, intentionally? Who wants to Work for free while the Company plans bonuses, vacations and feast? Who wants to family feud 20 years down the line and cry once PEOPLE DIE?

Who would selfishly BIRTH more babies without a plan. Yet some of us struggle to care for the ones we already have?  Who wants to be in a VIOLENT relationship?  Who wants to be obedient in a marriage or 2-3 year on and off courtship? Someone who needs seeks comfort and direction.

Who wants to always struggle with the same finances, deal with people with their choices and mistakes; unless they refuse to change. Whose heart has not been broken because of a Disobedient Kids? Try allowing them time to learn right from wrong in what they did. Then be there to lift them up with a LOVING HAND.

Who lives a LIFE without God and FAITH? PEOPLE WHO STRUGGLE TO accept change in any & everything. And harness their INTERNAL PAIN.

The sunshine is fun on a sunny day, the clouds could bring rain on a cloudy day. The Holidays are near to share laughter and spread cheer. The New Year’s resolutions have been talked about for the New Year. 

And the question that still remains is “Can We as People Stand the Rain”?