Wednesday, February 8, 2017

My First Love

God does not treat us based on our "sins" we deserve. God allows in everything we do; a second chance unlike man to redo our first, all over again.

The day we met we were both kids fascinated with what we heard & saw once we gazed into each others eyes. Eventually we became the best of friends. Assuming we could teach one another what we still needed of time and room to learn; about each other & our selves. In a life filled with twist and turns. We created a friendship together in which we only required of the both of us to understand one another. There was nothing out of one or the others reach; as long as you belong to me & I belong to you. The sky had no limits to what either of us would do. Eventually we figured out our right & wrongs. There was not a moment wasted we did not explore of what our bodies lusted for. We forgave one another in our hurtful words & childish ways. We held onto one another with loyalty. We chose and were chosen by others but no one had the power in this entire universe to keep us apart. We we're brought up in different environments and judged for not being good enough for one another. But only time could show us each other. Then one day we created a bond once your seed complimented my wound. And a life was born is when I knew that you were my first love. 

But this is not how the story ends. This is just how many of our “first love” stories began: 

Until the day came and time caught up with love and demanded some accountability; from the both of us. To sit down and re-evaluate if we were still on course to be in one another’s life. To cherish, protect and always be together side by side. Is when we both saw the difference of how we both mentally & physically changed. A valuable lesson to be learned in any relationship over time but only we can figure out why:

Not everyone is meant for one another at a different space in time. Not every pair will hold together where the chains no longer bind. Sometimes people mature in what they have to learn it just depends on what changes take place in their hearts and understandings. We just have to realize when time is no longer investing in that part of our lives. To move forward, receive and reciprocate, show more compassion and work harder in communicating our love and understanding.

If there was a world created with one main intension of destroying one's hope to experience love. There would be no human reasoning to understand why; people fall in & out of love all the time. Therefore love allowed us all a "second chance" to mature and prepare for our next, "FIRST love all over again". 

You will know when the time is right for you to let go and live more of this life.



Now that I've matured into this facet of beauty that I am my essence is deeper than what is seen in the presence of man.



I value myself more and cautious of who I allow into my space. I dream with no limits. Because life continues to allow me to breathe in it.



I don't have many sorrows because I've learned to let go, allow people to do whatever comes natural and giggle more.



I'm not afraid to admit I've never been married or even know if I've ever been in love. I was eager to be obedient to what God needed of me. And always prepared for unexpected journeys  



I will never deny myself of feeling passion, love, poverty and wealth. Because not everything we want is always what we imagine it to be. So I've learned to live and adjust in life  accordingly.

I remember being ask the other day as I sat on top of a  rolling sea “what was it I was thinking”? For one moment I was speechless in my response. Little did he know that in that moment he was my first. So my silent question to him was "are you prepared for your next 1st"? In which I can humbly promise to be your last". But only if you're prepared to open up to allow me to be your next, first.

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