HURT

Hurt is such a small but BROAD four-letter word. Depending on the people who inflict it on someone else, they hurt. And we can even be more considerate enough to say; that sometimes people may or not be aware of their inconsiderate & selfish ways. Until the hurt is reciprocated back to them. By someone else they least expected.

Through the writings of Angel L; life lit around the entire world. In the beginning I've shared my real. 

We've listened to songs and suffered in grief. Over deaths. That impacted the entire world. We've figured out how to cohabitate; in & out. Of our emotions under one roof. We've blended our cultural families into making; unity. 

We've planned to work our entire lives; to only payback what we dreamed to have. We've dated & married, and in situations divorced. In all races of human that experienced; love & security. Until some people realized that living in convenience; is a commodity. But in the scripture it reads about Han who was cursed. And a woman name Rahab who was treated by the people like an outcast.

We've managed to create wars; in these street. And in silence conspiracies. 

We continue to give "birth" in a generation; drunk in love. Where there is lack of energy & hope. To better educate & pray for re-direction. Of the people we love. That struggle to deal with their own internal; emotions.

We've managed to figure out what it really means to be "free". In a world of compromise, you belong to me. If not bullying. 

We choose not to "think" and remain in “slavery” thinking. Once time reminds us. In all; enough is enough. Of doing anything the same old way.

In a life that many people live in. But we are not sure why some people will struggle to find their own; happy endings.  

As we watch the World Turn inside out. Do not waste time taking offense. To what most of us contributed in. Of our own human actions. As time will remind its people to be more: 

H-Humble 

U-Understanding

In

R-Recognizing

T-Truth 

Before we sign-off on one page today. In our puffed up human ways. May we be more accountable of our own actions. That require, some personal attention. To fine tune are adjust. The way we look at ourselves in the world. Before trying to adjust one another in it. Of change. 

In order to obtain some validation sought. From one another. In a world of people searching. If not lost. Then maybe Hurt will turn to the People and say “I can no longer” exist in this place.

I 💘 You

On what planet do human beings survive without allowing themselves the permission to devour human intimacy, love, trust and communication in this life?

After 2 years today. I allowed my heart permission to glimpse into what seemed to be a Possibility. Until reality reminded me; of how any type of person can affect the altering of your mind set, if you allow "yourself" permission to acceptance of it. But knowing your Worth will detour you back into focus.

I'm in Love relates to human rejection, acception & excuses. To better help us understand why a possibility is not always going to be a reality. Why, because of the following traits in which we choose or not to identify with in our human intuition. 

(1.) Acceptance of Love:  First, figure out if you're mature enough to open up with your heart & mind to trust.

(2.) Uncertainty of how to reciprocate Love: Second, evaluate if you are the stem of "misunderstandings", defensive & argumentive of another human beings, motive & intentions.

And

(3) Abandoned by Love: Last, process your personal facts to deal with your disappointments. Next, accept it's not another person’s fault that someone else walked out. Then maybe those fears, aggressive & manipulative actions will allow you the permission of allowing someone new to heal your broken places.  

Unfortunately there's no real fault or reasoning to "why, what or whom we fall" in LOVE with. No matter how we test real facts, sit on panels or justify our human actions. We "typically" attempt to understand “people" that seem "right" to Love at the wrong time in this life.

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-Angel L

69

"69" is a very tasteful year to sip, If you allow permission to explore your inner inhibitions. And growing old is a mandatory process If you're not in fear of growing up in several positions.

It's not clear to what the naked eye visualizes when it involves; love, lust and sex. It only sees a rapid and intense pattern of people affected by other people within their human natures.  So therefore 

It’s not fair to assume that any man or woman deserves or will be alone.  

It’s not always fair to think; that all men appreciate the essence of a woman. Or vice versa, that all woman respect an honest man.

In a world of people to LOVE, we deny ourselves the right to a 100 percent of LOVE making. In areas we grasp in understanding the inclinations of human thinking for settling down for Love in the 69 angled positions of twisted expectations.

In a woman’s soul you can find the thoughts of heart and mind. In a man’s words you can hear clearly what’s on his mind. And his real truth is not hidden. It’s in his actions.  

It’s clear to see; how we’ve all been damaged or hurt at some point in our lives. And why people should take more space & time to untangle the hurt in their hearts and minds.  

It’s clear to feel how men and women have lost intimacy for a stroke of ecstasy. So never place high expectations in underdeveloped places.  

It’s a wake- up call to see how “Love” is a reminder placed on the calendared wall.  

It’s sad to see how many “tear drops” fall, because of someone who cause them all.  

Valentine’s Day should not feel like one day in a calendar year. Birthdays should not be set on a reminder alert. Married couples that separate is not always a sign; of a preparation to sign off on the divorce line. And every holiday should be filled with KISSES & surprises. Not expectations of receiving what we have yet to figure out in reciprocation.

Once we “Fall Back In LOVE” together on one PAGE.  Then life's stories are destined to change....

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MONEY

Money teaches us valuable lessons without one single conversation. Because Money is 1 topic. Not to be educated in every culture.

Money travels around the world in one day. And if we were to listen closely to what real people's reservations and accusations claim; of how its’ the real bitch, we can identify with why it has always gained worldwide classification and attention. 

One day money demanded our attention and before we knew it. We were "caught up" in associating ourselves with it. Why, because it showed us that

I do not manage time. But time summons your responsibility to find access to me. In order to provide some of your basic needs.

I am the access to support you in those accomplishments. 

I am not a human being. I do not understand the mind over matters of man.

I do not create life adversity; because I have no hands, mind or feet.

I was not created to purchase your freedom. The truth is you were born to be free, But in man's reality you will always be "commodity or liability". Because some of you will continue to remain imprisoned, with your made up mind decisions. 

I am not code accessed. I am the magnet drawing you into my swagger.

I do not possess human emotions. So don’t be manipulated into thinking you can purchase “LOVE” through "SEX" from any breathing human being.

I am only a tool for all Human access, created by the hands of man but not for compulsive destruction.  

I am Money with one mission. Created here on earth but I'm often used to manipulate human worth. 

AMERICA

People across the world heard what Bill Clinton was accused of. We've been advised of Donald Trump and his business. We've witnessed around the entire world what women can "make happen" and with all do respect we now appreciate the facts of how judgment navigates real peoples voluntary actions that alter the confidence and growth in every nation. 

Whether the facts are "relevant if not accurate" "right or wrong, true or false" people of all races seek a resolution for someone to answer too; and being reprimanded is not always fair regardless of that individuals actions. So just in case those of us who think we've not heard enough of "judgment". Here's another wake call please "sound the alarm to the entire world". Of what has never been shielded of ourselves, but judged by all around the world.

There are Men of honor and women of power who contribute to "real change" or "destruction of human dreams" in this land of the hoping & free. So therefore most "viewers & spectators" around the world will see the story one way, Most "readers" will understand what is being said in "writing". Most "positions" will form an "opinion". And Angel L only communicates so that even a child can understand of what they can see life's reality.

One day she opened up her whole heart allowing him to come in. In order for him the opportunity to "learn & appreciate" her mind, body and untouched places she needed him to process without judgment. 

One day he confessed his love to her. And promised they would have an uninterrupted life together. But the "truth" of the reality is that whatever it takes to get back to a special place in their lives. It will require both individuals to work in awkward, immature and tedious place overtime.  

One day she decided to let her guards down in order to submissively follow his lead.  One day they were both left alone outside of each other’s arms standing in storms. Why, because it takes a certain type of man to mature in his own skin before teaching a woman "why, what and where" in certain places. 

One day she promised to never settle for less until she felt the strangest feeling of "direction". Then suddenly her "gem" became the prey in what we call a hunters game, in every corner of the world we live in today. Please do not place limitations on any space.

One day he ask to take her home then later left before the early dawn. And suddenly she figured out he never meant to stick around. In a planned place that would require them both to move around.

To all MEN of every nation from every Woman of any nation:

We are the queens that give birth to your children, a woman who continues to carry you in a fragile womb, a care giver that sits beside your sick bed, a cheerleader when the crowds are suddenly silenced. We are the wives and single women who stand up by some of your sides of “scrutiny, the truth, and will instantly fight for you in the mist of your deceit and lies”. We are caught up in the rapture of whatever life sends you through, simply because we "unselfishly" Love you, and the reality is that life throws some women curve balls such as; heartache and disappointment. But continue to show queens of all colors some human respect. By remembering it was that woman who made the sacrifice for a moment in her life in order to stand by your side.  And pardon those women who choose or just can’t seem to get it right.  

So today to all Women of every nation; from every Man of any nation we are the Kings who promise to "Love, Protect & Respect", but sometimes there are men who do fall short of those promises. Then treat another human being at fault for causing our own self-conflict. We have promised to be true and committed if you continue to do what is desired of you in our relationships. We do not know life plans but if we can learn to trust and communicate with one another. There is a chance we will outlast life's unseen forecast ahead of us.  We will take what is given on a tray to us with no commitment if it is not required of us. So be careful. 

We require to be respected as men; but not through control, disrespect and intimidation, so also watch how we give it in return. We will follow you to a degree of what is "a good direction" in which we can resume the lead. We all are not heart breakers and liars. Some of us tell the truth if you’re listening and accepting what is reality in front of you. We do love to be "touched in many places and desired". We need to be appreciated for the little things we show the initiative to do. Just not what you expect of us; is where we don't have a clue.  It’s true we may sometimes forget "specific dates" but remember how a real man who takes notes and understands that his woman is always a part in every "move in power and plan". And no we're not all broken down because of some woman who cheated or walked away some of us select to be enslaved to the B
playboy games. Some of us are just immature to accept the choices we have made but for a negotiated price we will pay, with any opponent of a game. Now watch how life changes lanes of what we as a people assume is a matter, lie or the truth.

In this life educate our daughters & sons to “mature and change with understanding” and be mindful of those who choose to remain in a place of scrutiny and holding". 

Society Rules

I see signs in yards and bumper stickers that read "Make White America Great Again". And all I could think about is "White America" did not make up history alone; there were black slaves, Indians and other races killed and overthrown. The real make-up of this 1 Nation we fight to own.

Society has proven real time facts that some of us still remain true believers of; the resurrection, inhuman acts even involving children, romance, regardless of sexual preference and "pegging is now a woman's role to enter into a man's anal, social media will gain attention; and real people will share what they are feeling about your image if not confessions, jail convictions, assassinations, genocide of people population, marshal law, purchase of "raw land in underdeveloped classes, and increased land resales after negotiated purchases", suicide bombings, prejudice acts today that are more common to be blinded by our judicial system. So we must be more prepared in order to take on the "good with the bad". Or nothing "civil" will satisfy us all, where we are destined to "change" if not "fall".

The billboards and advertisements on apparel read "THE STRUGGLE IS REAL" for you, them and me. So how are we to continue in managing a civil life, and who really is testing how we survive. While exhausting real time in living what is advertised of our day to day lives. And it does not have to apply to everyone to personally affect some one else, so pardon your egos and let's get real, because some of us are not aware of what is being negotiated. So we miss out on understanding the distraction at hand to avoid getting straight answers to what had been years of plans towards investments that should never compliment our own interest, and that includes our personal relationships. Around the entire world of any and all human existence. Where real Time will expire in the blink of an eye as People leverage with who will change their minds in Spaces limited but increasing population growth and we all know that Extra weight; is destined to cause "mental" if not "physical" breaks in this human race.

I saw a quote today that read "there is a road to hell, but a stairway to heaven". I heard there are people who have founded the door to hell as others have found religion to guide them to the stairway of heaven. So the question is why are we so afraid to ask the right questions; if the both exist of "heaven" and "hell" then what "missions" have not been revealed to destroy one another in the "one world" we all "live" or "exist" in, or did we or not contribute to the "collateral damage" that tightens the space we call a human race?

Time will expire in the blink of an eye. People will automatically change their minds in real-time, Space is limited where there is an increase of population growth, Greed is overrated where there is access & enabling, leaving lesser of hope, and we are the witness to how Extra weight is destined to change "our FAITH", into a mental & physical break.

Angel L-
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Bridges

I read a quote today that read "Difficult Roads Often Lead To Beautiful Destinations"

So therefore who really knows what life has in store from day to day. All we can do is plan for and focus on what is coming ahead. And I get the facts of how we all have a different plan. But remember this life was never promised to lack limitations of hardships in our future and some that still rise-up from our past. Therefore we as individuals must define; what is it we’re seeking or doing that adds happiness, contentment or aggressive hardships in our future lives. And consider this it does not discriminate on any race of color in any given day. Sometimes the choices we make are not always sudden mistakes. Their just the choices in which we make and continue to seek of a new opportunity.

Bridges will be crossed at some point in time. Some bridges will be burned, because of the choices in which we choose in not valuing how we make one single move. Some bridges will be created, to separate ourselves in space. Some bridges will remain; and never been looked upon the same. Some bridges will be shared; because we have accepted our human errors to see that life has two paths of life and death possibilities. Why, because we are all destined to be crossed.  Of bridges overtime time. And it just depends on how you will approach them in your life.  

I crossed a bridge today and before I looked back, I made a reality check within myself. To see if I had made the same choices in seeking a different result, knowing what’s ahead of me of taking on life’s accountability; another bridge to cross. But this time how will I take this final walk? And have I figured out in enough time it’s not always wrong to take a chance. It’s only a challenge to cross certain bridges.

We as a people “plan, stand and look forward” to this year’s winner in the Presidential election, Creating Stronger relationships in any family, society and space, Putting that old baggage to rest; the cause that results into an affect where we a people are destined to cross a bridge of success, failure or contentment. In our human minds of consciousness where it seems the reality of our two candidates are faced with a challenge beyond defamation of character and tales of who is genuine or fake, our families are faced with who will lead our kids if not pay the bills, relationships will struggle due to lack of human communication, compassion & respect while the entire world is watching. And yes, every living human being with breath holds some form of accountability, to his or her own living reality. So today ask yourself what bridge will you cross, with or without someone else to enable you? Because many people are bound to remain at a lost, while others will move ahead and walk. 

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Feet

In 1947 real people survived the cold war. Our past legacy was made of the "Black Wall Street, that was burned to the ground in 1921, and in a New Millinium a new "Wall Street" now stands open to the young and old investors offering conservative and high risk options.  We've witnessed "The Great Depression in 1929", and in 1933 extremist maintained power through "Gun Control, Hitler's regime", and our second AMENDMENT gave back Americans control but not all in the future faith of the people. Throughout the world we continue to strongly "Express" our sincere actions and concerns against Domestic Violence. And in the 1800's was the Battered Women's Movement" and in another moment of 2016 history The National Coalition Against Domestic Violence, exist even in same sex marriages" and The average cost to raise a child according to the US Department of Agriculture is $250 K. In an economy of unemployment, smaller take home wages and lesser signs of an increase in living for years to come. So how far has this human race progressed from a past "COLD AGE in time to accommodate a 'NEW WORLD of ORDER" occurring in every moment before our Global eyes.

There is a "WORKING CLASS" in the human race seeking answers in every direction that will lead them, to more & more questions. There is a the "THINKING CLASS" of people who feel a certain type of way about almost anything; so pay close attention to what they do or not say do.  There is a plan that involves "GENTRIFICATION" which is not advertised in such a way that ordinary people will identify with; how their money is not adding up to every inch of square footage. So there is a new word called "DEPOPULATION" and some people are limited to think that it only means "EVAPORATION" of human lives. To increase the richness of things to maintain in this life. Where there is "PREJUDICE" in any and all forms of human existence. And the only misconception is that this word can only be expressed; through another human acts of hatred and violence. But what about what has no hands "SYSTEMS" created with a plan, for every race of child, woman and man. Who symbolize in every race "UNITY" of strong and respected morals, values and beliefs. But not every ingredient mixed is a recipe for "Peace, NON-Violence and Harmony".

I was corrected today because of my enlightened ways.  Which caused this person to be angered because of  a different form of communication, so they lashed out to me as if I was attempting to hold them back if not challenge their intelligence. Where we are secure in our individual comfort zones of securities placed in our own boxes of life choices and people. And I would have not known if someone in life had not redirected me where I stirred wrong. So if you have not yet to live life in all spaces of races and ages of man; then understand how LIFE has already Lived in many Stages & Ages of our Present and Past Human Existence while we still have time to learn from one another, and lesser time to conquer each other.

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Pleasure

To all my readers who have found a quiet place to be enlightened on a certain kind of day remember buried treasures are not always what you can find maybe their hidden in an Angel L story line. 

I know you’re probably wondering why are people addicted to being online; whether it's to rant or rage, meet people then date, monitor who avoids meeting you face to face, searching for the next career or investment if not catfish opportunity. We just can't deny that people are socially involved on their face book page all hours of the night and day. Or some people just love to share some enlighten moments of what has been accomplished over the years while other people choose "face time" because they long to touch other people who are far away from us. Then there are text messengers who take advantage of brief conversations to avoid answering that incoming call in which some of us either miss or anticipate receiving it. So what is it about People Pleasures we do or not connect with? Well the interesting part is that we are all trying to please someone in our own space and human existence. But follow closely to where I'm going with this. 

One day I found myself in a moment enlightened by different races of people passing bye. And they were not far from being the same. The truth is we've always co-existed in a universe of some formation attached to LOVE, FAMINE, STRUGGLE, HEARTACHE and PAIN. But yet we treat one another as if we can't identify with how we manage to cope and process the STRUGGLES in our individual human existence. So we tend to overlook patterns in ourselves not diagnosed  internally of repeated history. Before connecting with something or someone else. Leaving a wide open space untouched of  in-depth understanding about ourselves. And trust me that I had to learn many lessons about myself; before processing what is of logic in other situations often created by me or someone else.

In the Angel L blogs I've manage to write through real human eyes. I've manage to decrease what was once a one sided pessimistic side of wiring. I've managed to hear real people experience, and not always making myself available to attempting a fix to other people's real struggles that can only connect with one sided thinking. I appreciate my own understanding to connect with other people that have found out that it's ok to be "who you are in this life'. I identify with the people who have become disconnected with themselves from a society of people who share different morals, values and religious beliefs. And the people who have lost faith or never had faith to begin with. Because in their world they honestly believe things are just meant to happen. And there those people who are good at what they do, in the space their living in. So who are we to argue and judge them?

For me my inspiration occurs in every experienced moment of my life. I am matured and embrace all my corrections overtime. I find lesser error in myself and give up fault to blame people who did not care enough to claim ownership in the situations we both create. Why, because at the end of the day life did not change its original plans for our; family, children, strangers, associates and friends. We as a human race make the conscious decisions that will determine our own individual destinations. 

Coming soon! A revised blog II "Change Your World"

CHANGE YOUR WORLD

Before we began this passage on Child Support let’s first remove our arrogance and ego's; and refocus on "how was life" for us before we made one or more choices. Where did we first meet to later discover that we were either meant to be or just experience one or many moments of sexual opportunities.  In a life that did not change its original plan. But people made final decisions to barter with one another in it. Or fell in love with someone in whom they were committed to see if they were compatible in building a life with.  And let’s not ignore the real facts that not every person or couple is willing to “let go and walk away” so easily. Because of one or more misunderstandings especially if love is the strength in holding together that new or old relationship to possibly building a solid foundation.  

Is it proper to say in the world we live in today; that dating or finding a functional balance in relationships seems more troubling because of our “immature actions and limit of wanting more understanding” because not every person makes the same choices in life? Not every person sleeps around in life. Some people manage to negotiate for the best interest of who is most important. So therefore every person has a choice to make in life. At every stage in our youthful lives we all have taken or will take on many rides. But some of us are not always prepared to take on adult responsibilities in this life. So later down the line in life we should become more responsible with what we take in and whom we choose to mate with. Therefore projects don't seem idealistic; just remember these are real people with different upbringings and characteristics. That will require more than enough adapting to deal with a different mindset. Once it brings out an attitude with what comes next.

There are no statistics in this area of life. We are dealing with our human and fleshly side. So sometimes we feel that we can enlighten other people in a new light. But it is sad to say some people are so bitter that they become unavailable, cut off and act out a certain way to other people in this life, through a silent rage.  Why, because of real life situations in which they are accustomed to the drama, disorder, dysfunction, and manipulation of engagement with another type of people or persons. And then there are those people who wish they could be the opposite of feeling like this person in their life. But maybe, just maybe if some of us will make more room in our own lives of  insecure thinking to grow, then maybe, just maybe  we could catch up to a good person who does not mind “investing some of their time” on what is not seen as being an issue to add in their lives.  I could be wrong but the population reflects we find irrelevant ways to take from one another. Than we have figured out how to uplift, support and build up each other.

One day I opened up my space. I met a gentleman who do not look familiar to me; but he made himself clear to see. His dialect was appreciated. His bare hands felt like a hard working man. He swear he had no game, but the truth is what he shared with me about his present situation did not add up to the reasoning in which he sold it to be. So, I decided to proceed. Because we all have a story to share until the real problems occur when we think we have sold our best, to the people who have not witnessed our worse. Eventually I found out it does not matter who you are. Every person has or will make a crucial choice. But not every person deserves the payback in which you have incurred.   

All The Way Up

According to that "old cliche" in order to see the change you must present something new in an extradordinary way. Where Angel's are watching over everyting that is happening.  

One day it was all a dream. One day we fantasized about places where people would change things. One day we dreamed about being millionaires with extraordinary business ideas. One day we would rule the world in places where people really cared. One day we would be the masses if not invited into a society from non-influential classes and know I did not say it. This is what has been happening. One day bribery and greed became the addiction we all denied to deal with. One day sugar sweetened up every man and women in this world, and before you assume hold that thought and think twice. Because many of us are destined to figure out why the CDC holds the cure to prolong some of our lives and why HIV affects 40,000 persons each year. While in other places a value is placed on young trim to profit grow ass men and women. One day hunger & economic poverty was no longer revealed to the world as a black thing because people of all colors became a part of everything. One day investors would profit from jail. But not only from the ratio they hoped that would not excel. Because people are making the same idea moves in every corner of the world.

One day the Pimp and Pimpettes would lose their swag and I'm not limiting this section to "those who trample over and whoop that ass". I'm speaking in terms of the ones who have taken in the most followers that believe in paying for the drama.

One day the drug game seemed it became inspiring. The prices were to high and " you need to cut it" blew up the charts. But not everyone is hooked on a line. Some of us are just addicted to the tricks that money can buy. Because money is not the real bitch. It's the addict that is drawn in by having the power to play it. Against one another in an effort  to destroy each other. So the prisons are gaining above a average percentage. And the war on drugs is not a coincidence. Now recognize how you are a propsective asset in it.

On any day a good person with "intensions or plans" can change the game. One day our familiarity with people could mislead our thinking to a confined space. 

One day a song played with a message that was heard through the airwaves loud and clear. One day a leader spoke with a mouth full of jokes that provoked animosity where there was lack of faith and hope. One day people heard what they wanted to hear, in order to cope. One day pain was inevitable to take so we seeked out something or someone else to help us self -medicate. 

One day men & women desired double dipping. Which is nothing pleasurably wrong in it. So we can agree or disagree; in a public or private setting. Until we are not so slective and protective of the areas we enter in spreading dangerous messages. According to human behavoral statistics.  

One day people had more than enough and still struggled to manage it, so the IRS makes it a point to remind us of it, every tax year.

One day men made it rain with a conversation, tone and that pow-wow bang. One day women figured out what they could barter with. And all men & women would pay for it, even a pimp who invested his life to it. Then the responsibilities became real. But few committed to a deal which is maybe acceptable depending on who says’ “yes, maybe or no” is what we have become accustomed to, in today's society of all nationalities. And there is a slight possibility I'm incorrect. My apologies are extended to those people who have it correct. But the CPS, State and or Attorney General’s office case load tells the difference of what we conceal of controlled personal business. Where helpless is what you can't relate to unless your fighting for a life who has no clue.

One day a song was written and It was prolific in it's message. It's anthem was taken as "Turn all the way up" is exactly what people walked away with in their own human understandings. And by no means is any human being perfect in this life. But there is a reason to why some people prefer to hear a lie. Verses hearing some truth that maybe "right". In order to resolve a situation you must silence the mental confrontation.