Angel L

Today I shared real Life Stories from our experiences with a sheet of paper and pen.  

Today I did something that someone told me I did not have the courage to do.

Today I shed some insight on what people have been followers of most of their lives.

Today I challenged a mindset from average minded thinking of what is reiterated through someone else; with not thoroughly investigating the information for themselves.

Today I separated cluttered thoughts into solidary thinking; today I healed a wound that experienced a rape, incest, domestic violence, abandonment, co-dependency, human trafficking, slavery, divorcees, financial illiteracy, suicides and generations of chains breaking away in their life.

Today someone is confident to know they fully comprehend that Attachment to “TITLES” goes only far as people will accept of “wisdom and knowledge” to grow beyond poverty thinking. Relationships will endure “hardships”, and marriages survive based on two-party communication and commitment, leadership, preachers and servants are appointed for Gods assignments not PEOPLE”S handwritten commandments.  Today I encouraged victory over tragedy if people will allow themselves to escape Pharaoh’s strong hold; of bondage and fear of what they lack in wisdom and choose to know .

Today a child has re-connected with his or her self-confidence because he or she did not allow life’s circumstances to DESTROY what was rooted in them; passed down through generations “FAITH, FIGHT and The WILL TO SURVIVE”

Today enemies have been redirected to the chapters of REVELATION, friends may or not abandoned ship just remember what “JOB” did, families will fuss and fight then seek the journey of Abraham and Lot, workers will seek the story behind “fishers of men” but their truth will be hid if they seek it in WOMAN or MAN .

Today freedom is not limited to the United States and race. The word Freedom is now a mission to conquer GLOBALLY.   

Whether we chose to believe in scientology, exorcism, supernatural beings, religion or super HUMAN beings we all were born with a specific purpose, talents and mortal not immortal cloned genes. To embellish one another in life  not justify re-occurring events in this new day from past centuries of what has not change in humanities attitude, beliefs and ways; The Good Samaritan reappeared in 13 years once 911 had the world in tears, The Prostitute currently “Women and Men of the night and day with one mission to get paid through pornography are simply feed their sexual fantasies”, The Adulterer currently is the danger you attract just to be in a relationship , The 187 once was Cain and Abel,  The Thieves who hung in misery simply ask forgiveness and mercy; currently misdemeanor and felonies, The Parent who plays favorites currently Rebekah the mother who misled her husband in order to manipulate one gift and deny the chosen kid,  The pleas to be delivered from Financial debt currently a plead for insanity for killing the entire family, The Tax collectors who came to collect on a debt but the mother had no money to pay so instead the collectors threaten to take her kids is currently the IRS, Physical attributes, butt injections and attitudes was once The Strength of Solomon who thought he could resist “the power of manipulation” of another persons intention, Direction as the Children who were lost in the wilderness currently the entire nation that has grown out of LOVE into weariness in every direction, Sodom and Gomorrah sealed their faith with "lust and a kiss" currently a law passed for same sex marriages and I'm not judging your preference I'm just writing the acts, Leaders who took on the challenge of building Noah's Ark manage to save 8, but obviously the new world has changed in to "conspiracies and assassinations" of leaders who aim to make a difference. Which bring forth unwanted change.

The book reads of a servant name Nehemiah who prayed over a plan prior to kneeling down in front of his masters hand. And in return the king declared a clear path for Nehemiah's journey to go and rebuild his city and in our new prayer request we seek if not "change, healing & deliverance" to win the lottery, overflow our closets with fancy clothes, fancy cars, adjust the natural beauty we were born with in exchange for implants, sex change and fake butts to bleaching the surrounding of their anus, expensive homes that range above our financial status. If not leaving someone empty and grief stricken without children and marriage. And until a situation affects our individual lives some unfortunate elder, grown up and child will have to struggle if not die.
  
And no I'm not perfect in anyway but to write what is written I had to live and learn from my choices and mistakes. Then humble myself in order to change my foolish acts and boxed thinking. And just in case any human being finds fault in what is written in the stories of The Days of Our Lives remember everyone plays a "Free Will" role in how LIFE's story will be TOLD.

So much of life to talk about  
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911

Fifteen years ago today we still remember the “mourning” of  9/11. 

As the dawn breaks through our window pane families immediately arise with the anticipation of starting a new day, children wrestle to wing themselves from their warm beds, as fathers tuck their heads underneath the covers to steal another wink of sleep before starting their day in providing for the family, mom proceeds towards the kitchen to prepare a breakfast feast, to ensure her crew has the energy, to defeat whatever obstacle they should meet. But who could have seen the calamity coming in the air that would silence the world with a desperate glare.  As fire fighters attempt to catch human life  flying from the twin buildings of fire. Many miles away brave pilots attempt to stir for a clear landing. Passengers are preparing for their final calls to warn their  families "I want be home" and in that moment other passengers did risk their lives; in one mission for all to survive against the bitter faces of death that ceased one opportunity to rob PEACE, FREEDOM and UNITY.

In Memory of “All The Lives We Lost”

The Perfect Season

Life has a funny way of showering on our dreams of imagining how our love life should be. And once you've been heartbroken it looks as if the rain will never end. Just because of a person who no longer love or desired you the same way, no longer appreciates you, or maybe they did tell you the truth; about it will no longer work out between me and you. Eventually the seasons will bring about change, with new love interest or new found interest about yourself. But unfortunately the process of overcoming emotions of hurt feels like a HOT MESS.

The winters are cold and beautiful, the holiday parties are filled with cheer surrounded with close friends and family. But there is someone special missing in your life or either that particular person moved onto another chapter in his or her life.

The spring is full of colorful scenes a serge of elated energy fills the air but without someone by your side, you can't fully embrace the beauty in seasons that change before your eyes.

The summer is blazing hot and everybody's looking for a cool spot. And for some unknown reason people tend to lose their entire minds in the summertime. Could it be "they're happy to be outside, from being closed up in winter the time". But keep in mind love is in full bloom this time of year, couples either remain together or see it as a season for "temporary" change. So enjoy yourself, protect your heart, compliment your pallet with some new taste and stimulate the way you think with new thoughts; plan a trip to paradise, go for a bike ride, take a journey on the dark to skinny dip, jet skies in other countries, road trips in tucked away places, summer musicals to see what is in season this year. And if you're not sure of what you really need how can you be confident of what "you want" from season to season where people change in different ways everyday. So know when it's time to let go of what is or now seasonal.

Finally fall has arrived and you either feel glad, sad or happy inside. Due to the changes in seasons that groom and give us purpose in life. So never feel like you're the only fool who fell for love just think about it like this; what did I make of a first PRIORITY in my life or whom have I made an OBLIGATION only too feel JUSTIFIED. And avoiding the truth of second guessing "LOVE that was originally blueprinted inside all of us". So when a person has no desire to return the same feeling back to you it's not an error, or mistake, it's simply time to let go, and move on your way.

I've come to full circle with the fact that people are the extension of how they think and act. Their children will mimic what they see in their parents life, their failures or success is based on personal choices and determination, their will to survive depends on what is alive or dead inside, their relationships will survive or die depending on who they deal with, the people they choose to follow either feed into their co-dependency or dependency, their TRUTH is often found and most accepted when it is presented in the form of a lie, their hidden issues are a choice to suppress or finally take action to deal with, their families either strengthen or damage them. And lastly the bitterness they hide is always JUSTIFIED. So my reality is; some people will "be ok" "some people will figure their lives out" "some people are ok with living a life of doubt.

Power and The Money

There is a unique difference between the two; where one grants you ACCESS the other CONTROLS you.

People often separate themselves into different categories such as “IMMA BOSS, ENTREPRENUER, HUSTLER, HUMANITARIAN, and VISIONARY OR PLANNER” it just depends on the position you stand in BETWEEN Power or Money that is or not in your hands. And no status, titles, religion and race is NOT AN EXCEPTION. Because people would prefer to believe because you look a certain way and carry the masses name it has to be the “RIGHT and WAY”.  

What is money without the power? Now that’s a question you have to answer yourself.  Now what does a man profit to gain the world and lose his soul? Now this will be the challenge you will resist or struggle to unfold in exchange to self- absorb POWER and MONEY the two things people will pray, die, rob and cheat for.   

There is a positive side in every gesture and situation we attempt to accomplish in this life. The only problem is people are always trying to out think the purpose of real POWER/MONEY by inflicting drama on other people’s life. And if I could have of chosen a better life for myself I would have only been “A Fallen Angel”. And I’ll explain why; because of all the important information I would have missed out on in my life through struggles, heartache, disappointment and pain which only prepared me for the real ending” of interferences implemented in places to sustain “what some people collaborate of chained ways in thinking”.

And when life has you overwhelmed, in doubt or feeling stressed use this module to make you laugh; our lives are divided into numerous portions depending on how much baggage, weight or pressure you can carry of the following roles; parenting takes a portion of your life, friends entertain your life, spouses or relationships are suppose to add too your life, jobs weigh on your life and care giving is a reminder to share compassion so once you have scattered yourself in multiple places and there is a string of life their within yourself raise your hand and understand how you have accomplished to do THE BEST YOU CAN.

 

Why Do Fools Fall In Love

Love is not a game it's full of characters role playing through fulfillment of; expectations, happiness, joy and pain. But when someone breaks your heart and tears down that trust no comfort in the world can rapidly heal what you feel. It will simply take time, room and your initiative to relax and reflect "on who, and not what love did not do".

I could aim for the million bestselling novels. Write a million love stories stand in a forum before a million people filled with their own expectations and illusions of what LOVE really is. But if we could process individually the real texture and meaning of LOVE is not just a bunch of promises, people searching to find their happiness in someone else, high expectations of what we want until we get it, paperback books and fantasies with wish list made off of emotions, hopes and false dreams.

LOVE is an intoxicating energy you cannot feel with a touch. But yet we yearn for it which makes it real to any and all of us.
Love is the act of what the mind, body and soul desires of people to do in return. And until you have experienced a spiritual connection deep inside yourself there will always be a chance of dealing with life's circumstances, expectations, happiness, joy and pain individually or with someone else. Eventually you will meet the right person who desires to embark on an unknown journey with you in this life and experience what is in his or her body, soul and mind. Something we yearn to release but struggle to hold; is allowing loves intention to take full control. 

The Walking Dead

There are different types of people in this life. So you have to know who you are in order to strive and survive. I hear people say many have given up on the coming of Jesus Christ in the world today. As they either “choose to or not pray” but continue in living in their flamboyant, arrogant, casual or worldly ways. Because there is something worse off than Death itself; it’s walking around “every day alive, but silently living dead inside”.

A young girl needs some direction today to heal from the choices she has made but whom can she trust if her elders are making the same choices or mistakes; birthing a child with the wrong boy or man who never “intended” on making her a life plan, falling in love with another girl, boy or man whose only “motive” was to enjoy her body with no “intention” of sharing life’s responsibilities. Dealing with her inner addictions to cutting, physical and mental abuse, drug use to escape the family drama or parental rules, joining cults to find the truth, or dealing with strangers in sexual innuendos because she can’t feel “Real Love”. But the auntie, uncle, momma and daddy do not see the” signs they think that money, friendships with a child and gifts can’t fix; inside of the walking dead.

 A young man got arrested today while riding in the automobile with his new world of friends and the real problem is society is mixed with all colors of kids. While mommy and daddy are busy trying to keep up the pace in life the amount stashed was not his. It belonged to the friends he chose to ride around with. And in that hour; mom or dad where probably living the American Dream stationed at work waiting on retirement, presenting their proposed plan to another fisherman, or a stay at home parent caring for their other children. But this Public Servant did not have time to verify this child’s “credentials” of a decent or hard life to avoid a misdemeanor written up in “black and white. Which would eventually resurface overtime in his life unless there is an implemented plan of “expungement” for juveniles who are destined to make a choice or mistake before they grow –up and get it right.      

 A married couple is struggling to build their relationship on a solid foundation. But what happens when someone is no longer, HAPPY? And unless you are financially rich; money can’t buy material things to restore another person’s feeling of happiness. So what happens next is either one or both of the mates is “COMMITTED” to the kids. While the other if not both becomes “CONTENT” in his or her marriage.       

A single person compliments there time to find companionship online, singles ministry, social events or through a mutual friend. But what happens if “the space we think in, is not the real world we live in” of people bound not to deal with their own conflicted emotions.

Sometimes people will be “OK”, Sometimes people will “Figure it “Out”, Sometimes people will walk around “Alive, while dying inside”.

 

PEOPLE'S CHOICE

People’s emotions are like open and closed doors; one minute the mood swings right and the next minute the mood swings left. Similar to an elevator that goes up and down at a slow or rapid pace until it reaches its final resting place. So no one can really GRASP THE reason why people change either gears “LEFT or RIGHT” in this life until something occurs in TIME which leaves them AT PEACE, BITTER, LONELY, SPITEFUL OR JUST BROKEN INSIDE”. So you can either LIVE IN YOUR DENIAL or EXCEPT THE REALITY OF WHY WE as a People need DESPERATE CHANGE INDIVIDUALLY IN OUR LIVES.

HUMANITY WAS CREATED WITH ONE MAIN DESIGN; eyes, nose, mouth, hands and feet which function off a “HEARTBEAT” IN ALL ETHNICITIES. And it’s inevitable we as a human race of people will not suffer with “Disappointment and Heartache” or either embellish “LOVE and PAIN” depending on the choices we make and the people we choose to EMBRACE OR ENTERTAIN.

So what is hidden of your BROKENSESS; a missing hug or kiss from your parents, an unhealthy relationship, a job loss, a kid, a death, financial distress, selfishness or just pure acceptance to not find a reasoning in having HAPPINESS.  And the reason why this TOPIC is of relevance is because the majority of people in the entire WORLD are struggling; to deal with their own inflated or obtained UNHAPPINESS with the exception of “MENTAL ILLNESS, NATURAL DEATH or BIRTH EFFECT”.

I SPOKE BRIEFLY WITH A PUBLIC SERVANT TODAY AND THE OFFICER LIT UP MY FACE. HE SAID “ I also suffer from brokenness but each day I deal with it the best way I can, by eliminating people and things in  my life that keep me from being satisfied”

I met a lady that was excited about traveling out of state to catch up with some old friends and leave behind her distressing situation. And not to long after her landing this lady figured out that PEOPLE are also struggling with their own choices, mistakes and relationships. So she made a quick U-Turn to what she was already familiar with “her own problems”

I spent some quality time with a celebrity who was happy just to see someone one like me “a person who understand what struggles are like regardless if your are in the “DARK or SPOTLIGHT

YOUNG PEOPLE EXPRESS THEIR SUPPRESSED EMOTIONS IN DIFFERENT WAYS SUCH AS drug use, rebellion, suicide BUT IF YOUR’RE IN DENIAL YOU CAN’T HEAR THEIR CRIES!

OLDER PEOPLE ARE FINALLY FREE TO RELEASE THEIR HIDDEN OPPRESSION FROM THEIR PAST OR CURRENT HISTORY. And I will say this with no shame “if we take accountability in researching our own history their lies the truth of why and what we continue to put ourselves through “ADDICTED PAIN”.

At the end of the Day it’s the People’s Choice and the role they play. So no one can say I no longer love you the same.

Loving yourself first means not waiting on someone else to love you second.