Merry-Go-Round

To all my ladies and gents, let's chill and chat. It has come to a full circle that women and girls continue to seek more understanding from boys to men. So before we all begin let’s clear out attitudes and remove the egos. In order for a woman to follow this man’s lead; she and he must have their own sense “of being, if not some direction”.

I spoke with several classes of men. And finally I walked away with a better understanding of why some men prefer options, while others are making choices.  

A man has options in what he wants and only takes whatever you’re willing to give. But a man and boy will work for what is not easy to have. A man needs to be heard and not assessed. A boy seeks direction. A man needs to know that you have concrete requirements. A boy likes to experiment. A man does not require two leaders in the household. A boy needs “role models”. A man needs women to know that an ambitious man has it under, if not full control. A boy requires more time to learn, what he has yet to experience.

A man requires a partner and you may not always be on the same page. A boy requires compassion but be aware if mommie and daddy were not in the picture. Some men love to know they own or have a woman who can stand in. Some boys lack respect so you may not get it. Some men automatically assume all women are desperate and vulnerable when love is involved, and some men become too comfortable and arrogant with what is in between they’re legs. A boy will relate to what is brought to his attention; not what is never mentioned. And this is where the Merry-Goes-Round.

You can be with a man for years, live as domestic partners but never marry, while years will pass bye and the escalation of expectations will rise. Because of what has been an agreement for a period of time; an establishment which is open for options.  

A man will never make drastic or changes overnight. Men do hide their emotions inside. And there is a few who are most likely to reveal them to you. Boys and men take notes from the first approach of how a woman or girl carries her-self. And what will this woman allow to be compromised of herself.

Men do love from their hearts when it comes to performing domestics. Now pay attention too if you’re being a mother to those kids, executing domestics on que and an over-time lover in between everything. With the exception of a certain class of women who replace the sex for what they lack until this man can no longer stand it. And young girls please do not take this type of woman's approach because a boy needs more time to appreciate you down the line.

Committed men are more focused. They are seeking attributes that are similar to motherly roots. So remember we all have a weakness. And sometimes temptations are destined to make real and false accusations. 

You will never know all of a man’s truth. Unless he feels there is a grave necessity in telling you. So young girls and ladies think about it again; what it is you need to share and what are your expectations of having this man. Now process the fact; that some boys and men are capable of fulfilling what is between your trembling legs. But not all boys and men are capable of delivering emotional and spiritual connections outside of the bed, simply because men are wired different than women. And packaged with different expectations.

SELF

Sometime it’s hard. I do agree when it comes to only depending on me. So we can all agree at some point we need an examination of what we don’t or wish to see. And what I mean is sometimes our fears are hard to past. Our egos supersede to make its “all about me”. 

Why? Because of the storms lingering into our future from our past. So more than often I take accountability to personally execute a self-examination on myself simply to figure out; if I’m still in control of the cycle’s life will use people to take me through.    

My mind does get confused and my heart will get weary over-time. And in those days I drift far away where people fail to show respect. While I work on my attitude and mindset. And what I have found in that quite space is “I can clearly hear what God has to say”. And yes, I know and understand there are some people who don’t believe in God. Are we may not share a view on the same things were going through in this life. Which is fine because it only allows me the time to examine myself, situations and people in a different light.

Today I went to a place to shed some light on many things.  That I am personally dealing with in my own spirit. So it does not reflect I’m angered towards the world or someone else. It’s that we must make more mature decisions in the choices we make; in our own human flesh of responding to things.

That often results into the domino effect. 

So why is it ever worth getting involved into a situation that causes lingering feelings, towards the people we love. Are people who need drama & confusion to function. Just to figure out; what did they do or how we keep contributing to. If what is smoke & mirrors; to engineer hate and frustration.  If not empathy & compassion. 

And again, there are these people in the entire world. Who refuse or ponder to accept why other people choose to; walk away in from; dealing with emotions that cycle, spiral and live in a state of; dysfunctional behaviors.

There are days I feel let down. But it does not keep me down, and the reason why; is I have allowed life to teach me many facets of; what do we really see. If not deny of  people, myself & experiences". And in return, one day at a time. I am constantly working in purpose. Of turning myself around; with a motive and intension.   

  –Angel L signing off.

"It takes a great man to be a good listener "
Calvin Coolidge

Erotica

There is a songstress named Betty Wright who serenaded good love in life “no pain, no gain” which excelled in informing women about certain things, but often some people may never understand the twist and turns of how being in love is “de le crème”. But also it is tagged to silly games that people will surreptitiously play. So in order to gain loves trust and respect you must be prepared to give into a few things. In order to have someone else’s love regardless of whom you choose to be with.  

The word compatibility means much more than physical attractions. Where a female and male meet, then mate before they figure out; it’s more than just sex they could have done without. So is it true a person can admire your body and love you without their entire heart. And if so, then what happens to the remainder of their soul. Well listen up young girl to an older woman’s tale. Why, because no man or woman is ever done learning valuable lessons in this world.

Sometimes there will be pain and no gain. There will be resentment if not contentment. There will be love if not infatuation in quickies or bamboozled situations. And the one thing we bargain with in ourselves is knowing how we’re guilty of wanting things or people we should not have.

It’s a new day and people are freely sharing, in every age. Generations are like a bowl of mixed nuts. Where everyone is mixing up, and dare you to share some “pain & gain” life experience. Women and girls check your attractions then later you will not have to question your actions. Young boys and men every place is not safe to lay your pants or leave deposits in.   

And it’s ok to take offense in a world filled with people who make choices, mistakes, accidents and show pure arrogance. And you think “experience” would complement, what could have been prevented of some mild mannered choices. The good news is; there are some people who have figured out, what they can live with, or whom they can’t stand to be without. In a world filled with consequences and temptations.

Do you wholeheartedly believe; that you are a pillar of strength, where you surrender to weakness. 

Addictions

 How could I forget you when every thought that could have been me and you, manages to make me feel “Misty Blue” and there were times when I deprived myself knowing that you were a pass time for everyone else. So instead we both stayed around, and continued in entertaining one another simply because I allowed you to hang around.  But for some reason I can no longer hide this pain I feel inside. And we both know that addictions destroy lives. Because it does not ponder with; whether he or she will give up or forever stay in love with this deceit in which you seek to find in attention, love, comfort and peace. If only they could disconnect from me. I would no longer possess this power over them. And where they strongly desire to be held in open arms just to feel safe and warm, but I’m afraid to allow them to have strength and reveal what makes me real. I don’t know what life has in store for me. But eventually someone will say “love is a possibility” then they will no longer believe in me.  And once they choose to no longer stand in their own way, destiny will deal with me.        

I must admit it’s been awhile since I’ve last slept. It’s been some time since love had no regrets. And yes, it’s been some generations since the truth has been revealed. All because of the addicted way people love to feel in my world where dreams are real. So how did I the “addiction” find my way into families, education, careers and society? Well no one took the appropriate time to question their own lives. If only they would have asked to themselves; why do I continue in settling for everything else? They would have known that this hidden addiction would surface soon.

They say time will heal all wounds. But in the meantime this addiction gives me a “voice and a peace of mind” it no longer feels out of place in a world of people that harbor me every day. And yes, I am your deepest desire that shows up in different attires. I am the voice of reasoning in your hardships. I am the face you are familiar with. I am in the love you desire to die for. I am carefree, ruthless, arrogant and ambitious. I am aroused by your submission. I consume all ages. I live in your conscious and all always prepared to pursue you in vulnerable places. So I need you to understand how there is always going to be some good and bad, on every hand. And while some of you pray, I'm also preying on your weakness, which is my soul mate.

Of course I’m always optimistic and pessimistic regarding your change. But the truth still remains; until you find balance in your life and not always believe that the grass is greener on the other side of life. We will deceive the other into not figuring out, what this addiction is all about. 

Developing Business Savvy

When our ancestors thirst for water & bread; man offered an opportunity to work. And on my journey through life I heard many voices to write; the days and stories of our lives. 

The business world is a module of “profit” "consumers" and “demand”, and underneath these business umbrellas you will communicate with an arena of retailers, producers, builders, developers, planners and investors. Who take alternate approaches in servicing the customer based on what is their life demand.. And how will we “transport” "market" and “sale” it to them.     

In today’s society everyone is a customer, even the face you can’t see underneath each umbrella. We all have a creative approach to closing an interview. But so does the interviewer who has already implemented their own ideas in their business module plan. So therefore any style of person will be the candidate chosen to compliment, the bottom lines of that business. And before we begin this segment, I’m not writing to discourage any human being to quit what they have invested of their life, for retirement. But what I am encouraging you to do is in; business always be open to closing.

So what happened over the years from our ancestors forwarded today, in a new world of “demand” filled with people and their business ideas? Well let’s do the math. Some businesses maintained their success rate. Some businesses still offer quality and reputable services. Some businesses were bids overnight. And some consumers did not want the responsibility, and instead continued to be “worker bees’. Some people became accustomed to a life that was comfortable in their 8-5.  Some people put their vision to the side, in an attempt to keep up with life. So they were titled the consumers, and a few still struggle to comprehend the structure of a business and relationship plan. And please do not take the wrong approach by saying “I been doing or in this business for many years. And if so the next question is; why has humanity not kept up with the “demand, quality and services”.  

There is some truth to the old cliché regarding “Money” which it will never be sufficient to humanity. Why, because of the “demands, service and quality” that will not outlast what people want and need. 

Fear is the culprit in any business transaction. And perfection is how you market it. So no matter what your service, and product, talent or creative plan is never settle for anything of lesser in doing the Business. 

CAMOUFLAGE

Before I begin I was ask the question "what type of attention do I expect to receive from my writings". I responded with a smile “not much at all”. Because what I’ve done is taken a leap of faith and chose to write factual occurrences from humanities lives. So just in case people in this life decide to change how we treat one another and execute things. There will be some history on how we once “use to be”.  

This new generation in all races and ages seem to devalue life. And what I mean is we’re playing with fire. Children are grinding as adults video tape, giggle and laugh. While some children & adults struggle to correct jumbled dialect, execute a math problem. If not spell, read and write. Some adults cohabitate in misappropriate ways. While families are being destroyed by domestic abuse overnight. Young men and girls are beaten to death by their own hands. If not taken out by the drugs slid into their trembling hands. Adults are focused about searching for love online; but quick to avoid one another in the streets with wandering eyes. Everybody wants to be rich, sexy and slick while the system is crashing. Sex is overrated but advertised everywhere we drive, eat and sit, even in church. And what I mean is people are walking alluring billboards that read “sex” is what the world needs. Mental illness, drugs and war is not a game so therefore you must not get too relaxed; on what has yet to be managed. Attending a wedding reception is by chance that two people are marrying one another for love & to progress; not just for financial security. And yes, people would love to be wealthy and rich, if not comfortable and focused. In a place where people are running tight on space and "camouflage" means; adjusting who we are on the outside, to feel good about what we have become on the inside. And no writing of Angel l is ranting and rage. This is humanities reality which brings us to:

All the time laughter is required to remind us when situations occur; how people forget to care.

Sometimes paying it forward; does not mean people will always remember to look backwards.

        

       A glass half empty does not always need to be filled to the top; until we understand the difference between a little and lot.

Sometimes being in love with the wrong people “oozes” the life out of you; but eventually time does heal all wombs.

The grass always looks greener on the opposite side. And so would yours if you would consider investing more of your time; in what is meant to grow in your life.

Sometimes it’s refreshing to see people release wasted energy.  And the reason why, is what you thought you knew, has now been revealed to you.

Sometimes fear is the only thing some people can relate to, sometimes showing happiness is all a person has to look forward too. Sometimes people are lonely not by choice, but by their own destructive personality. 

Sometimes people just like seeing what reaction they can snatch out of you. And it’s up to you in figuring out; how to build a shield around yourself and house. And once you decide to embark on living the fullest pace in this life, there will be no regrets.

At the beginning of every race each runner has a marked place. But not every runner will endure the race. Therefore, you must possess "courage" and set your pace, to step out on unknown territories.

Mother's Day

This mother's day I am grateful and happy to see my mother. But the sad news is someone has lost their mother over the years. And that broken heart still yearns to have that motherly talk. So today I will speak from the last moments that I spent with a special woman in my life, and although I have my mother. This woman is the one that bonded us together. Why, it was through her womb she decided to give my mother life.

Dear Grandma, 
I miss your chuckle and how you use to say "what's up doc" how are things going your way. I miss our prayer time on those late night calls. I miss the aroma of those homemade biscuits in my dream. I miss your aroma in the night air breeze. I miss getting dressed in our Sunday best for church services. I miss your stories and how you would make it through life. And in the end what you told me. I will "cherish" it the rest of my life. You were the link in this family’s chain. You were my strength through the night and shining armor when the enemy came. You were the voice of reasoning to get me through these troubling days. And for that I thank you for being who you are from yesterday.

Dear Mom, 
Words are not enough to express my gratitude and respect for you. And to be honest you were always my best friend, thanks to Grandma who made it happen. So a long time ago I made a vow that if I promised to be obedient; that God would allow me to see my mother, in my latter years. And yes, here she is.

Mom, the world has changed and although we speak every day. I can hear things in your voice of how the world has changed. And know it's nothing you could have done better in this life. Time was just destined to change people overtime. Children were destined to choose their own paths, families would unite in differen circumstances, and struggles would be inevitable. Because of father time who would let all of humanity know; I am, not man who is in control. See mom how our stories from the past would bring us closer together in time. Where people would grasp onto what others are unfortunate to not have, and the reason why I still shared; it was because most of my old friends lost their mothers. I wish you could still hear the laughter I once heard on every call. And those days where we just stowed away until life changed us all. Because the labor increased making people grow weary. But I'm so blessed to know that the women in my life; were gentle and peaceful, forgiving and faithful, appreciative just to love in this life. You are the extension of the woman I grew into. We were the story that was meant to be told.  I love you mom & Happy Mother’s Day!

And for those who have lost their mom think about this: child when I can no longer find peace on this earth. And you are too busy with what life will not allow you to keep up with; will you remember me when I'm old and gray. When my footsteps are short in space; will you take time to refocus on the tools I provided you, to make it through hard times? Will you remember the reason why I was there for you in this life? And if so mourn for me a little while, child because tomorrow has its own plan and I need you to be focused on where you plan on going. Why, because this place is not our permanent home. And one day I will be gone. But before I leave I left "love" in a package where you can always remember me. Now lift up your head high and wipe your eyes. There is work to be done, and we can't finish until you have completed your run.

And for those who have animosity in their hearts towards a mother. Listen closely, in order to find peace in yourself. First, you must release that hate for someone else. See my children "young" and "old" how people will make choices "good & bad". But we don't ever have to understand it. So if time allows you another day, why not look over your life and figure out; what is of worth in it, to allow you to find "forgiveness so that you may move into another day to rewrite a new chapter in your life.