Alpha & Omega

What is in a man’s soul that changes his way of thinking towards people in the world? What answers do we seek to find when a person demonstrates an act of crime? And why do we always find ourselves in prayer more often for someone else than we should first start in ourselves. For we should hope that in these days we can shed lesser of tears; in situations that occur out of the blue of what someone judges are is mentally going through. While were grooming ourselves before embarking and impressing one another in a LOST and FIND world. In which some of us embrace the fullest taste of life. While others faint in their lost and weary ways. And hopefully we have planned for what we need in case of a severe lost in an emergency that are known to take place because of the Sum of All our Fears. Or is it just an act of faith from what is challenging our faith. 

One day we embraced change from shame respected one another's color and choices by keeping our distances. One day we cohabited in peace without the strain of animosity and conditional thinking. We bred blended families and took pride and joy in what we accomplished. So what I'm saying is that if we choose to continue in being proactive in our judgmental ways. And the question are we really looking to find a resolution not in our constitution to have love and peace even if it's not in unity. 

There were pioneers who we have witnessed in movements of diversity, violence and peace. We ourselves have found it in our own diversity. And what still exists is a lack of human respect regardless of our differences. Who are we to judge in Psalms: 95 and Psalms: 96, for we ourselves have yet to approach the bench. In all of Angela L writings that are directed to any and all human form of life. And what I write is based on true occurrences that take place every day. Where fault is where we place a blame of what we can or refuse to change of our own works; to reciprocate more love, less retaliation, ignorance and hurt.  In life's space that has allowed us residence here on earth for a little while so that we may have one more chance to figure this out: 

In the Beginning is where it all began, with the creation of man. The Days of Our Lives is how we have chosen to live in it. And The Ending will be the roll call of all man under God's mercy. Over ages we were instructed through Biblical Word how to live an abundant life of morals, values and beliefs. Then one day man decided to take ownership of what he knew that was not his or her harvest, sold and traded flesh, and disrespected the 10 commandments. And if these laws were not the truth then why did man rise and fall at the end of roll call?

For someone it’s been a breakthrough to learn; they have always had what it took in themselves to live beyond something and someone else.

For someone they finally believe that courage was not just for the powerful and strong in character. But for those who feared what they could not see. That was destined to make people react in their own faith. Because of the test that would inspire their strength.

For someone love was not the challenge to find; it was being found by the right person who would accept and appreciate their mind, body and soul. And not challenge them to test in what was their weakness & strengths.

It took many people to do what other people would not fathom to do of establishing, organizing, presenting, executing or challenging hierarchy in a fight for their and our rights to a preservation of life. And yes, there is always someone who will take a life; because they know there wrong doings will bring truth to the light. It takes a few people with power and manipulation to challenge change in this world, a few people who are willing to follow behind the deceit just to maintain access to people and material things that non followers refuse to partake in of exchange for their equality. Where leaders will rise and fall with trained and unorganized armies in wars that continue to progress in ever burrow, community, ghetto, nation and behind new rising walls. But not all have the courage or intention of rescuing the weary and innocent who struggle to live daily on this battle field in the mist of what we can or not see behind what is, or who is taunting the real enemy. Sometimes there will be struggles and pain. There will be some heartache because of lack in understanding. There will be life and death. There will be healing and deliverance.  

Uncut Version

This Revelation passage may come across "uncut" in order to shed some light over "The Days of Our Lives. And with no intention did I deliberately make this monologue about you and I. We just manage to for-fill biblical prophecy overtime. Through prejudice pride in whom shall rise up and divide people with time. And maybe my writings will never accommodate all nations of men or woman. Why, because the flesh burns deep down inside. So our puffed up pride stands in a place of denial. Therefore who is worthy to judge what form or image in temptation will bring us closer to life's damnation. 

So let's not be confused in what is happening with this story. There was always a protocol of what God required of us even if it came from a man written book. In the New Testament we just managed to justify “I’m in a committed relationship, does not mean you’re exempt from doing sinful things”.  Or maybe I'm the exception to the rule because I am a child of God; but live life as the prodigal son. Or this is “whom I will profit in; does not mean God allowed it to be. And maybe it’s “Just the way we have choose to live; which does not mean you don’t get to not answer for something’s. Thank God for mercy and grace to pardon or fleshly ways. For one day humanity would seek in Exodus: 21: "an eye for eye, tooth for a tooth" before pleading for forgiveness.   

In the mist of Revelations heat some people do take a spiritual break. From the things other people continue to enjoy in the world, selfishly to cleanse their mind, body & soul. And what I mean is at any moment in this life we will be tried in the fire. So therefore allow us to be mindful where we refuse to admit our own actions. And I’ll be the first to say I once had an addiction in my life, lost the interest of some people because I could no longer fit underneath their pride which left me to figure out what I had to “live” without. And to cure "curiosity" this addiction did not involve alcohol, drug use, money or sex. It was something an average mind could not process. But God kept an eye on my best interest. So one day I would always be reminded never attempt to; hold onto "who" and "what" has outgrown you. Eventually in my submissive ways I'm humbled everyday allowing life to train me a certain way, and if you're not limited to change in a small space. Life is not complicated in its reasoning to why; we struggle with people to communicate our frustrations and accept learning what we contributed to in our life lessons.  
     

The term heat has a discrete meaning depending on what people would like to associate themselves with. When it comes down to acting out in their flesh. And often we will find ourselves in a dilemma with our puffed up pride trying to figure what sin is causing the drama in our lives. And if we're more careful in implementing the bible we could figure out God is not the problem but the solution we leave out. Regardless of the type of relationship we relax our souls in. So let’s begin the stories that end up in Revelation:

When it comes to education it’s not for everyone who denies the information. And I’m not just talking about high school or academic achievements. I’m openly referencing to making choices where we require the use of our common sense to outweigh; situations that maybe or not in our best interest where our puffed up pride reciprocates a “positive or negative” contribution.

We all know when it comes to making a financial contribution; not everyone is on board. So why are we quick to render down a resolution? And I’m speaking to marriages and relationships, business partners and families with kids, hell who manages our financial system. Because people need a thorough understanding in “why, what and whom” is the investment in. And how long will it take to see a return in it.  See what I have learned is that we all have a dream to sale. Just not everyone will be on board with a sail of their own.

We can re-track back in history when men and women met casually and mated if not dated with a mutual understanding, involving money. And in the world we live in today it’s sad to say “why love is just never enough” of where we have placed a financial interest. And we’ll pay for sex in every class of society; then blame one another for living in or among our own POVERTY thinking.

A young man asks do you find yourself when you fall in love with another person. I simply said to this young man “you have a lot more of life to learn”. So how is it you can find yourself in one person that seems to be always searching? And before a man or woman decides to choose a mate reference Solomon to understand why he had to learn in a life lesson. 

A woman in search of love kisses many frogs before finding her prince. A man experiments before he accepts God if not his own direction; and you can rest assure knowing they both face test. But don’t be caught up in every couple in a marriage or relationship. Why, because some people will sale an inch of their souls just to have somebody to hold. Some people will make families to feel they are a part of what they really need. So once you’ve been through the fire you can identify with; who has every intention to not change in themselves and keep you in DARKNESS.  

Watch how Pharoah is coming!

All the Days of Our Lives humanity has found ways to Cohabitate with the weak in spirit and the strong in wisdom. And yes, were guilty of judging who gets it. But do we really understand life's purpose in “who” we’re going to meet or be affected by. Or “when” this type of person or people will change our lives. So in knowing that wisdom has always been a part of life's dynamics. Where did we not see how the seeds planted over time would grow in a new generation of people that would fear of not having “wants”. In exchange for a chance to hold what we really need. That started in the beginning of Genesis and ending in Revelation.  

Anti-Christ

Before I begin this passage, I wish all generations of mankind; a practical and peaceful state of mind. Before we take a direction in which we will be summoned to initiate; a final call that must be made. Is where I must admit I’ve written the truth and shared my life preservations on major components in our life experiences, stemming from man’s interactions that make up life's fiction, folk tales and non-fiction. So therefore I not question any person's private beliefs. However I will question for more wisdom, but only in areas of clarity and direction in how, what and when it did or not happen. Prior to this creation of this new generation just to better process if sin would be the factor in reaching the maximum time allotted.

I overheard people questioning if the prospective winner of this presidential election wins in 2016.         Will this be a sign of the Anti- Christ coming? And before you think your answer is intellectually positive and sounds correctly sophisticated. Remember you’re talking to a “lost and found” generation in search of the TRUTH. Because of a few that grew weary and confused. And in continuing please speak; as if you we’re explaining to a small child, humble and meek so that all men and women of color can have a clearer understanding.   Of what has been hidden for ages and not revealed in a book. Of the truth untold but delivered and written in what man can or not do.     

On this journey we have traveled for thousands of years, in good and bad times; our bodies have felt the pain from hateful blows cast down through rocks and stones. For ages our freedom has been monitored by a chain of commands; created through systems, red tape, cages and deceit simply to bondage our sculptured thinking. Our rights were created to keep some peace and leveraged through our basic needs. And unfortunately our fragile feet shall continue to stumble on dry land; where men and woman once thirsted and slaved for their own independence in freedom. And now our children shall taste the truth of ages we once left behind. Where greed and racism did not die in our morals, values and beliefs that are presently being tried, if not challenged in what we want and need.  

As I sat glaring at the dawns early light; I feel as if I have already lived again in this day, twice. The situations or concerns have not changed. It’s only the names and people on different days. I see a child who is in need of everything, where love is free. I can see a family fighting to stay in unity but money cannot buy love and erase the tears from their eyes. Because the reality is "one person" can change the element in everything thing. I can see people a million miles away harvest for food, money and utilities. I've seen man take pride in raping a woman or child to later penetrate his own destiny. I can see the shepherd preaching among sheep attempting to keep them unity. I can see infirmities are making some people weak. I can feel happiness, anger and resentment in all of our mothers, fathers and children who are out playing double jeopardy in the streets. Over and over again I live, breathe and write in the same hours of the day of humanity and our real life stories.     

Matthew: 24 may you find Peace & understanding. 

The Bible

I do not represent myself or my writings to imply that I am the Anti-Christ. And neither am I near being perfected in this life. So when people say the bible is not written accurately and religion is something people would like to believe in. What do they really mean? Are does the bible not accommodate; the way we chose to live in our flesh of reckless choices, shame and mistakes? And if so, then how can man judge who is doing right are doing wrong in this life. And God can’t appoint man to write scripture so that we may earn more of his grace and time.  

Daily I work on suppressing my flesh and quenching that enraged thirst through meditating on Ephesians 3, for better understanding of God’s “holy word”. But not leaning to my own understanding. Because of what I have experienced and seen in this life verses the doctrine written for humanity will keep you in a state of frustration, hope and anxiety. If you chose not to believe there is a higher spirit other than what you can feel and see.

So when the Holy Bible is judged by all nations of man and scripture is used as a passage to express our idol actions instead of spending more energy in doing Ephesians 6. Then how is God at fault for simply appointing man to write and deliver the doctrine from divine wisdom in order so that we “humanity” can find salvation. Therefore I expect to be stretched, tried in the fire and tempted with the desires more than many ways in this life. Especially when I choose to live in my own flesh “expect” there will be more oppositions and consequences. That will challenge my faith in God. In whom I pray and trust; my first love the only creator in Genesis I. Whom placed a word in Timothy because it read clearly of what is ahead of our exhausted thinking once humanity grew weary on this journey.

One day humanity would fall into Ephesians 2, a dark place where the good in faith and bad turned to or against “doctrine” for clarity. And in time children will speak wisdom to the weary, prideful and weak. As they watch man demonstrate their good, evil and bad deeds. So in closing what does mercy and grace, salvation and the gospel mean to me; GOD saw ahead and appointed man to write a plan so that all nations would repent and not sin again, in his or her own flesh. And to for warn us for the remainder of the Days of Our Lives; it would be filled with test over time.    

I can relate to how being hopeless feels but faith reminded me; God knows what a waits ahead of you. And the places you once went are will no longer possess any interest.

In Proverbs the tongue is like a double edge sword where humanity is quick to deliver to one another arrogant and hurtful words. But humanity is slower to accept one another’s apologetic words. In a world of good people and bad. Where murderers once existed in Psalms 10:8; lurking in the world we live in today. 

I can also relate to burning in the flesh and how quick people will take advantage of it. I see many Rebekah's in our mothers, aunts, grandmothers and daughters. So you much possess tough skin once you have identified with; how working in the flesh destroys generations, and in the story of Genesis 19 Lot a father chose his daughter. And in all nations there still exist men who lust after their own flesh, continuing the generational curse.   

I do not write my own doctrine when it comes to sharing with humanity; of all nations good and bad deeds. I do not assume any person will be judged last; when we all disagree on religion. I refuse to say who is more likely to see heaven on any given day. I do not judge another religious choice. I do believe in being equally yoked. I know that all sin is what someone believes theirs is. I have seen the righteous forsaken by man; and out of the blue the Good Samaritan stepped in. I have witnessed the evil in all of man; I have to ask daily to be forgiven. I do believe and respect marriage to be sacred; in the reading of Proverbs: 18. But the reality is humanity still sins.

I do believe there is good teachings and false doctrine; depending on how it is delivered and how we choose to reciprocate and follow it. Ephesians 4:14

So the question has been asked; where do I stand in my religion; am I "IFB" or Southern Baptist,   Cult, Pentecostal, Catholic or non- denomination. And if you're not prepared for these questions believe in me; someone is watching. So again, I will say “I am believer” born into sin and saved by grace & mercy. I also identity with how Satan managed to polish up sin. So yes, I do believe in the gospel written through man of Holy Doctrine for Life's Direction; just look at the world  in which we live in.  

All books hold text. But the reality in them; is how were living it. 

The Funeral

Today I buried a love one who made one “vow” for two reasons in their life. One was to “protect the family and the other was to serve a country”. And in these two choices made; there was destined to be change. At any time and age that did affect many lives. But not all in the same in test, overtime. And there will be times in our life where we will place our own understanding to the side. Why, because people can change; just not always in our anticipated time frame, where many people are not destined to see; what they will never presently believe. And before we proceed to attend another funeral let’s attempt to be more respectful to the dead. If not more thoughtful to ourselves before trading places with the person who silently lay’s in a casket. So judge this passage as you like. But be more prepared to see the truth in a brand new light.

As I sat in peace I could see the crowd watching me and my love ones think. Wondering clearly to see through what is hidden of a possible story. I could hear laughter and see the pain in the eyes of those who were not prepared and prepared to say goodbye. I could feel a breeze of peace over me as it passed gently, and I didn’t need to know the stories left untold, because I had made my peace a long time ago.  

The point of this story line is you could choose to drag on through life surrendering to all the pain endured over the days of your lives; but why not let go of allowing it to dictate how you grow. If you could find many reasons to be happy beyond your disappointments; would you allow another person to repeat the same past situations? Because some of us feel that our pain is greater than another person’s loss. And I can vouch to what happens in this life can never be erased when it comes to people that do contribute to your joy and misery. But if a person cannot be forgiven of their infirmities and faults, it really means you have not moved on. So when death does arrive at your door step by surprise; will you ask it to come another day, because I have unfinished business in my life.

-Angel L, I have more than one story to share. Through a new looking glass.

Real Talk

Real Talk is about humanity and identifying with individual truths; in our choices, actions and what we choose and with whom. And before Angel L began this blog I took many life notes and lessons from people all over the world. That was destined to change this world. So therefore we as a people of all cultures can see our real life stories. So I'll start with me

I am not perfect. I have made a few good choices and many mistakes stemming from my stubborn ways. Until I learned perfection is what someone thinks theirs  is. So I am timeless in all of my beauty; I am my own poetry in motion. I am pillar of strength but weak when I choose to be.  I am a gift to the recipient who has earned his or her reward. I am voice in silent words. I am mind that refuses not to think. I am soul of laughter, submission and critical thinking. I have not always been right but not afraid to be critiqued.   I make up one body in how you see me. But the reality of what God intended me to be. I am confident within my own space. I am the timekeeper of my priorities. I am the gate keeper over who has been assigned to me. I continue in being a caregiver but at times I have nothing left to give, but my understanding and patience to listen.  I am the hunter where I’m the prey.  I once robbed Peter to pay Paul, until I figured out what systems were implemented to shut some people down. I am known for being a peace maker in situations; where people would normally continue confrontations. I have been judged for being opinionated by people who refuse to spill the real deal. I don’t claim to know everything. But I do not hide the facts of what I can see of “BS”. I’m no longer seeking the interest of new friends. Why, because it was hell trying to separate from the people that caused me grief in my past life.   

I am called a Workaholic, guilty of being a Good Samaritan, seen as being lonely because of a lack of interest in hunting down a relationship, but viewed as a person of high interest. Which really means; I’m not the person people would like me to be.  

I hear people say “he or she, thinks they are better than me”, and to be honest that may hold some truth. But you don’t have the time to invest into what other people are going through. So one day I was challenged because I showed lack of interest. In what has been going on for centuries “people seeking for attention”. And it’s not because I do not have compassion. It's because for half of my life I have fed into the world. And for the remainder of my life I am a person of interest who has learned their role and position.  

Real talk I am shy but to some extreme. I am a motivator who sales encouragement. I am known to be talkative, and overly compassionate. But not everyone will appreciate my branded and groomed space. So I don’t cater to people according to status, categories or request. I speak and treat people like they deserve to be treated.

aNGEl l-assumption is assuming what you do not really know   

One Day

I saw a quote the other day. And it set my mind at ease. It read "If you're missing me it's not because I walked, away. It's because you let me go".

There were moments in my life when I selfishly thought God could have provided me with better provision and remove more than a few of selfish people from my life. In order for me to have changed the choices I made at that time until one day my heart and mind re-positioned in line. So I humbly decreased more of myself. In order to accept the struggles God placed ahead of me to only strengthen me.

One day through my trials and anxiety God revealed to me my purpose and destiny. And on that day I began to write from personal places of my and real people's lives. Why, to share the pain and joy we cause one another in this life. Then maybe one day when you choose to examine God for yourself and assume your relationship is rock solid. Keep in mind your past and present behavior has not been overlooked just because you ask for some forgiveness.  Never be disappointed about certain emotions that and repetitious cycles that will arise in your life. Where you have managed to move forward from past decisions with someone else that you can now share the better person of whom you have become to yourself. And what I mean is until we get it right "inside" people in life will move around to their next. But God clearly see's through all of our intentions, motives & choices. So that we can alter ourselves with internal change and who it will occur with; is where God has more of a sole purpose.