Forgiveness

One thing we can learn in denial is this; no person accepts accountability in their doing of anything wrong. Until it opens up; old wounds.

Most of the time our resentment stems from people who are no longer here. So we camouflage our happy faces with other people we search in for a feeling of completion. Because of the dead; can no longer answer to pain they left unanswered.

The purpose of this entry is; someone has hurt another person in this life. Whether it be a husband or wife. Relative, friend, sister & brother or companionship. Regardless of what they did. In your heart u forgave them. But in our minds we will never forget the reasoning behind; Why?

We all have broken pieces, to put together. And we can't control who we love and trust in that person, to put those broken pieces back together.

Therefore we must love ourselves first, to conquer any pain in this life. Although it is comforting to have support. But when the people that love you deny sharing with you what they see in both sides of wrong doing. More struggles will come. But what will happen in that day, family are friends are no longer around?

I possess a good nature. And I do have flaws. I see the good & challenges in all people. Including myself. I listen. I care to help. I don't seek to accomplish anything in retaliation. What is in us; eventually comes out of us. That's why we can share lessons in our struggles.

I heard a sister defend her love one. She said "I'm not God", I said "I'm not God either" so what do we expect of God. Since we have all the answers in one another?

The Ghetto & Poverty

Does the word Poverty separate us? Or do we separate ourselves because of the Poverty conditions, not all but some places people live in?

This is a topic we, us them must address. Or else people will assume someone else has to pay for their circumstances. When in actuality infrastructure & knowledge makes up the difference, even where our minds are conditioned. 

If we chose to live in better conditioned neighborhoods, do we require permission to improve our situations. People need to be educated about economics to better their families.

If we speak to one another in a different dialect; we could use that as a tool to educate our people on how "communication runs this nation". It does not mean some people are better educated, or even more intelligent. We need to learn from one another, what we do not comprehend. Not weight our egos against each other. In most cases people will choose to broaden their own world knowledge. And there are some people who play on an opportunity for tiny problems to turn into real world struggles.  

If you live in any-type of under-developed area across the  globe, let's not assume all people are comfortable. In a poverty environment or have a ghetto mind set. The stress of "infrastructure" can leverage any class of people. And however that community stands people will survive the best way they can.

In poverty every race of ghetto mindset exist. And the possibility of  adjustment is frightening to people who are not prepared of the not seen expectations. Anything of new requires a mindset change in you.

I will contest to being a recipient of government aid in my life. I lived in poverty with no gas, water, food or lights, all cut-off at one time. I’ve visited the prison & placed money on books. I witnessed what a mother does to feed her kids, I witnessed mad men  use their hands, on woman" And it’s not always good for the woman who have suffered with them in their hardships". I myself stood by a man whose “gang sign” was who he showed his loyalty”, a made up choice with options. I had my share of “female jumping’ with all hands, back then I rather had been respected, than be assumed to be anybody’s fool the next day” and through all that life experience it taught me this “opportunities come once in a lifetime, but survival is always required”. 

My friends often say "you think to in-depth". If they only knew tomorrow is already in motion, and the struggles they have never experienced will break them in areas they were confident. To me not all adversity is necessary. 

I no longer need to  hear the nightmares of 911 calls, domestic violence and robberies in the hood. Because of another brother has been killed, or either a sister being raped right across the street from me by her biological daddy.  In the ghetto there is a wired mindset. As in the upper class there is also a mindset. Where both mindsets re-connect in this life we live in of the real insanity. That has not healed from what I've seen in the 80’s, now in the new millennium,  of the same madness.  

We've all learned what a battle looks like. Therefore it's not required to argue about change, People represent or die everyday, not only to say "One day change will come" but how much must we lose. And who will  survive the ghetto-poverty state of mind. 

As the song writer wrote, TURN DOWN FOR WHAT. Poverty has never been a secret. The infrastructure continues to linger. And real People just never stop living in it.

-Angela L

A Woman's working Independence

"Woman must not depend upon the protection of man, but must be taught to protect herself.”

― Susan B. Anthony

What is this quote really saying in today’s society when a woman financially progresses in her career, social peers and learns to read and write. What affect occurs in today's society? For progressing in her own independence? Are is not fair to say "two heads are better than one, thinking"?

In today’s society woman have climbed the corporate and social ladders of success, through the acknowledgement of their experienced skills. Placing them in hierarchy positions, some even above the salary of men. In a time where Progression was contested through Prohibition for woman. 

“Where there is no increase in vision we cannot grow, where there is lack of new knowledge we hinder our own growth”. -Angel L

Woman have conquered many obstacles, over the years challenging the face of Prohibition days, by evolving in careers once argued to be accomplished only by men.  The skills woman once only related to were domestics and caring for the children. Until the 1920's changed our vision in history. Woman discovered their freedom in a new world of career opportunities.

A despairing thought in today's society is for a woman to have found her own independence, means she has forgotten her BC roll in the household. Or either the intimidation of her success places her in a place seclusion.

In a role, we all need to give respect to what one contributes, and respect earned to what one adds to. We are not in a competition of who  controls progression.

If there is only 1 pair of pants; then who created more than 1 pair to wear?

If there is only 1 paycheck that can stretch; then why is it more common we require two payroll checks to survive in a household shared?

If were going to practice living in BC times; then we need new knowledge to prosper plans we discuss amongst one another ?

We can discuss & continuously debate amongst one another; a woman's role in the household & the woman's career progression. We can debate her title and salary, we can create descriptions that fit a male type.

We eventually will except a woman's role has progressed in this life.  

Fathers Day

A truly rich man,  is one whose children that run into his arms when his hands or empty.

Happy Father's Day! To all Fathers who are here. And the Father's who left this life with tiny gifts to remind us of having a Father's love, patience & presence. 

Real World

Over 450 years ago people invested in slavery, 8 years later they voted for change, 2 years later we repeated history. And every day we struggle to heal in any amount of years "you either see, or not see in someone else, change" . Welcome to this Real World of experiences no one really knows how either of us will re-act, once real life happens. Stay within your real reality trying not to make people relevant in a personal place of your confidenced. emotions.

We are who we’re going to be when it comes to judgement. Quick to point the finger at our choices. In a world of minimum patience and understanding, either way life moves forward in time. And not everyone is prepared to see themselves in a different light. Therefore the cycle repeats in places we continue to seek in one other of human change & clarity in understanding. 

I attended a comedy show and what the masses  collectively agreed with was the joke; we not only lived in but understood. Of how people are quick to hurt one another. Then wonder why life repeats  itself with different people in our lives.

We should all grow from experience.  A plan stitched in this real world we live in. And the devil spoke to say "people have lied so much to one another it makes my job easier". Therefore we turn to God and ask why are we suffering.

It’s not un-common we un-intentionally create problems in our lives. The sad part is none of us are prepared for the real world  fight. But everyone is right until we figure out WHY. Therefore its on me that my family is not a part of my insanity & suffering.

As it was in the days of Noah.  So shall it be in the days of man.  For now once we have done the best we can, Pray, Forgive yourself & KEEP it moving in this Real  Life we live in. The signs are real in what is being lost & the buried hurt that taunts us. 

Raisins

If we're always correct, then when are we prepared to be corrected? We can all attest that dating is like a game of chest, and even more demanding in a marriage, let it be said every season requires a refresh of ingredients.

Therefore I speak in general of substituting a quick fix, to whip-up our own inquisitiveness in inhibitions, where a scoop of accountability never fails to come up missing. So how can it be humanly possible in a world of dynamics of men and woman; we always trying to figure out what ingredients are missing out?  

Can we really make it work without any type of substitutions? Meaning what we say to one another is always “real and straight forward”, and if not then we’re always going to be mixed up in one another’s, salad.

The majority of the time we don’t think things through, until we are in to deep to removed. Out of  denial is easier than acceptance, we all need to hold onto someone.  

Real talk what can we do to satisfy one another. If not completely make one another happy:

If money can’t buy one another’s love, but only contentment; how long you think it’s going to happen?

If we can’t figure out this math together of family growth, paying bills and future plans; who you think is going to first put up their hands?

If we don’t think struggles is real redundant; then who the hell got comfortable?

If we did step out of familiarity and find something new; what has even changed about you?

While we had each other figured out; we allowed our raisins to dry up in the sun.  

 A keen sense of “knowing”, prepares you to plant for a new season.  

Revolving Doors

Our lives are filled with revolving doors. We only need to be prepared to choose; which door we will enter through. And I will not always promise you there is truth in this life. I can only promise you sometimes disappointments are not always meant to hurt you. But to strengthen you.

Today life has another door waiting on us, and the one we choose, to enter through will make the difference.   

Today you or I will be sitting in a holding space, alone or with a companion. Sit still and meditate on the next move to make, and I promise you “something” will fill out of place in our lives. Don’t consume your mind with the questions “of why”.  Either we know the answers or we struggle to process; what is no longer working.

I don’t know to whom I’m speaking to. But I do know this from experiences “Our lives are filled with revolving doors”, and only TIME has strengthened us to open up the next 🚪.