Mirrors

Love who you are; not what People are looking for.

If I communicate openly and show you who I am, will you do the same in return? Friends are hard to find, but knowing what kind of friend you have; truthfully makes the difference.

If we disagree can we trust each other, to discuss our disagreements only between one another? Because most of the time we both will go around this friendship, talking to other people to vent.

If you know you’re never wrong, because of the people you run to will never point out your faults; will any friendship last in seasons to come? Because most of time; people harness allow build up in their hearts.

If you ever get caught in your childish ways; and mom can always say “my child has a good heart”, who do you think will take the time out to care?

I was in the grocery store on yesterday immediately a handsome man said “nice legs”, I did not look into his eyes right away, I simply replied from the side “thank you with a smile” as I completed the call I was on. This man continued to watch me talk, is when I hung up. He then said listening to you it sounds you care about people. But sometimes allow yourself to receive back what you seem to give a lot. I said great advice. He proceeded to talk about how God wants us to say a few words to people and cut it off. I ask are you a minister, bishop or deacon in the church. He replied with a smile “a fireman”. I ask are you married with children. He said “Yes, but I’m separated with 7 & 7”. I said separated is not divorced and often within 2 years people get back together. He smiled and said we all got problems. So what is yours? I replied everyone does not always have “problems” most of the time we create our own “situations”; I have found balance in my life. He then said what is my purpose for talking to him. I replied without a long statement and said “you had an intention for me knowing you were separated, and I was a woman who was minding her own business”.

The moral of this passage is we are so quick to judge; so how can we learn something new from each other, in what we keep doing to one another, without looking into the MIRROR?

I will say this “knowing” who I love the most; I can live with myself and choices. What I’m not going to do is allow people to change my mind to accommodate their pop -up emotions. Therefore understand the type of people WE choose to; allow into our life, release out of your life, or hold onto passing bye in time. That includes married people who are seeking for peace.

No one can love you, better than you. I have learned to listen with an open mind and talk, at a speed of 100. I had to learn how to care & be supportive.  I do know the peace in when 2 keep it silent.

Nice Guy

We’ve all tried that season before. And for no reason at all; it brought out the bad in us all!

Time requires a statement that sticks, the one people will challenge but respect to never forget, what you established.

It’s time to Pipe it up, and establish your own Value & Worth, bring to the table an established mindset; no more pipe dreams  & long winded non conducive conversations. Hunt down your investments then proceed to select your top horse if not stallion; to ride until you see “a vision with you riding in it”.

Watch the breakdown

·       Power is over-rated, wisdom is intimidating, money is being bartered in taking for granted, respect is under appreciated if not respected. And to communicate results in violence if not debates. So be nice 4 what? Know your |Value & Worth!

Krispy Kreme

Traveling this weekend with my family was a delight. We brought Krispy Kreme and I'll tell you why.

Life is busy. And we all know that time continues to move. So I reached out to the family and coordinated a plan.  Sometimes things happen that interrupt our attention. Don't get so cluttered with stuff; you forget what is going on.

One day I received a call. It was an old friend I checked on. This person shared "when times were tough,  I saw your struggles". I shared those were not struggles my friend, life was shaping me to endure until the end". Now where do we pick up in this friendship. She replied I've lost so much. I replied, "stuff is replaceable, people are not". But I'm still your girl in storms are not. She said you're still my same "girl" with good karma!

So back to the Krispy Kreme story. I remember looking to my right seeing this box of Krispy Kreme donuts. So thankful for the queen eating them. As my mother chattered with laughter, chewing those Krispy Kreme donuts. But that's not how my stories end. I plan to love, laugh & live as hard as I can. With the people who are in my life; seeking balance & peace.

If you have people in your life that you can't imagine being without. Go ahead and fix what is not really broken, more than often we do create our own problems. We all have disagreements & visions. But before this day ends; value every breathing moment we live in.

-Angela L. 

Housing

We are familiar  with the term "FEAR". The "feared of emotion" we work in of accepting it.

Allow yourself to live the life you dream of or plan. For tomorrow will spike in another increased  rate of .025%. Approval is at its lowest rate of (5.1), what average working American can afford a $2000 a month payment? Evaluate the demographics, housing inventory because upgrades may not be included.

Prepare a plan that fits your budget, a life style can be adjusted. And when tomorrow happens you can relax in a peaceful state of mind.

The housing inventory is limited; if you're expectations are weigh above your cash reserves. And 3 bureau credit scores, FICA & debt ratios. So lets better weigh out our options. And invest in paying closer attention; to what is obtainable to accomplish.

So after all these years of investing in the success of another investors visions. I decided to take a dip and research in "home ownership", and what programs are available to assist. Just be prepared for a wide eyed opening understanding the requirements of "home ownership".

1. Prepare a budget that is obtainable once life happens.

2. Re-calculate how much of a short-term & long-term invested you can commit too; once the commitment is interrupted? Most of us assume we life figured out, because we have a master minded plan. Then illness occurs, loss of income, loss of life or someone decides to walk away. If not contributes emotionally & financially in the same way. 

3. An excellent credit score is 660 to 800. But how many essential workers  can meet an adjustable rate mortgage. And manage unexpected bills included college ( even with scholarships). If not the shadow of debt bondage. 

4.   Consistency, Performance and Knowledge holds the key can unlock doors   

5. It would behoove you to do inquire, research and compile information. But if you're not fully invested in your own plan; you may be sold a dream in a lane;  that is forever changing.

Remember ALL to do your "Monthly Budget", with whom you have or choose to not to grow with. 

I wrote this log in 2018. But in 2020 I'm prepared to be educated; once again.  

BUDGET

A notepad and pen, open mind and discipline will be required for this passage. To continue allow us to listen, too one another in what is missed in the monthly budget.

Maybe this time we can discuss in reasoning what is being missed, of expectations in the both of us.

 This time the woman is not inquiring about do you love her or not, but this time it is the man who is willing to share with her; about how he feels unappreciated in love, not communicated with & often misunderstood, because of his own inner struggles.

For the both of us time will progress; showing us how much we do miss, in our monthly budgets.

 “a spiritual foundation, a mental connection & a physical desire”, keeps the fire burning. Then how can we better prepare ourselves in these areas, we forever need of the both of us in work?

The significance of this entry is to reflect on the details in our daily plans. To ensure we collectively understand that what is being added or subtracted in one another, equals to the path we will find ourselves; of being alone or together. In a budget that is waiting to be communicated.      

Coffee II

How often did I show you at breakfast time how “you were to me, my morning coffee”. And when did I not make you feel 10 feet. tall, although I knew you were only a 6‘1 man, with a broken heart & spirit.

Today I wonder will time erase our memories, because I knew in my heart “I deserved” more than what I settled for. From a man who did not know how to receive support and give back real love. It's unfortunate a woman's love is deeper than we judge.

Did I tell you enough “I got you through any storm, as long as you grow-up, and don’t run away”. And that night do you remember holding my hand “in prayer”, knowing who I am  that you were not prepared to be that man. I waited on in this lifetime, of what we have left in.   

Remember when you invited me on our last trip, you called until I responded. It was always this way, because I had something you definitely needed. A listening ear and solid direction. I knew then before answering, it would be me taking this last and final call from you. Now who will you run to?  

Woman we are not perfect, neither do we possess all the answers. We may never understand “WHY”, it had to happen. But count on this; a blind man can see a female with Tweety bird, thinking. A seeing man understands when he takes for granted; a good woman.

So, back to you and how far do rise? Above the  heartache you created over so many years. And who was there with no hesitation when that morning call came through? Then later who called with the worst news? When pride interferes with peace, people loose in  each other.  Now who will you run back and forth too, seeking in answers to be validated & rescued? 

On this last page of our life story, with no pun intended I buried the real truth once I heard it. The sad part is in a passage of time it would be the woman you love in your life to share with me their individual stories. Which I will keep buried. So now the truth is out. Because of you. And when u look into her eyes as a man u are, let her not be weary another day to see real joy in your face. Now that you have to face your faith in finding your own peace.


Unfortunately in trying to  heal in our pain we take it out on people who really care.  We take time for granted when we should be better at appreciating and communicating. Over  those morning cups of  ☕, with  whom we  grown in life with.

Because of our choices who is right or wrong? On one hand we wrestle in our hearts with whom we are lonely if not growing with, and the other we plead with God to show us how to be in love with  who is not communicating. If not we seek in our own directions, to fix one another to be happy with.  

Arthur Unknown-"Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle"

SHHH!

New chapters are waiting to be written. And today re-evaluations will be completed. Whether or not we move on to those new chapters in the stories of our life? We can only answer, to find internal peace.

Now that we know the differences in our right & wrongs. And in those rough times who is going to be sincere & loyal through real life storms. We do understand it may not always be that person with whom we started out with. So this time around we can expect more; in what we can make of possible.

No matter what decisions we come to in this moment. No matter what act brought us into this thinking moment. Things are required to happen. In order for us to see our own actions.♡

Plan to live a life you always dreamed about. Plan it with someone with the same VISION in a sound mind, if not by yourself. Believe there is a Life that has been waiting for your next move. Do not pause in regrets; thinking you can survive in fixing, brokenness of the past. Something new is required to see yourself in peace & happiness.

Shhh! Quiet as it is kept "Depression" has no make-up to cover it. However, boost your self-esteem All The Way UP..

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