King's & Queens

"The truth is everyone is going to hurt you.  You just have to decide who is worth suffering for.
-Bob Marley"

I'm not a saint. And YESS! I do highly respect the way a  silent BAD BOY, genuinely THINKS. So therefore I respect what I observe; of people who are not required to think or synchronize on the same page. But how do we manage to "flip" people that are out of our conversation range. To figure out what tedious compromise is? From other Kings and Queens who are not as strong as they appear. Do we not understand this is a mental game to see who will give in. But not every person's story is the same. This is how I learned from my experience.

We interact daily with compromise regardless of whom they claim is dear to their hearts. People are quick to demand outside of their pre-existing relationship "respect my husband, old lady, dude, wife and kids" But how about "you" respect them first. Is when we should recognize the SIGN that not every  conversation is worth the tears drops that FALL from your eyes. Is the reasoning to why I don't live a reality in human fantasies. I am a Queen who values her worth and reasoning. I dream BIG. I am a diamond who is familiar with "being in love but not equally yoked, trials and friendship, family unity, tribulations and prosperity. But not yet appreciated for a more in depth level of thinking. I work extensively to travel and taste the beauty around the world. And yes, I do also manage to pay bills. But I choose to also live. There are many reasons to why I'm said to be "too poised" enlightening and smart at times; where the dark is brighter for some of us to continue in remaining blind. I write stories real people are embarrassed if not silenced to share. So I earn my respect for being "who I am". And yes I continue to loose people with a sensitive level of understanding. Because I refuse to be devalued. In a world of obstacles that await all our faiths.

I wonder how often is the question asked; what do you love most about yourself? For every King and Queen this question means everything. If the unity is valid for us in reasoning. And concrete in our understandings". And if some people are not settling. Then why do Kings and Queens embellish in open marriages & couples seek other holes for satisfaction. Are we limited to ideas in pleasing one another intimately.  Or do we seek pleasures that can never be met in the flesh. So we act savagely in seeking people who are open to a world of NEXT? And yes it is among the living.  Look at the options we keep choosing. And tonight as I spent some quality time with a King from another country land.  He talked and I paid close attention to every scenario followed with an explanation. He admired my lips and conversation. And complimented me with no hesitation. He made every meaningful form of contact.  He complimented my beauty and wisdom. Then he said "don't ask a king so many questions". Allow things to fall in line. Because people place to much emphasis; on emotions we later question.  When we should be more focused on who we can build a fortune with. Sounds good; but how so if his conversation is limited to penetration. He proceeded to ask if I was dating. I said I keep my mind focused, legs closed, eyes and options wide open.  He proceeded to plant a kiss beginning with my forehead.  As the server patiently watched & waited.  I was delighted about the public affection. Then after dinner he admitted there is a Queen in his space.  But they have an arranged understanding; no kids, no commitment just occasional SEX. I'm a Queen who respects a man of options, honesty & diligence. So now we have created a mutual understanding. And tonight I will remember this moment knowing that there is a King meant for every Queen with or without a plan beyond their legs.  But today I'll pass on being another person's option on a 200-1800 count in thread. And to keep it real every Kings "curve" is not worth the Co-pay for a doctors visit that could of been avoided. To exist for "hours" then forgotten in seconds. Sometimes our options will appear light but don't get "caught up" your Queen and King will be ON-TIME.

Therefore if any woman or man in or out of a relationship continues in pleasuring random acts in the flesh; then the outcome is what you bartered for so there are no misunderstandings. And yes I have indulged in my share of satisfaction. But what I'm saying is use your brains more often to avoid unnecessary choices.

So now we say to God it's time you grant permission of our self-prioritized way of thinking in the flesh. Where we have found a loophole in the Old Biblical Testament. To service more than one woman or man in our permiscuous thinking. Then we both struggle with communication stemming from our arrogance. Of believing in our own lies. And existing in the blind leading the blind.

The people and acts are in real time. In every era of human life. The desires run deep throughout human history. The generations of incest still exist, our hands or a hot mess. The song writer lyrics sing " she don't want to be saved, don't save her". The thirst for lust is TOXIC. The anger grows deeper for one another where the truth is not hid. Hell people share their own business on social media land. If not what we Reveal of ourselves in person.

The tongue games are Ruthless. The human mentality is destructive in all ages of understanding in men and women. There has to be some logic in how our acts are making sense. Of this new generation that argues it's comparison to the old ages of Soldiers, Kings, Queens and Gents. And yes, experience brought this Queen a chasten is why I choose to live as if I was taught a lesson in entertaining ignorance. I'll prefer wisdom instead of being led astray, any day.

The reckless attitudes should come as no surprise. Because some Kings consider a Queen "the bad bitch" with no limitations, casual drug pill popping addictions, and weed is a natural herb.  While sharing is caring between our legs" and lowering our "standards". And some queens do vouch for a king who "hustles for anything" "smack that ass, but in the wrong ways" as long as he "swings a good pitch" to serve her heated position. And we struggle it in our light weight thinking. In hard times why these people we involve ourselves with lack in making a conducive contribution. Because our intensions were limited in the beginning. But again this is what some not all of our New Generation of Kings and Queens pride themselves in of common sense thinking. You be the judge in your own situation. Where perception of one another has reached another level. When woman or more of hunters seeking men as prey and in return we show minimum value if not an inch of respect. To only gain some positive attention or negative attention. Popping mollies is now a trend in every class of men and woman of all ages.  A crowd pleaser is confused with being judged by our tattoos reflected from the crack of our assets. And not every birth is a mistake. A female invited a male into her space. Who voluntarily entered in UNSAFE. And not every plan is to wed; an open set of legs.

Not every Queen has loyal intentions. To serve & protect a good "bad boy's" back. Not every queen is meant to be tasted on a Kings pallet. Not every queen is filled with goals & expectations. Some queens are on a mission. Even to gain a baby daddy. So if more Kings could admire beyond penetrating every females crack with his pride and bat. Then an equally yoked Queen will reign in open options. Not both your set backs. Now can we assume the King and Queen position. If we have not all rejected what is required to hold it.

We always say "something has to change". But maybe if it stays the same we can change. In 2017 by figuring out our own self-worth.

GRINGOS

I don't exist in the mindset of "how we going to come up quick" let's live in the mindset of let's plan to go get it. Because most people have figured out what they need to survive and I'm more involved in the mindset of what I still need to stay live. And with all due respect survival is understanding a gutter or ruthless mentality. And while we place emphasis on removing & saying we believe IN GOD WE TRUST? Human beings are being leveraged with it. 

The music mobile JZ slayed this verse "until you own your own, you can't be free. How we still slaves in 2016". So get mad if you want, change the page. Tune it out and struggle with doubt or even better blame someone else. But reality is the truth is what it is.  Therefore “You got to own it, if you want it” and identify the difference between; a life, the truth or real deceit.   

Today we are not confused about the choices we make. We are more frustrated in catching no breaks. Therefore our struggles appear to be different. Where people are categorized into targets, but also consider in the decisions we also make there is a trap that waits. 

Therefore if your desire is to reach a few or many pinnacles in this life, envision them first before you expect someone else to understand the mission inside of your head.

One night at dinner I ask a male companion if I was always deep. He in return said to me "never stoop to low for a person to understand you at a higher level. However, listen to me. I looked into this person’s eyes and realized we had nothing in common to share. Checkmate I got played. But not slayed. Keep it moving tomorrow is a different day. I often share with people; either you will appreciate a person, challenge their understanding, or figure out what access to tap into what you need out of them. Family, lovers, associates, strangers and friends, included.  And most of time the problem is "people that say you don't get get it, have it all figured out" of what they need but you can't accommodate in thinking. 

Every human soul has the understanding of “we all have to work in some form or fashion to gain access to whom and what we need” But work to some people is not always 8-5. Sometimes work is what you can gain with using your body, control and mind.   

So we learn life lessons in the reciprocation of what people will do to “work on you” and that includes Family, lovers, associates, strangers and friends so there are no surprises to what will happen in a good or bad ending.

Every person has an idea of who will be committed in their choices; right or wrong this person will wither in every storm. Again it takes a certain type of people to teach, and a certain type of people to think & comprehend at a lower, medium and higher level of understanding.

I’m a person who believes IN why not discuss the elephant in the room in order for us to avoid the repetition of our web of afflictions to reach a point of understanding, even if you don't want to accept it, respect it.  In case someone else seeks validation to continue in doing the same OLD things. And age has no limitations; where people struggle with “change”.

Access draws attention, youth and beauty is like finding the fountain to life, sex makes people feel on top of the world if not invincible; and did I mention people are not only selling it they are now requiring you pay for it in advance. Before getting to identify your differences. Fame can make a person act, deranged. And the final cut off from an addiction to that access will bring out peoples true faces, a hot mess.

The Struggle is real. In all races of man and daily I pray to God how did Jesus manage to love us so much? In a world filled with people who seek to inflict nonsense. And not expect Karma to payback.

Life Goes On

We are the last generation left. The only difference is we're just replacing new names in the same stories already lived. I share this with my family "people will visit into your life" some will stay for a moment if not a lifetime. So allow temporary people to only take away, what they walked in with once they take that exit. 

We all face situations with people in our lives; that raise the point of concern to question, WHY? When life in the hood is never good for everyone, to continue in living it out in our minds. Here's my story line.

I received a call one day from an old friend, who had buried a young wife and best friend in his life. So I knew from his tone he did not sound the same. As I listened to what he had to say. I could clearly hear the clarity of “uncertainty”. Only because I was familiar with his past so many years of investment. I made a vow to be his ride or die in this friendship. And at any given time this old friend could of ask “how has your life been” which never happened.  The conversation proceeded “I’ll be in town and it would be nice if you would come and hang out”. Immediately I said “no doubt” even though I knew in my heart this friendship had grown apart; because I stepped into my maturity a long time ago. But it could not hurt to see my old friend and laugh; once again as we always did. I arrived on the scene and it was no surprise that the atmosphere reminded of pages we should have jumped off of. So I did not hate on  his parade, we've lost to many along the way.  As the evening began to slowly grind. The air grew thick with mist as “JP” slammed his famous hits. Several women flashed their natural derriere’s bouncing off the walls; as men touched and glared. And yet we wonder why our “relationships” come easy then quit "quick ". But I'm not mad at anyone who expresses their freedom in action. And yes, I’m for having a good time whether in a slow pace or fast grind. I just miss the old days in a new time of change.   

The moral of this story is no matter what your relationship is. People are destined to emotionally and physically change “with time and age” so “you can either choose to accept or disassociate yourself from “copying” the Identify of someone else. Because we are destined to be impacted by what happens of challenging our individual understanding. I just pray at this level  of our lives we embrace more of life.

I occasionally will say I’m familiar with hard times and people who are there to witness everything. So we become accustomed to the environment we once knew. At the next level of a new space. We tend to find the same atmosphere to remind us of "we're still living there".

A love one calls because they are internally alone. But life has got you caught up in family, kids, careers, financial struggles, relationships and marriages. And sometimes you feel emotionally, lifeless. So what do you do where in some cases people feel their purpose is found in clutters of things to do, some people feel obligated to put everyone else before themselves, some people will only support themselves and silently seek emotional pity from everyone else.   The moral to this story is you must prioritize and decide what is of a priority in your life. While you’re living before you die.

A new job opportunity has finally made a landing. And it’s not what you want but it will supplement what you did not have, or struggle with people to get. Which is a way to stabilize an “honest living” in hours that are tedious, the work load is strenuous, the pay fluctuates, people are full of jive talk and the politics are set in place, DAILY. But the minor detail we have missed is who is teaching our kids. So they understand how struggles are already predestined if we don’t properly add to their thinking of reading, math and writing. And I understand public and private education is the plan where ordinary people are also dealing with the “same hand”. The moral to this story is never become dependent on what has been set in place, to distract you from what is already destined to change. 

A tiny child looked into my eyes & ask me last night "why do you leave us & return". I smiled & took her hand " to say I will never leave you my child" but I must know certain "barter deals" to survive and "courage, knowledge & wisdom" will keep you alive. Before people & this story unwinds". She said what do mean, auntie. I said people are up to old tricks in new times. And the world will never be the same "look into the eyes & not so much of the lines". So auntie will stay on top of "game". In order for this family too survive. So it is relevant my child we all recognize the 🕙 that we stretch out in our human minds.

Life is what you put into it. Lessons and Wisdom is what you walk away with. 

1/2

There will come a time to create some space or walk away from certain relationships. Reasoning being is that you don’t have the time to rewind where you have been to accommodate where another person does not see the both of you growing. It would behoove you to stick with your own mission.

Something's telling me somewhere in time that we are destined to meet that, one. Why, because sometimes we do get it right the first time in life where no man or woman will ever reach the pinnacles of perfection in relationships. But we do have to establish with whom we can deal with, and to prepare for life’s unexpected. While watching time fly bye never hold the responsibility that we are the finished product in a failed relationship. The cycles have to be broken that existed from our past generations. So the question is "If we could find the perfect someone" would we recognize them? Or would we brainstorm and compare them with the past of our relationships. And it's not always a bad memory. Sometimes life just happens so just stay prepared for the unexpected. To get pass what we get caught up in. Of what the last person did to break our trust, and shatter our emotions.     

 Therefore looking for substitutions just won't work immediately. You need time to heal before jumping into someone else new. And never allow someone to make you feel GUILTY of knowing EXACTLY what you need. People often judge you as the problem when they are still in their burdened emotions. There is some laughter in that. Some time we think we know everything about one another. So therefore we assume who will stick around. To only find out we're also being judged in what we neglected to communicate with that other person who showed compassion. Life is funny that way. In reminding us we all must change & communicate effectively. 

When someone is thinking about you, they don’t just think about reaching out to you.

When a man or woman chooses to sacrifice you don't have to ponder with “if it's you they will not think about twice”. This man or woman will show up at any given moment in time. 

When people are brittle in their hearts, not every man or woman is invited into mend it. Be careful of how much time you invest in.

When someone misses holding you, they don’t just “occupy” that space with anybody in your place.  

When people don’t know what they want, it is not a “mirage”. Allow them to seek who they want and what they need.

What we see with our eyes, may not play out in real life. When women carry every emotion they feel in their heart, some men care from in between their legs. While the remainder of those men who really are searching for the “entire package”. To execute some “plans” involving compromise and real commitments” in places that are not within a ½ inch of understanding, rejections and limitations.

No one really knows why love chooses random people. Maybe we just make the choice for love and choose whom we want to love. So how about we first teach one another, how to be there for each other. 

Cup of Java

A therapeutic space to congregate & getaway. To grab a cup of Java. And then tap,  click away before embarking. Or planning our pre-planned days. But before we embark upon the world. Let's gets re-acquainted with one another. Regarding ourselves; first. As we digest the events taken place in the world. And observe the strangers; making new these connections. That we would of never initiated of quality time. Just to sit in comfort & unwind. To share of our; goals, business proposals, life experiences & human ideas. Because everyday someone is faced with the challenges of the demands. From success & failures; that either push us to our human limits. Are either matured US in just being human. So the question is what will overflow our cups today? Where life has filtered out the ingredients to fill US back up again? In a space we have the freewill & a purpose to change. How so, allowing life lessons. To stretch our mental; growth.

Half of our lives we live trying to figure out; the answers to these life concerns. That we then seek in questions. For real answers. That require a cup in human; patience. 

Half of our lives we search to discover the importance of catching up to our real purpose which is "treasuring ourselves" without thinking.

Enjoy Your Life Responsibly!

"I DO"

Understand now the purpose of being in love. I do respect another person’s choices. I vow to never apologize again for the desires I pray to share with someone who values and appreciates me on any & every day of the year.

This next time I will keep closer to the mindset of; how I was not created to save or fix what remains heartless, disconnected and broken. And how a man can’t respect what he has no intentions of working for & respect. I will not deny myself of embellishing my womanhood. I will always watch out for manipulation in the “same face” temptations. Whether woman or man. Just to feel affection and to be needed.   

I promise to identify with; why and if I’m feeling lonely in or out of having a relationship to avoid bargaining with the after-math of people that are empty, desperate and mindless in their own human actions. I vow to allow space when created arguments and excuses exist for validation in walking away; even if it’s for a moment.  I will respect a promise. But just in case I will protect my heart if the words don’t add up to any action. I refuse to think I should settle for less and downgrade the logic of respecting my standards, mind, soul and body. Just to have a warm body next to me in a warm or cold bed. I’ll make more time to love myself; even more instead.

I will cancel this next trip & be more honest will myself. Because if he is not what I need. Or shown me anything different then why should this disappointment be worth my weekend of unfilled satisfaction. See some people will “wine & dine” over a period of time just to fill a pleasure in their life.

Therefore, I will not forget to spoil, love & encourage that “equally yoked” man, who shows me the same in return. Even in our lowest or highest moments. I will demand we communicate before walking away; without a reasonable understanding. I will work harder on compromise; but with all due respect; don’t place high expectations on me in places you will not in return of compromise back.  I will make a point to speak up when we are stirring off course; it does not mean I’m “more intelligent or being so  smart”.  My baggage is not a concern but together we can both unpack any unresolved extra baggage. I will work intellectually in bringing my gifts to life. And in return I pray he will ask God for permission to do the same. I will love and respect the children we “combine”, no titles necessary what is yours is also mine. I will let him know every moment he no longer makes me feel like a treasured woman. I will make light of how “God” is the head in our lives. So no matter what happens it will take a cold winter in hell to destroy what we have.

So I’m thinking; Wait on God a little while longer. Because any day "I DO" is destined to happen.

BLACK-RELATIONSHIPS

Not every black woman is the same. Not every black woman is bitter or a baby mamma. Not every black woman will walk away. Not every black family is broken. The majority do have a plan to educate the remainder of correct direction. And for every black man there has been one black woman who will stand by him. Not every black man is to blame, uneducated, imprisoned, broken or some females “baby daddy”. But for every "beauty" "strength" and "breath" of blackness there is a race that desire the both of them.   

We’ve either viewed or spoke it; the negative and positive side of black relationships. The words, documentaries & actions are explicit; the logic is disturbing & the pain remains unsettling. And it does exist in all races of men and women. Because we, us, them make one conscious decision to judge and not take accountability of our individual and collective human actions & contributions.

One instrument about time is that;  although it will never roll back, it will mend any “color” of brokenness.